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But then do things that make a wise being say you are so full of rage you deserve to be next to the person you hate. And it’s a you can run but you can’t hide situation where you’ll always encounter foolish people you hate

Knock it off. No one thinks I did a bad thing and I’m not convinced. You just lied to get people to do things about things I’ve never done. You all let the homophobes win. You’ can’t tell me even if I committed a crime gay people should support homophobes in any circumstance. I didn’t learn and I’m going to create more trouble for you than you should have. You want good things, not a breakdown of yourself so you feel less like a fool by having me as your fool

I cannot seem to pooooooooost

I was influenced to steal and not some grand thief. I feel as if no one would listen to me when I say this. Because truly no one will.

When I look back on my life, and knowing everyone attributed fake crimes to me because I did commit a crime before, I realize I never would've committed any crime if it weren't for the bad influences entering my life

I know I know. This is what they all say.

Heres the difference. I was precocious as kid, called an angel by adults. Very caring. Dressed my little sister. Effeminate male essentially who listened, diametric opposite of my brother who stirred trouble. I never did. I received awards in elementary school for being the most helpful, kindest student at whatever awards and this wasn't per class. It was per grade. Like I stood out as someone who listened, respected, didn't meddle, as a kid. Not truly perfect, especially because I got bullied harshly for being myself and that in turn lead me down a bit of a wrong path.

I had kids on my bus trying to get me to swear, get naked and show gentalia. I always held strong and didn't and it was giving me reputation issues. I also joined the gardening club in 4th grade and was only friends with woman. didn't play sports. Got made fun of for it.

Anyways it led to a reputation sullied with my peers. I was the weird effeminate drag queen / transvesite they called me.

So the weird scene kids befriended another weird kid. Kind of innocuous. A girl who smoked cigarettes at a sleepover I was at in 8th grade (I didn't go back to that kids house) befriended me in 10th grade when she was more open, introduced me to her friends she met all over cause she was social online, met people in her neighborhood which was her grandmas neighborhood so she met people from other schools. I only met new friends at youth group and was interested in all the different people. She got me to smoke pot with other friends. I totally did that. But after that I was willing to do it because I didn't see it as bad. My dad drove my friends home that night and new we were all high and had a grand ol oppree of a time watching us kids cause it turned out he was still getting high as an adult.

The scene girl who was my new close friends stole a credit card. She told me she stole her grandmas credit card and the CC company didn't make anyone pay. The grandma didn't want her granddaughter in trouble, just paid and locked up her things better so the girl really was dumb and i listened cause I thought she was wise, knew things and people. She told me she had her grandmas card for the first day of summer and tried to get our friend group to come to the mall to buy us things. I was the only one who tagged along, everyone else seemed to think it was a bad idea (she had a reputation of stealing, I wanted to support my friend cause she was fun and knew thigns I never knew). She stole our friends moms credit card, thinking she wouldn't get in trouble but didn't want to say it. She thought all CC's companies are nice to their customer base if someone stole it and just 'eats the cost". Made some little bit of sense, only a little, but thats what we both thought since she "got away" stealing her gmas credit card. When the cops showed up she named me as her accomplice and I ended up getting charged as an acoomplice. I got 1 hour community service, a diversion class to show kids what its like to get in real trouble. She got probation, fines, etc. She spread the rumor to the school it was my idea to steal it, and moved schools. People were really hesistant but also I smoked pot with others, so some were helping stoke the flames.

When I started to work in high school, a girl from my high school I was friends with a friends with I mentioned in the interview I knew and apparently that was enough to convivence my boss everyone would get along. Apparently the girl hated me, because of the stealing. She ended up telling my boss I stole from the store. They never found evidence, nothing came of it, but they did ask me in a meeting around others and I denied it cause it wasn't true. But it was enough to make people skeptical of me.

So I lost lots of friends I had just made, in youth group, in high school. I had a few close friends but apparently when I was getting anti-social they decided to treat me like shit and pretend to be my friend. So end of high school was volatile.

A Jewish girl friends with this Jewish family who the girl stole the CC from befriended me. We actually knew each other from childhood. She basically also wanted to make my life miserable but pretended to be my friend and told me she stole from walmart all the time, stole makeup, showed me how she did it. Stole from the mall. I did eventually steal from walmart only because she kept showing me how she did it. I did what I did. But I wasn't ever going to steal from a store until she showed me. The scene kids I knew stole from convivence gas stations near the park, at the mall. In the 8th grade a kid stole a CD from bestbuy where I was supposed to just get my CD and we were going home.....like everyone around me was stealing.

I didn't steal more than from a few stores when I was struggling through college (honestly I didn't struggle hard but still). This was enough to convience everyone in my life i am a big thief. paired with homophobic family that was angry I tried to commit suicide at 17 from being bullied for being gay (they thought it was like code for I wouldn't admit i felt guilty from "stealing" - I hadn't stolen anything at this point really).

Its bad. Like fucking awful. Because I try to clear my name from all this stealing thats attributed to me. EVERY workplace since 2018 has had all employees refuse to befriend me, mess with me, make my life harder, make fun of me. No support from management or HR.

I moved in with my family from graduate school and they used that to start fights. My dad said I stole a check from him and my life has been fucking terrible since. Like everyone is breaking into my house to put on parental trackers on electronics I leave lying around to see what I am doing. Cops do nothing when I show them the evidence. Courts did nothing to help me get my things back. Jobs are firing me and having fun watching me sign leases just to fire me and watch me get evicted or dwindle my savings and rainy day funs. They don't fucking stop.

