Am I useless to society?

I'm on two types of benefits at the moment. I'm struggling with money and that's impacting my mental health, causing stress which is causing flare ups for my crohn's disease. I worried ever since I Started getting universal credit that maybe I'm wasting my time and money here being at home all day? I've got a lot of other issues, and have been told here that I can't get a job. But I have been trying to make a life for myself, I tried socializing which didn't work out, and tried treating the problems which didn't work.

The only things I question about whether I'm doing good for society is what I use my money for? Like I need a new PC to replace my existing to be able to run programs for my music and artwork. I've been doing these hobbies for years now. With the purpose of trying to contribute to society by bringing joy or intrigue. I also tried writing for a while too, and video editing. I'm not sure if I'm valuable in that sense. I'm not sure if I should feel bad for using benefits for it.

I wanted to work and it's stronger than ever now during this cost of living crisis. I'm not sure if I'm fit enough to do it though, the commitment would be challenging. Worst part of it is my specialty is more to do with IT than any of these. The only reason I'm doing these hobbies is because it's a dream of mine. To do either would be something that would make me happy.

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On benefits and unable to afford the things I need now

I'm not sure how to start this but I do need to explain, I have 7 diagnosis: autism, social anxiety, panic disorder, OCD, asthma, crohn's disease, depression.

The advice I was given is that I cannot work, and I can see how, I can't even finish something that takes an hour long without one of these things getting in the way. Problem is, I was fine on benefits for a time, but I started to become unable to afford things. I don't know what to do except sell small things I own.

I'm really stuck here because it cuts into things like groceries and clothing, clothing which I am growing out of for some reason despite eating smaller amounts of, and healthier food. I'm getting absolutely screwed over. The ways I pass my time end up being essential too, I have two hobbies, one somewhat expective (music) and the other is art. I also do gaming but that can vary. My PC however is the glue that holds it together, and I need a new one soon, before the market gets worse and before this one dies. I can't afford it.

I don't know what I can do here exactly. It feels so hopeless. I don't get enough money to support my needs let alone my mental health.

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 2 days ago

How do I know if Linux is for me? (Gaming, music, art, etc)

I'm in a rough situation at the moment looking at a new PC, but I am struggling to get along with Windows 11. It can have nice features but it is ultimately poorly made. Because I have so many things open and use them all at once, I end up needing the hardware to meet it.

More than that, I want to distance myself from anything Microsoft. There are quite a few concerns I have as it relates to my workflow and everything I run to make a living at my PC for around 12 hours per day. I've got various questions before I start making the transition.

Questions:

  1. How possible is it to move software like FL Studio (DAW), VST's, random audio software, art software, and word which I sadly have to use because LibreOffice didn't work well for me. I've got a lot more than this. Including gaming and file explorer movement (Backups) and even local cloud storage (backs up to cloud from system)

  2. How good is the security by default on Linux? I can't find much info about this. I already use MalwareBytes. (Also bonus, do VPN's run well here?)

  3. Because of mental health issues, I need to have an easy to work with environment, which Microsoft haven't helped with in recent years. Is there any way to know which Linux Distro is more accessible than others?

  4. I'm planning on running AMD in my next system, is there anything I need to know about the hardware side on Linux if I do make the switch?

I may have more questions as I think about it, I am starting to seriously consider Linux. There are just many obstacles in the way, and I worry I may install it and use it for a while just to find there's a lot missing from it. I'm a heavy multitasker, multimonitor set up, watching videos while I game and make music, watching TV shows/movies while I create artwork, and listen to music occasionally, either on a player like Foobar or through YouTube, and successfully acquire physical versions of it.

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 5 days ago

PC hardware: what would you recommend for heavy workloads (and multitasking on the PC)

I'm thinking of getting a new system to accommodate the resource usage all my applications take up. There's word documents (varying word/character counts, thousands to hundreds of thousands), Vivaldi Browser, File Explorer and other background processes like Dropbox.

The hardware in question: Ryzen 9900x, 64GB ram (2x32 5600mhz CL40), and a 4TB Samsung 990 Evo Plus. Motherboard is probably going to be an X870 Elite, I haven't decided yet on which to get.

I'm curious if anyone has any insight into utilizing the best hardware for optimisation in FL Studio. Mine currently peaks at 70%-100% usage with the Ryzen 5800x, and memory can be eaten a but, usually around 16-20GB. Yet it still lags sometimes, and crashes can happen but I can't determine how they happen.

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 9 days ago

Workstation PC Spec Recommendations?

I'm planning on buying a custom built PC, I really need it in this weather since my current build is making everything too warm, and it may be the last chance to get a PC.

Budget: Below £2500 (Country UK obviously).

