u/Mega_BiteZer

Im starting to forget, I only remember the worst things, only remember the arguments and family issues, I only remember when I was 10-14 of how I only could hide as my family would be yelling and screaming at eachother, leaving forever and departing, the knife my mom put to my dad's head and neck, it's all I can remember last of my childhood, I don't remember happy moments anymore. Anything that everyone claims "you should be grateful" is no longer in my head, I can't show anymore emotions or cry. "The way you talk is annoying" I can't change that, it's always been that way, I'm sorry if I sound like I'm pissed or in a bad mood but it's the only voice I have, It hurts for me to talk or speak, so what could I do, I'm so worried of saying the wrong things I don't speak clearly any more. I'm scared of any voice raised higher than the tone I usually speak because it's the only tone I know would scream at me. Tuitions can't even teach me because they only get frustrated and give up on me for not being able to grasp a concept. I can't focus, the sounds that go on around me anything just runs me off track, I'm scared to ask the teacher to repeat again because they're probably going to be pissed off, plus my voice and apparently the way I speak is annoying so what can I do about that?

Nevermind that venting, I just can't feel anything anymore or express anymore, I can't cry when the time comes for it like ive ran out of tears to even expell, I can't tell if I'm sad or feeling anything. I planned to be gone twice beforehand but failed anyway because I got distracted and forgot. My friends saved me that day but they won't know that anyway.

Sorry if it's a very weird and untidy vent, I'm not as clean with venting as I should.

Are there really psychologists in this reddit like I barely see many replies around here by licensed psychologists

Ive had this Lego Adolf hitler card from since I was 10 or 11 i actually thought he was come kind of cool commander guy and actually thought he was just a weirdly off coloured German commander figurine not wearing grey, years later I found it and kept it with me in my wallet throughout highschool

Pisang goreng

What low profile tactical earphones or headphones can you wear with an altyn, like attaching microphones on the outside and wearing earphones on the inside

The gang

Cole

Terrorist from CS:GO

Bunny girl operator updated [Original artwork]

I have to ask here because my parents refuse to get me checked incase

Bunny Girl tactical (Original)

Soon (OC)

My cat has rear parking sensors

Mortal Kombat promotional ticket cards

Bunny girl tactical (Roblox)(Original)

Is this a power surge protector? If so should I plug it back on or not, it's been here since we first moved in around the 2000's

Is this a power surge protector? If so should I put it back onto my router connections or not

How do I get my mother who would probably take me trying to convince her to take me for an ADHD check up as me trying to make an excuse to be lazy or just ignore me it entirely and continue to speak of the cost it would be and then compiling to "you can't get a job with those kinds of records"

I'm forgetting. I'm losing motivation. I'm getting to the conclusion. I'm feeling like I am losing something. (12/16/2025 - Dec 16th 2025)