The only reason I haven't given up yet is (1) this is normal behavior to half the population. If you ever break the law you'd be surprised how coordinated and how much peope love fucking with others. People love war, people love drama and infighting and hurting "the bad guy". Getting justice. People are obsessed with true crime about murder because murdering others peroccupies their mind. (2) I have a defense and help and I am not alone but this is from people in the system reaching out to help me considering many people are having to be complicit in their job to help bad judges, bad cops and they do help me where they can. But I can't use regular services liek everyone else. Its like a fucking horror movie for me. Its like I was born black in the late 1800s where freedom is a joke given to me so they can appease people that hate them for fighting and hurting others like me.

If it were karma related I wouldn't be allowed to post. Most subs filter out my posts....

I was influenced to steal and not some grand thief. I feel as if no one would listen to me when I say this. Because truly no one will.

When I look back on my life, and knowing everyone attributed fake crimes to me because I did commit a crime before, I realize I never would've committed any crime if it weren't for the bad influences entering my life

I know I know. This is what they all say.

Heres the difference. I was precocious as kid, called an angel by adults. Very caring. Dressed my little sister. Effeminate male essentially who listened, diametric opposite of my brother who stirred trouble. I never did. I received awards in elementary school for being the most helpful, kindest student at whatever awards and this wasn't per class. It was per grade. Like I stood out as someone who listened, respected, didn't meddle, as a kid. Not truly perfect, especially because I got bullied harshly for being myself and that in turn lead me down a bit of a wrong path.

I had kids on my bus trying to get me to swear, get naked and show gentalia. I always held strong and didn't and it was giving me reputation issues. I also joined the gardening club in 4th grade and was only friends with woman. didn't play sports. Got made fun of for it.

Anyways it led to a reputation sullied with my peers. I was the weird effeminate drag queen / transvesite they called me.

So the weird scene kids befriended another weird kid. Kind of innocuous. A girl who smoked cigarettes at a sleepover I was at in 8th grade (I didn't go back to that kids house) befriended me in 10th grade when she was more open, introduced me to her friends she met all over cause she was social online, met people in her neighborhood which was her grandmas neighborhood so she met people from other schools. I only met new friends at youth group and was interested in all the different people. She got me to smoke pot with other friends. I totally did that. But after that I was willing to do it because I didn't see it as bad. My dad drove my friends home that night and new we were all high and had a grand ol oppree of a time watching us kids cause it turned out he was still getting high as an adult.

The scene girl who was my new close friends stole a credit card. She told me she stole her grandmas credit card and the CC company didn't make anyone pay. The grandma didn't want her granddaughter in trouble, just paid and locked up her things better so the girl really was dumb and i listened cause I thought she was wise, knew things and people. She told me she had her grandmas card for the first day of summer and tried to get our friend group to come to the mall to buy us things. I was the only one who tagged along, everyone else seemed to think it was a bad idea (she had a reputation of stealing, I wanted to support my friend cause she was fun and knew thigns I never knew). She stole our friends moms credit card, thinking she wouldn't get in trouble but didn't want to say it. She thought all CC's companies are nice to their customer base if someone stole it and just 'eats the cost". Made some little bit of sense, only a little, but thats what we both thought since she "got away" stealing her gmas credit card. When the cops showed up she named me as her accomplice and I ended up getting charged as an acoomplice. I got 1 hour community service, a diversion class to show kids what its like to get in real trouble. She got probation, fines, etc. She spread the rumor to the school it was my idea to steal it, and moved schools. People were really hesistant but also I smoked pot with others, so some were helping stoke the flames.

When I started to work in high school, a girl from my high school I was friends with a friends with I mentioned in the interview I knew and apparently that was enough to convivence my boss everyone would get along. Apparently the girl hated me, because of the stealing. She ended up telling my boss I stole from the store. They never found evidence, nothing came of it, but they did ask me in a meeting around others and I denied it cause it wasn't true. But it was enough to make people skeptical of me.

So I lost lots of friends I had just made, in youth group, in high school. I had a few close friends but apparently when I was getting anti-social they decided to treat me like shit and pretend to be my friend. So end of high school was volatile.

A Jewish girl friends with this Jewish family who the girl stole the CC from befriended me. We actually knew each other from childhood. She basically also wanted to make my life miserable but pretended to be my friend and told me she stole from walmart all the time, stole makeup, showed me how she did it. Stole from the mall. I did eventually steal from walmart only because she kept showing me how she did it. I did what I did. But I wasn't ever going to steal from a store until she showed me. The scene kids I knew stole from convivence gas stations near the park, at the mall. In the 8th grade a kid stole a CD from bestbuy where I was supposed to just get my CD and we were going home.....like everyone around me was stealing.

I didn't steal more than from a few stores when I was struggling through college (honestly I didn't struggle hard but still). This was enough to convience everyone in my life i am a big thief. paired with homophobic family that was angry I tried to commit suicide at 17 from being bullied for being gay (they thought it was like code for I wouldn't admit i felt guilty from "stealing" - I hadn't stolen anything at this point really).

Its bad. Like fucking awful. Because I try to clear my name from all this stealing thats attributed to me. EVERY workplace since 2018 has had all employees refuse to befriend me, mess with me, make my life harder, make fun of me. No support from management or HR.