Use case: workstation with light gaming on the side (FFXIV, indie games, sometimes the odd triple A) and maybe I'll try my hand at 3D art. And need many USB ports. I'm open to making changes to the build, though I'm not entirely sure what's required of a system like this. My current specs are Asus B550 Tuf, Ryzen 5800x, 4x8GB Ram (3600mhz), RTX 3070, 1TB NVME + 4TB Sata SSD, and Corsair 4000D (old version I believe), it's on its last legs, all thanks to the terrible AIO cooler and fans. I'm not stable enough to make changes to this one. The RTX 3070 is damaged anyway so it's not salvageable. 5 years old at this point and been through a lot.

Case: Unsure, depends on what custom builders have, I want something that keeps my PC cool and quiet. And sleeper PC's are definitely welcome. I was thinking Fractal Define 7 and Silverstone FLP02

Motherboard. Aorus X870 Elite (Most USB's I could find)

CPU: AMD Ryzen 7900x (need cooling recommendation)

Memory: Corsair Vengeance DDR5 2x32GB (5200 mhz) CL40

Video card: RX9070XT or RTX 5070TI

Storage: Samsung 990 Evo NVME 4TB

PSU: unsure, I forgot what's required

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 11 days ago
▲ 334 r/ffxiv

Carbuncle Chaos + Middle La Noscea Artwork

This is my not so great artwork, spent quite a few hours on this from designing to finalizing. I made it in Clip Studio Paint using a variety of brushes. I have a video explaining the processes here.

Despite how many flaws I can find in it, it is still one of my favourite pieces of artwork. I love the Carbuncles. I like to imagine them as goofballs.

And my character here is called Mr Raider.

u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 15 days ago

Mobile app never syncs data

Despite the setting being enabled, it never syncs on the mobile app. Desktop is fine 90% of the time, some sites it won't recognize login information for some reason but they are often UK specific sites involving medical sites (NHS, and other niche doctor's websites)

However this did almost get me into trouble since I was asked for some information that they never asked for, and couldn't get access to it, luckily I didn't need it in the end but it was scary, the browser almost got me in trouble here.

Anyone know how to fix it? It never works. I was able to do this on Microsoft Edge on mobile, just not Vivaldi

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 18 days ago

Is it even possible to get a job with this many problems?

I'm not sure if it's even possible within today's climate and politics. But I wonder with every diagnosis and undiagnosed problem I have, is there even a chance for a job? People around me keep succeeding in 'buying' houses though they're not rich so it is bizarre to me how they can do that, meanwhile I'm stuck on benefits with UC breathing down my neck asking me to work.

The diagnosis I have from order of oldest to newest diagnosis: Autism, Learning Delays, Crohn's Disease (Only one being treated but still have flare ups), OCD, Panic Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, Depression.

Undiagnosed but really noticeable: Speech Issues, Stress related Disorder (Possibly PTSD), ADHD, Dyspraxia/Dysgraphia.

Despite picking up hobbies and interests over the years and honing them, they have not paid off. In my 5 years of making artwork I've never had anyone ask if I Make commissions, with music which I've made for 6 years now, I've only ever had one ask and had one person want to use it for a video. On top of that, I've been around technology for over 21 years, + gaming for 25 years at least.

Despite this I really don't think there's any hope for finding a job. There's nothing viable. I can't work by the hour because of crohn's disease, I can't do commissions because these issues create hour long gaps in my schedule. Very unsure what to do here... yet I need the money. I just want somewhere peaceful to live.

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 22 days ago

The political climate is starting to worry me, any advice on how vulnerable people can stay safe?

I won't share the relevant stories of recent that have surfaced, only thing to know is it's getting uglier by the day. Which means many minorities are at risk, disabled people included. What I'm wondering is with all my specific issues like anxiety, autism and OCD, how can I help defend myself and others in this scenario? I'm currently not on any medications, but I worry there may be a point where I have to defend myself mentally or physically, and I don't have the know how of that in an accessible way.

The only things I can do effectively at home physically is running (treadmill) and weights, I lift about 15kg each arm, which might give some insight into this.

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 26 days ago
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How can I get my USB Headphones to swap to speakers on the fly and back again?

I have a pair of USB C headphones which can only be connected that way, but the complication comes in when I realize I want to swap between these and speakers, for various different reasons. It's mainly because I've come out of the shower and want to let my hair dry a bit more before putting on headphones. But I see the convenience in having speakers in case I want to get back to doing my music related tasks.

Is there any way to make this possible? I used to have headphones that connected via jack which could be plugged into the speakers addon. The volume and quality of it was wonky though.

Potentially unrelated, if I get an audio interface in the future, could this solve this problem? or would I need to go through a whole lot more to make it work?

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 1 month ago

No matter what I try, I seem to fail any attempt to make metal music. Should I just quit?

