u/KitchenFun7716

I'm a trans bi guy, 15 soon to be 16, I've made a post about this before, but this time, it's a bit different. Eversince Pride Month, I've been hearing my mom and her bf talk bad about it. I remember my mom saying, "They've been tryna make us accept it for years, like we GET it. Quick shoving it down our throats." Hearing that made me so angry and upset. I was trying not to cry on the spot. And it's weird because she's never been like that, she probably has, but now she's showing her true colors, and she's said other homophobic stuff before. And I keep seeing a bunch of influences saying mean stuff about pride month, even my favorite content creators. I had to unfollow most of them. I remembered seeing a Christian YouTuber named "r3alism" talking about pride in a mean horrible way. And just seeing.... all of this.... it makes me wish I was never born. I wish I was just born a "normal" boy. I hate being a girl. Seeing my body everyday makes me cry. I don't want to go to hell. Because of all this, I stayed away from Christianity at some point. And said some things about God I shouldn't have said because I was just so upset about how I am. I feel like I will never be forgiven. And I just want to commit. If there's any advice that would be helpful (sorry if this was a long post)

I've been doing research on phallo (for whenever I can get it), and I was wondering if it was possible to get 3.5 inches? I know it depends on girth or which ever type of surgery you get (if im right), but if someone can let me know/give more information about phallo, that would be great 👍

Some people might remember the last post I posted about my bottom dysphoria, i remember saying i felt like i was faking it, some said i wasnt, but lately I've been feeling like I'm faking it... and I just wanted to ask if I was, or if anyone could relate to these signs (maybe signs?).

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When I was 8, I tried peeing standing up, I was upset when I couldn't. Back when I had porn problems starting at 10 (I still kinda do...) I always would sit down and imagine myself jerking off and would pretend there was an invisible dick. Every dream I had of porn I would always have a penis. When I was 12, I would always be upset that boys could pee outside, and I couldn't. I never felt comfortable peeing sitting down. Every time I do, I always stand there and hesitate before I sit down. Every time when I was dating a guy and they would make sexual things about having sex, I always felt super uncomfortable imaging a guy going inside down there (sorry if this is all TMI) and everyday it feels like I'm not meant to have a vag. That's pretty much it. I'm not sure if this is just me being a porn addict or just not faking it. Again, sorry if this is too much 😅

My whole life, I've been scared of wasps. Every time I see one, I run away from it. But my mom and everyone else makes fun of me for it. They say I'm overreacting, and they won't mess with me as long as I don't mess with them. That's simply not true, I could be sitting down, and a wasp could be flying over me messing with me. I even told them that, too, but they kept dening me. My mom kinda makes me feel embarrassed about it. Should I be?

Am I the only one who has bottom dysphoria more than top? I mean, yes, I hate having tits but looking down there is a struggle. I've always never felt comfortable having a vag, I even grew out my pubic hair just so I wouldn't really be able to see it. Every day, it feels like there is something missing down there. But it also feels like I'm faking my dysphoria 🙁

I'm 15 and haven't started T (I can't ofc) and I heard that hair texture can change? I have 4c hair and wondered if that has happened to anyone

Unfortunately, I'm not old enough for top surgery yet, but I wonder if anyone has asked about your top surgery scars in public? Do you ever get side eyes? I'm not a fan of being in public, and I'm afraid if I do get scars ppl will judge me. and I'm curious to see if anything has happened before. (Sorry if I'm not making any sense)

Please be honest... I really want to know, I have a Christian family, and my grandma is heavily homophobic. I used to go to school, and before I realized I was trans I was lesbian, and almost all my friends told me I'm going to hell if I don't become straight. Every day I cried because of it. Because of that, I stopped believing, and I want to go back to believing again, but im just nervous thinking no matter how much I believe I'll never go to heaven. And now I'm being told a real Bible would say it's a sin.

I feel like I'm the only one who wants to change my full name. Has anyone considered changing there's? Or have you already changed it?