I moved in with my family from graduate school and they used that to start fights. My dad said I stole a check from him and my life has been fucking terrible since. Like everyone is breaking into my house to put on parental trackers on electronics I leave lying around to see what I am doing. Cops do nothing when I show them the evidence. Courts did nothing to help me get my things back. Jobs are firing me and having fun watching me sign leases just to fire me and watch me get evicted or dwindle my savings and rainy day funs. They don't fucking stop.

The only reason I haven't given up yet is (1) this is normal behavior to half the population. If you ever break the law you'd be surprised how coordinated and how much peope love fucking with others. People love war, people love drama and infighting and hurting "the bad guy". Getting justice. People are obsessed with true crime about murder because murdering others peroccupies their mind. (2) I have a defense and help and I am not alone but this is from people in the system reaching out to help me considering many people are having to be complicit in their job to help bad judges, bad cops and they do help me where they can. But I can't use regular services liek everyone else. Its like a fucking horror movie for me. Its like I was born black in the late 1800s where freedom is a joke given to me so they can appease people that hate them for fighting and hurting others like me.

So I know the consensus is the movie sucked. It was definitely a bit dry, but it felt like an incredibly important story told through the lense of the camp of Joker to juxtapose the reality that this is a criminal who feels like hes living like a clown the way hes treated like a joke. It was understandable rage that someone would fight back a society constantly humiliating this man. The music numbers added very well to the dreams this man has that normalizes him. Makes him like everyone else when he has love. But love is only in the cards if he is the Joker, a clown, someone to laugh at or celebrate. I think this seemed odd for a story for the joker, it didn't have the hallmark fun or dark comedy of the joker, or the intersting plot for such a serious movie. But it had emotional depth that really peered into the mind of a man who has to lie and say hes crazy because no one honors the individual concern of wanting a good life. Especially after his trauma of constantly withstanding abuse as a child. His worldview is warped. No one can really love him, he feels like hes nothing and made others feel that way when he was provoked. The main witness defended who he was before the murders, a ray of sunshine despite his setbacks. But just like the sun sets that light from the sun fades and we reach judgement day. TO a lot of people jdugement day reawakens them, gives them a new philosophy to reenergize them to a new beginning, while for others its being stabbed and called a sick psychopath because you became traumatized with so many psychopaths in your life you constantly standing guard, got provoked, and attacked people. Arthur doesn't even know he's sick, but he functions enough most would call hihim evil instead of what he is. Defending himself from evil within others. Arthur was provoked. He deserved better, but sadly his story is the reality of what traumatized individuals go through. Every one is an opportunity to everyone and there's really nothing you can do to stop people from viewing others this way. Despite oppurtunists are the unthoughful actors we say are ruining this earth. But even critics don't beat the actors so they join the crowd instead of fighting. So everyone in turn is an oppurtunist, critical, and willing to do either or drop either without recognizing they are hypocritically embracing the things they hate just so they can have a will to live, an ego thats stroked enough to catapulate them through life. Arthur is some kind of a hero, but to some breaking rules means you cannot be a hero. I thought him and harly Quintel would like somehow be more heroic at the end with some grand gesture. But it stayed true to reality. Arthur is a clown to society. He can only be loved when he makes people laugh, and no matter if he makes people happy or sad they treat him like a big cosmic joke. His defenses came up from his life experience and he did what he had to do, not being an oppurtunist but defending himself from oppurtunists who did the reverse and pose and critics who are better than Arthur. Something all to common with every single human. Fight. Fight. Fight. It extinguishes goodness, but people swear its all that matters.

For fun I was mapping a distance between where I live and another major city.

Its 1300 miles.

It said to walk there would be 475 hours

Thats 19.79 days

Or 65 miles per day.....

I mean thats like 3 marathons in a day.....this is what people in the old days did to get across large swaths of lands....

So whats it like? Anyone ever had to do it? Would it be feasilable?

"A valid confessions is an admission of wrongdoing" - according to someone who messaged me

So when I refuse to tell people I am attacked in real life, this isn't a place for me to confess? Its not an admission of wrongdoing. You confess a secret. I could confess my wife did something wrong and I know it. I didn't do anything wrong. A confession is a secret it does not require you to have done anything wrong.

The list would be whats unpopular

there should be more agreed upon milestones in life EVERYONE goes through. Rich or poor

-working as a server

-working as a janitor /cleaner

-working as a construction worker / plumbing /ac or heating /electric

-working as an engineer or working on a project with an enginner

-working as a board member /financial representative so you understand finances

-everyone should get into strength training and cardio for a period of time in life...theres no body type thats better or worse.

It manages heart rate, circadian rythym, alters energy levels. Muscle engagement is REALLY hard because things like breathing, opening and focusing your eyes are HIGHLY dependent on how engaged all your muscles are below you. If youre spine is too extended then things like your face, neck, or chest want to flex in order to create segments where the body can manifest BREATHING and this alters how open your eyes are, how far you can hinge your jaw and thraot. Your body STACKS on top of other muscles so most poeple have imbalances in upper and lwoer body strength that moving around and re-engaging your pesky diaphram helps with. Your diaphram has to flex and extend which EACH breath, this is why your body will literally segment to find a way to flex and extend SOMEWHERE so you can breathe again. Breathing, throacic and lower body expansion so lungs can fill, heart has room to beat and isn't compressed from extreme flexion. Airway is open. See how important a proper functioing mechanics are to breathing, eyesight? Your eyes aren't inherently bad. Your ability to use your diaphram affects how you engage other muscles. You NEED to get into Cardio THEN strength training.