I've taken advice from all corners of the internet on how to improve my music and everything I do seems to make it worse. My composition also seems to be getting worse. When it comes to originals or covers, there's a lot that sounds off to me. It is VST's and FL Studio entirely so no real playing, but I do play guitar, just impossible to record (yes, I've asked about this, nothing worked), worth noting I have been known to have difficulties learning things, this is no exception. Not sure how badly my Tinnitus can impact things either, and my sensitivity to sound (one sound replaces the other, makes mixing extremely hard)

To provide examples, two of my most recent tracks:

Originals: https://youtu.be/0JKar1muPJw?si=XNKrCGqRi3RORPxg https://youtu.be/iKVu3m0Gkiw?si=-PA29OsYOU7HPB5a

(I removed the cover examples because apparently it's not allowed. Which sucks because these are better than the above tracks)

I'm struggling so much with this now, I listen to everything I make at least ten times, mix it as well as I can to avoid orange waveforms. It feels like no matter what, my dream of becoming a composer of any sorts is not going to happen. I've been at this for six years now.

I want to give up at this point. I haven't got any talent. I tried art too and still can't succeed at that either.

u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 1 month ago

Sewage smell really causing me problems where I live

It's currently some of the warmest days of the year, and for some reason they chose this time of the year to whiff the sewage smell from across the land. It's too warm to close the windows, and I can't afford the necessary components to install AC, so what do I do to cover up the smell? I'm a bit stuck here... it's really stressing me out, I've got sensory issues as well

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 1 month ago

Slide notes no longer work in FL studio? (Shreddage Jupiter and Hydra)

I've tested this on both. I can't get it to work, I've tried Velocity and Keyswitch. It works on the Shreddage Fretless, but not these too. Apparently it's been an issue for years looking at old posts. Any work around?

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 2 months ago

What are your best stress relieving techniques?

To cut a long story short, the last 3 months of my life have been hell. Ranging from stress to bathroom visits about six times per day. I struggle with suicidal thoughts and depression too, but I realize my situation isn't that bad compared to others even despite all its shortcomings. So I'm wondering what techniques (especially unorthodox ones) everyone has for relieving stress?

The only one I had that is hard to remember is to ground it to an image in my head. I made a piece of artwork based on it but it has moved more towards the way I try to relax at night, where I Imagine an image of myself in the Pokemon world, doing a tour of the world in a big motor home, with a family of Eeveelutions. And I would livestream/record my travels around the world (at the moment staying at on a sandy beach in Alola). I also think in depth about what the Eeveelutions would do, and what their personalities would be like.

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 2 months ago

Quick save image option?

I'm wondering if there is an option for this. I figured out how to remove the submenu option thanks to another post, but I am wondering where the option to click an image and save it with one click is? It seems like it'd be a useful feature to have. As an artist too, it would make saving assets a whole lot easier too

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 2 months ago

Sorry for the strange/dumb question. I'm going through really bad flare ups at the moment and I've used soap for years, but the amount of washing my hands is causing my skin to peal, so I am going to switch to a moisturising soap instead, which isn't anti-bacterial. I'm wondering if there's anything I need to be careful of or worry about here. Sometimes the tissue breaks which is hell on Earth, but my body fat makes it hard to reach sometimes, so I end up accidentally making contact in my anti-sunshine region. Is it anything to worry about with using normal soap when that happens or should I play it safe and use a hand sanitizer after/instead? I'm not sure what sort of bacteria I can make under UC, if any, but the idea alone is enough to set off my OCD

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 2 months ago

It becomes hard to go out because the odours my body creates make it difficult. I've tried many deodorants over the years, and the ones I cannot handle are roll ons (not effective) and sprays (asthma trigger).

I'm non-binary so the masc/fem smell is irrelevant. I like cedarwood but I also like floral smells. As I said, I've tried many types of deodorant. Balm, rub on, all different brands for each. And the only effective one recently was Fussy, but I don't even know what scent it is because they don't label it, so I won't be going there again. I'm looking for an alternative here with a strong enough scent that it masks my odours. The odours (warning, it's bad), mucus, dried blood sometimes, and sticky stool. There isn't much I can do about these issues since treatment is barely working, and I am still waiting for a related authority to provide me with a bidet.

I'm willing to take recommendations at this point, I'd prefer if they are vegan and cruelty free, but with how severe this is, I might have to look past this.

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 2 months ago

I'm struggling to watch media sometimes through Vivaldi because there is no equalizer setting or extension. All the extensions I've tried don't work. I desperately need the option to deal with it since there can be annoying sounds. If there's old media for example, there can be some horrible hissing sounds at specific frequencies. And sometimes there are live streams where I need to limit the frequencies I hear due to sensitivity, or at least have a limiter

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u/Longjumping_Age_1098 — 2 months ago