-try anal so you can work the backside of your muscles better and gain better diaphramtic control with a hip and groin connection cause they say the hips control the jaw head and neck and most people don't properly engage these muscles cause it requires work to re-engage muscles after sitting and making your diaphragm and chest/ribs so much

-with all the work we could have scheduled swap outs so you are assigned different areas of work so you can holistically see the entire picture.

essential experiences are

-experiencing amusement

-expereicing to shop where youre like a rich kid and don't pay the bill

The sad thing is even as we think we can see everything, we have the internet to show us pictures of places all voer the world, we all can dreams and probably realistically understand some differences in living in other plaes that most people would've said "what do you mean there are places that don't snow in the winter"

there should be more agreed upon milestones in life EVERYONE goes through

-everyone should get into strength training and cardio for a period of time in life

-working as a server

-working as a janitor /cleaner

-working as a construction worker / plumbing /ac or heating /electric

-working as an engineer or working on a project with an enginner

-working as a board member /financial representative so you understand finances

-try anal so you can work the backside of your muscles better and gain better diaphramtic control with a hip and groin connection cause they say the hips control the jaw head and neck and most people don't properly engage these muscles cause it requires work to re-engage muscles after sitting and making your diaphragm and chest/ribs so much

-with all the work we could have scheduled swap outs so you are assigned different areas of work so you can holistically see the entire picture.

essential experiences are

-experiencing amusement

-expereicing to shop where youre like a rich kid and don't pay the bill

The sad thing is even as we think we can see everything, we have the internet to show us pictures of places all voer the world, we all can dreams and probably realistically understand some differences in living in other plaes that most people would've said "what do you mean there are places that don't snow in the winter"

I've gotta confess. I stole once in my youth. I am a 30 year old male. I grew up pretty oddball, more effeminate, everyone called gay in school. But also the reputation of the kindest person. Kindness doesn't mean you're never nasty, but I really wasn't someone considered to ever get nasty, fight, get violent. Always propping others up and helping.

What happened was I hung around the kids who would befriend someone with a weird reputation through elementary, middle and high school and by the time I reached high school I was hanging with kids who stole. We went to parks to horse around on the playground equipment, meet up with new friends at the pavillion to talk, bike, go to the convience stores where kids who later shamed for "stealing" were stealing from in the 8th grade. Smoking cigarettes. One of my friends went with me to bestbuy for my dad to pick me up and got caught stealing a CD in the 8th grade. The same kid who smoked cigarettes with a girl at a sleepover us 3 were at, I didn't smoke, but in the 8th grade. This girl ended up being my close friends 2 years later. She hung around pot smokers, hipsters (this was peak 2012), scene kids. Generally the alt indie sleaze crowd back then. We would go to malls, people would dare each other to steal from hot topic. I never did. Anyways the scene girl stole a credit card, told me it was her grandmas who gave it to her, I doubted her and later she told me it was someones moms card she swiped but she did it before with her grandmas card, and her grandma tdidn't tell her she paid the bill but she did so her granddaughter wouldn't get in legal trouble. Well she bought me things on the credit card. She was surprised police showed up and named me as an accomplice (there were a few that day) and they had video evidence of me with her. So the police were trying to stoke a confession out of me. I said I knew nothing, despite being culpabale because she later admitted she did steal it so I knew. I ended up confessing later when they were pushing to arrest me at 15 that I knew. I got 1 hour community service while she got probation, fines, etc. She was pissed I wasn't her best friend to go down with her, and as the weird kid pushed the reputation I was the one who came up with the idea. I was a bit shy in school but also outgoing, so some people believed the reputation some didn't She moved schools, but heres the dilemma I keep encountering.

At 17 I worked for a franchise food chain owned my a husband and wife with a few others, always talking about how they worked second jobs to make ends meet with the business. Now I worked with people I went to school with. A girl who worked there I hung around with a girl named Taylor at band practice. We weren't close friends, but in the interview I said I knew her and we were friendly. The boss asked the girl and I guess the girl denied it, but I was hired on the spot....so the boss didn't rescind. Anyway that girl heard about the credit card reputation, so she said I stole from the workplace and alarmed my bosses. I ended up working there for 5 years, but they were suspicious. I guess thats why they kept me around. No thefts happened, although I used to give food thrown away to others and kept it quite as other employees helped me but eventually I became the scapegoat to the bosses and they hated me. I remember right before I was leaving my one boss took me aside to say goodbye, talk about things, and I don't remember why but he just goes "HA haha you know I hate you?" and left. That's the last I heard from him. I knew he knew about the food so I thought it was that, but apparently they though I stole. So they spread to the next workplace I am a thief. So my coworkers propped me up for management, pretended I fell short, made fun of me, wouldn't be friendly or helpful, gave me grunt work. This was back in 2017. Every workplace since then I've had the same treatment. Random people calling me a piece of shit, messing with me. Because I didn't act upset enough people started following me on breaks, following me into bathrooms, staring me down at my desk, saying I stared at them and reporting to HR to intimidate me.

So my family I found out who I lived with on and off were also telling others I was stealing from them. Apparently they were only nice to me after this credit card theft, which hurt their reputation, because they wanted to keep me close after to watch me. They didn't want me to leave, they wanted ot be able to set others up to torment me. So during this time I had fake dates arranged, fake friends, etc enter my life as well as being messed at work. I was also in school so I was busy.

Now they were able to spread videos of me "stealing" the credit card. Now a few years ago they also invited me to an amusement park because we became estranged and I was making up with them to move back in for graduate school as they wanted help too from knee surgery, lung cancer. I found evidence of them stealing from me and put up a secret camera, caught my mom and sister stealing form my room, my father smoking on my clothes so I smelled like pot and could tell people I smoke chronically when I smoke socially. I confronted my father and he said he would pay me with a check. Declared the check stolen and had me evicted so they held onto all my possessions, also had me arrested.

When I was arrested they put me on suicide watch. Didn't allow me to have clothes in my cell, only a blanket, cranked the AC. No toilet paper I could hang myself, no toiletries. I had to beg for toilet paper every time. Had intimates and guard bang on my cell with loud metal so I couldn't sleep at night. Did this for a month then had me enter a fake plea deal. It was fake because I later found out I have no criminal record. The probation officer let me live in the state and just call them for probation for a year (it was a way to ensure I stayed close). During this time they had 7 workplaces punish me by firing me and calling me incompetent, make a show out of my life and a spectacle for others. And they won't let me have a job in my field.

They spread these videos from jail to neighbors so they see I am a bad guy and make fun of me. They broke into my car (there was no forced entry - no broken window and my parents stole my second set of keys living with them). They try to play with my cats and get them inside so they can capture them. They stalk me as well. They broke in to put parental controls on any electronics I've left at home, see where I am going. Limit what I can buy. Once they have device codes they can change the coding so for example, google asks for a phone number, email, and passkey each time to login. As well as deny certain cheap or free phone numbers so you can circumnavigate this.

I stole once really. hung around kids who stole then shamed me for stealing cause I was the weird kid who did a "really bad credit card theft" when it was a girl who stole. I wasn't the most rule abiding person with the workplace and gave out food that the bosses instructed me to trash so I was stealing again. People from high school worked with me at that job and pushed the reputation I was stealing. So my family got upset and now push that I steal to others. So that everyone in my life whereever I go team up to ensure I can't get freedom cause I'm such a supposed thief. Once one person ruins your reputation, well the next person needs to tell others youre stealing from them so it is still "pertinent"" to hurt me and get others to join up with them. I can't escape this reputation issue and people hurting me. The police are in on it, they think I am just a criminal who is trying to escape their wrath so they tow my car, refuse to help me with these thefts despite video evidence. I just can't believe there's nothing I can do to stop this. Everyone believes I have reason to lie, so if someone says I steal they can't lie? But only I can lie? Only I have motivation to lie? I don't know what to do, even when I try to tell my story online, tis too long, I'm mentally ill and don't know anything depsite gathering evidence I can't share online without people retlatiating that I am getting it out that they hurt me. No one believes me and thinks I am just lying for attention. When I just want this to stop, I want my story out there, I want others aware this happens and how people mess with others so that they can avoid it. And a dysmal hope someone can give advice to help.

I mean I know its trite but the lyrics evil is a relay sport when the ones burnt its their turn to pass the torch. Its like I am not letting go of the flame to people but I don't want to burn anyone and because I want to be a good guy nice guys just finish last. Cause I have every reason to lie about my life, no one has any reason to lie about my life or reputation. I don't get how its not possible I am telling the truth.

I've been watching as people were told I committed a theft. I have stolen in my past, only petty thefts from corporate store fronts. I stole with friends, I wouldn't have felt the need to steal but my friends stole and I joined in as a teenager. I did not steal copious amounts, I was only caught once stealing and received the lightest of punishments. Whether thats from being white, male, very average (not lanky but not muscular), having a reputation of being a good kid who was very nice to strangers. I've jsut been dehumanized over and over because I wasn't sorry enough for ever committing a crime.

I feel like dehumanizing people creates a disconnect with a persons ego, which is synonymous for motivation in life. You have to have an ego to want to pursue anything in life. People keep trying to take mien down, I am not alone at least but the people who are dehumanized don't recognize my humanity as theirs is stripped and they are fighting like animals just to keep the people in power from hurting them further.

I can't stop this dehumanization process either because most people are aware of it and do not care until it hurts them. Its like back in the old world, before guns, police, surveillance, the gym where now anyone can get big, we used to have big violent persons who would just animalisticlly attack without reason. Just so they were the big guy. Now we have people who act like that but "with reason" when their reason is to dehumanize people for breaking their rules. Somehow you are less than human for breaking someone rules. And you can't critisize this person, no one understands their violent tendencies are self defense when really the argument is they take it way too far. I wish there was a way to get people to take this problem serious. Does anyone know Genie the Feral Kid? Sylivia Likens? Cries from the Heart? All these cases are from people with power who dehuamize and torment people, and its only after the fact do these people realize how fucked up the actions are. And thats what you can't get people to see. They won't regret their behaviors until its too late.

I've gotta confess. I stole once in my youth. I am a 30 year old male. I grew up pretty oddball, more effeminate, everyone called gay in school. But also the reputation of the kindest person. Kindness doesn't mean you're never nasty, but I really wasn't someone considered to ever get nasty, fight, get violent. Always propping others up and helping.

What happened was I hung around the kids who would befriend someone with a weird reputation through elementary, middle and high school and by the time I reached high school I was hanging with kids who stole. We went to parks to horse around on the playground equipment, meet up with new friends at the pavillion to talk, bike, go to the convience stores where kids who later shamed for "stealing" were stealing from in the 8th grade. Smoking cigarettes. One of my friends went with me to bestbuy for my dad to pick me up and got caught stealing a CD in the 8th grade. The same kid who smoked cigarettes with a girl at a sleepover us 3 were at, I didn't smoke, but in the 8th grade. This girl ended up being my close friends 2 years later. She hung around pot smokers, hipsters (this was peak 2012), scene kids. Generally the alt indie sleaze crowd back then. We would go to malls, people would dare each other to steal from hot topic. I never did. Anyways the scene girl stole a credit card, told me it was her grandmas who gave it to her, I doubted her and later she told me it was someones moms card she swiped but she did it before with her grandmas card, and her grandma tdidn't tell her she paid the bill but she did so her granddaughter wouldn't get in legal trouble. Well she bought me things on the credit card. She was surprised police showed up and named me as an accomplice (there were a few that day) and they had video evidence of me with her. So the police were trying to stoke a confession out of me. I said I knew nothing, despite being culpabale because she later admitted she did steal it so I knew. I ended up confessing later when they were pushing to arrest me at 15 that I knew. I got 1 hour community service while she got probation, fines, etc. She was pissed I wasn't her best friend to go down with her, and as the weird kid pushed the reputation I was the one who came up with the idea. I was a bit shy in school but also outgoing, so some people believed the reputation some didn't She moved schools, but heres the dilemma I keep encountering.

At 17 I worked for a franchise food chain owned my a husband and wife with a few others, always talking about how they worked second jobs to make ends meet with the business. Now I worked with people I went to school with. A girl who worked there I hung around with a girl named Taylor at band practice. We weren't close friends, but in the interview I said I knew her and we were friendly. The boss asked the girl and I guess the girl denied it, but I was hired on the spot....so the boss didn't rescind. Anyway that girl heard about the credit card reputation, so she said I stole from the workplace and alarmed my bosses. I ended up working there for 5 years, but they were suspicious. I guess thats why they kept me around. No thefts happened, although I used to give food thrown away to others and kept it quite as other employees helped me but eventually I became the scapegoat to the bosses and they hated me. I remember right before I was leaving my one boss took me aside to say goodbye, talk about things, and I don't remember why but he just goes "HA haha you know I hate you?" and left. That's the last I heard from him. I knew he knew about the food so I thought it was that, but apparently they though I stole. So they spread to the next workplace I am a thief. So my coworkers propped me up for management, pretended I fell short, made fun of me, wouldn't be friendly or helpful, gave me grunt work. This was back in 2017. Every workplace since then I've had the same treatment. Random people calling me a piece of shit, messing with me. Because I didn't act upset enough people started following me on breaks, following me into bathrooms, staring me down at my desk, saying I stared at them and reporting to HR to intimidate me.

So my family I found out who I lived with on and off were also telling others I was stealing from them. Apparently they were only nice to me after this credit card theft, which hurt their reputation, because they wanted to keep me close after to watch me. They didn't want me to leave, they wanted ot be able to set others up to torment me. So during this time I had fake dates arranged, fake friends, etc enter my life as well as being messed at work. I was also in school so I was busy.

Now they were able to spread videos of me "stealing" the credit card. Now a few years ago they also invited me to an amusement park because we became estranged and I was making up with them to move back in for graduate school as they wanted help too from knee surgery, lung cancer. I found evidence of them stealing from me and put up a secret camera, caught my mom and sister stealing form my room, my father smoking on my clothes so I smelled like pot and could tell people I smoke chronically when I smoke socially. I confronted my father and he said he would pay me with a check. Declared the check stolen and had me evicted so they held onto all my possessions, also had me arrested.

When I was arrested they put me on suicide watch. Didn't allow me to have clothes in my cell, only a blanket, cranked the AC. No toilet paper I could hang myself, no toiletries. I had to beg for toilet paper every time. Had intimates and guard bang on my cell with loud metal so I couldn't sleep at night. Did this for a month then had me enter a fake plea deal. It was fake because I later found out I have no criminal record. The probation officer let me live in the state and just call them for probation for a year (it was a way to ensure I stayed close). During this time they had 7 workplaces punish me by firing me and calling me incompetent, make a show out of my life and a spectacle for others. And they won't let me have a job in my field.

They spread these videos from jail to neighbors so they see I am a bad guy and make fun of me. They broke into my car (there was no forced entry - no broken window and my parents stole my second set of keys living with them). They try to play with my cats and get them inside so they can capture them. They stalk me as well. They broke in to put parental controls on any electronics I've left at home, see where I am going. Limit what I can buy. Once they have device codes they can change the coding so for example, google asks for a phone number, email, and passkey each time to login. As well as deny certain cheap or free phone numbers so you can circumnavigate this.

I stole once really. hung around kids who stole then shamed me for stealing cause I was the weird kid who did a "really bad credit card theft" when it was a girl who stole. I wasn't the most rule abiding person with the workplace and gave out food that the bosses instructed me to trash so I was stealing again. People from high school worked with me at that job and pushed the reputation I was stealing. So my family got upset and now push that I steal to others. So that everyone in my life whereever I go team up to ensure I can't get freedom cause I'm such a supposed thief. Once one person ruins your reputation, well the next person needs to tell others youre stealing from them so it is still "pertinent"" to hurt me and get others to join up with them. I can't escape this reputation issue and people hurting me. The police are in on it, they think I am just a criminal who is trying to escape their wrath so they tow my car, refuse to help me with these thefts despite video evidence. I just can't believe there's nothing I can do to stop this. Everyone believes I have reason to lie, so if someone says I steal they can't lie? But only I can lie? Only I have motivation to lie? I don't know what to do, even when I try to tell my story online, tis too long, I'm mentally ill and don't know anything depsite gathering evidence I can't share online without people retlatiating that I am getting it out that they hurt me. No one believes me and thinks I am just lying for attention. When I just want this to stop, I want my story out there, I want others aware this happens and how people mess with others so that they can avoid it. And a dysmal hope someone can give advice to help.

I mean I know its trite but the lyrics evil is a relay sport when the ones burnt its their turn to pass the torch. Its like I am not letting go of the flame to people but I don't want to burn anyone and because I want to be a good guy nice guys just finish last. Cause I have every reason to lie about my life, no one has any reason to lie about my life or reputation. I don't get how its not possible I am telling the truth.

I've been watching as people were told I committed a theft. I have stolen in my past, only petty thefts from corprate store fronts. I stole with friends, I wouldn't have felt the need to steal but my friends stole and I joined in as a teenager. I did not steal copious amounts, I was only caught once stealing and received the lightest of punishments. Whether thats from being white, male, very average (not lanky but not muscular), having a reputation of being a good kid who was very nice to strangers. I've jsut been dehumanized over and over because I wasn't sorry enough for ever commiting a crime.

I feel ike dehumanizing people creates a disconnect with a persons ego, which is synonymous for motivation in life. You have to have an ego to want to pursue anything in life. People keep trying to take mien down, I am not alone at least but the people who are dehuamnized dont recongize my huamnity as theirs is stripped and they are fighting like animals just to keep the people in power from hurting them further.

I can't stop this dehumanizaiton process either because most people are aware of it and do not care until it hurts them. Its like back in the old world, before guns, police, surveillance, the gym where now anyone can get big, we used to have big violent persons who would just animalisticlly attack without reason. Just so they were the big guy. Now we have people who act like that but "with reason" when their reason is to dehumanize people for breaking their rules. Somehow you are less than human for breaking someone rules. And you can't critisize this person, no one understands their violent tendencies are self defense when really the argument is they take it way too far. I wish there was a way to get people to take this problem serious. Does anyone know Genie the Feral Kid? Sylivia Likens? Cries from the Heart? All these cases are from people with power who dehuamize and torment people, and its only after the fact do these people realize how fucked up the actions are. And thats what you can't get people to see. They won't regret their behaviors until its too late.

I am a 30 year old male. I grew up pretty oddball, more effeminate, everyone called gay in school. But also the reputation of the kindest person. Kindness doesn't mean you're never nasty, but I really wasn't someone considered to ever get nasty, fight, get violent. Always propping others up and helping.

What happened was I hung around the kids who would befriend someone with a weird reputation through elementary, middle and high school and by the time I reached high school I was hanging with kids who stole. We went to parks to horse around on the playground equipment, meet up with new friends at the pavillion to talk, bike, go to the convience stores where kids who later shamed for "stealing" were stealing from in the 8th grade. Smoking cigarettes. One of my friends went with me to bestbuy for my dad to pick me up and got caught stealing a CD in the 8th grade. The same kid who smoked cigarettes with a girl at a sleepover us 3 were at, I didn't smoke, but in the 8th grade. This girl ended up being my close friends 2 years later. She hung around pot smokers, hipsters (this was peak 2012), scene kids. Generally the alt indie sleaze crowd back then. We would go to malls, people would dare each other to steal from hot topic. I never did. Anyways the scene girl stole a credit card, told me it was her grandmas who gave it to her, I doubted her and later she told me it was someones moms card she swiped but she did it before with her grandmas card, and her grandma tdidn't tell her she paid the bill but she did so her granddaughter wouldn't get in legal trouble. Well she bought me things on the credit card. She was surprised police showed up and named me as an accomplice (there were a few that day) and they had video evidence of me with her. So the police were trying to stoke a confession out of me. I said I knew nothing, despite being culpabale because she later admitted she did steal it so I knew. I ended up confessing later when they were pushing to arrest me at 15 that I knew. I got 1 hour community service while she got probation, fines, etc. She was pissed I wasn't her best friend to go down with her, and as the weird kid pushed the reputation I was the one who came up with the idea. I was a bit shy in school but also outgoing, so some people believed the reputation some didn't She moved schools, but heres the dilemma I keep encountering.

At 17 I worked for a franchise food chain owned my a husband and wife with a few others, always talking about how they worked second jobs to make ends meet with the business. Now I worked with people I went to school with. A girl who worked there I hung around with a girl named Taylor at band practice. We weren't close friends, but in the interview I said I knew her and we were friendly. The boss asked the girl and I guess the girl denied it, but I was hired on the spot....so the boss didn't rescind. Anyway that girl heard about the credit card reputation, so she said I stole from the workplace and alarmed my bosses. I ended up working there for 5 years, but they were suspicious. I guess thats why they kept me around. No thefts happened, although I used to give food thrown away to others and kept it quite as other employees helped me but eventually I became the scapegoat to the bosses and they hated me. I remember right before I was leaving my one boss took me aside to say goodbye, talk about things, and I don't remember why but he just goes "HA haha you know I hate you?" and left. That's the last I heard from him. I knew he knew about the food so I thought it was that, but apparently they though I stole. So they spread to the next workplace I am a thief. So my coworkers propped me up for management, pretended I fell short, made fun of me, wouldn't be friendly or helpful, gave me grunt work. This was back in 2017. Every workplace since then I've had the same treatment. Random people calling me a piece of shit, messing with me. Because I didn't act upset enough people started following me on breaks, following me into bathrooms, staring me down at my desk, saying I stared at them and reporting to HR to intimidate me.

So my family I found out who I lived with on and off were also telling others I was stealing from them. Apparently they were only nice to me after this credit card theft, which hurt their reputation, because they wanted to keep me close after to watch me. They didn't want me to leave, they wanted ot be able to set others up to torment me. So during this time I had fake dates arranged, fake friends, etc enter my life as well as being messed at work. I was also in school so I was busy.

Now they were able to spread videos of me "stealing" the credit card. Now a few years ago they also invited me to an amusement park because we became estranged and I was making up with them to move back in for graduate school as they wanted help too from knee surgery, lung cancer. I found evidence of them stealing from me and put up a secret camera, caught my mom and sister stealing form my room, my father smoking on my clothes so I smelled like pot and could tell people I smoke chronically when I smoke socially. I confronted my father and he said he would pay me with a check. Declared the check stolen and had me evicted so they held onto all my possessions, also had me arrested.

When I was arrested they put me on suicide watch. Didn't allow me to have clothes in my cell, only a blanket, cranked the AC. No toilet paper I could hang myself, no toiletries. I had to beg for toilet paper every time. Had intimates and guard bang on my cell with loud metal so I couldn't sleep at night. Did this for a month then had me enter a fake plea deal. It was fake because I later found out I have no criminal record. The probation officer let me live in the state and just call them for probation for a year (it was a way to ensure I stayed close). During this time they had 7 workplaces punish me by firing me and calling me incompetent, make a show out of my life and a spectacle for others. And they won't let me have a job in my field.

They spread these videos from jail to neighbors so they see I am a bad guy and make fun of me. They broke into my car (there was no forced entry - no broken window and my parents stole my second set of keys living with them). They try to play with my cats and get them inside so they can capture them. They stalk me as well. They broke in to put parental controls on any electronics I've left at home, see where I am going. Limit what I can buy. Once they have device codes they can change the coding so for example, google asks for a phone number, email, and passkey each time to login. As well as deny certain cheap or free phone numbers so you can circumnavigate this.

I stole once really. hung around kids who stole then shamed me for stealing cause I was the weird kid who did a "really bad credit card theft" when it was a girl who stole. I wasn't the most rule abiding person with the workplace and gave out food that the bosses instructed me to trash so I was stealing again. People from high school worked with me at that job and pushed the reputation I was stealing. So my family got upset and now push that I steal to others. So that everyone in my life whereever I go team up to ensure I can't get freedom cause I'm such a supposed thief. Once one person ruins your reputation, well the next person needs to tell others youre stealing from them so it is still "pertinent"" to hurt me and get others to join up with them. I can't escape this reputation issue and people hurting me. The police are in on it, they think I am just a criminal who is trying to escape their wrath so they tow my car, refuse to help me with these thefts despite video evidence. I just can't believe there's nothing I can do to stop this. Everyone believes I have reason to lie, so if someone says I steal they can't lie? But only I can lie? Only I have motivation to lie? I don't know what to do, even when I try to tell my story online, tis too long, I'm mentally ill and don't know anything depsite gathering evidence I can't share online without people retlatiating that I am getting it out that they hurt me. No one believes me and thinks I am just lying for attention. When I just want this to stop, I want my story out there, I want others aware this happens and how people mess with others so that they can avoid it. And a dysmal hope someone can give advice to help.

I mean I know its trite but the lyrics evil is a relay sport when the ones burnt its their turn to pass the torch. Its like I am not letting go of the flame to people but I don't want to burn anyone and because I want to be a good guy nice guys just finish last. Cause I have every reason to lie about my life, no one has any reason to lie about my life or reputation. I don't get how its not possible I am telling the truth.

It also means hurting you giving you the hurt instead of someone else for your mistake. Even though we detested the hurt in the first place. So now we have to be hypocrites who act out what we detest. And leave people homeless, poor, struggling financially all their lives, health wise, essentially making them miserable for not giving enough time away despite normally giving away most their time still. Having a family and full time work and overtime is still a part of poverty.

But with the advent of the middle class now there isn't enough people to want to revolt as they have the illusion of potential mobility in their lives if the do x,y,z. Then blame themselves for not doing it. Never helping the poor beyond giving out diced tomato cans and old hand-me-downs. Never giving respect for work and support they provide to make society great. Never being allowed to voice or detest as they would be the cruel one, not the ones with the actual power. The middle class is a popularity pool to make it so the rich are supporte for giving the middle class penuts, what they refused to give to the lwoer class.

We all know that there are people who you attack if they are bad. You teach them a lesson no matter what so they get not to hurt others.

That is the definition of cruelty. I'm not sure who in their right mind supports hurting others to teach the a lesson as to make things better. But most people aren't in their right mind and they do not care as long as they function and make money, it does not matter if their mind is good or not to others. We'd let them wither they say, so if they can't attack others who won't lsiten they find another group who is considered worse than others they can attack.

But why is there a gruop we judge as bad enough to attack?

Why do we judge some individuals as being allowed to be attacked?

For example we do this with war. We find a nation of people to attack. We commonly do this is regular society. We attack people who do not meet the standard. Why is there a group of people to attack if you feel like it?

I have about $5,000 in retirement but vanguard only lets me invest up to $500 currently. What should i do to invest the rest? Anyone experience a limit before on investing your retirement fund? Not withdrawing, investing.