u/Melodic-String-8125

I have been dating one of my friend since almost a year now... He do avoid emotional conversations..and I m very emotional I need assurances time to time to feel okayishh.. Lately there were having so many fights.. I m not usually this person I don't go on thinking about someone all.. Prioritizing them above me.. But here I just feel like this is not me... I keep wall texting him.. He doesn't even reply.. He doesn't even texts good morning or good night.. Even though I asked him at least do that doesn't matter we talk through day or not I want that one morning text it just makes me feel that u thought of me.. To that he said he doesn't do anything like this.. He doesn't even feel like doing it.. He is only focused on earning money now... He will think about him and what makes him happy... I completely agree but I feel like there is no relation left... We don't talk much.. He doesn't reply to my texts.. If all these things bothers me I want to tell him he doesn't want to have that convo.. Later that day I asked him to meet.. He bought his cousins with him.. I didn't got the chance to talk to him... Then after going home I texted him... He didn't even look at those.. When I called him he said he is busy can't talk right now... So later he did replied to my texts.. He said u were dead today.. Not happy at all.. So I asked him then why didn't u asked me what happened.. Aren't u concern abt me.. I said literally begged him to talk to me being online for 5 mins and then go.. To that also he replied like after a half and hour and something.. And said I m who I m.. I don't do this.. I do what I like not what is necessary... I asked him how stating this statement is helping this conversation to which he said no this isn't but I m not good at this.. To which I said ok atleast just talk to me for 5 mins I m not feeling ok then u can go... He didn't replied to which again for 20-30 mins. And then I got furious and said I just hope one day u will understand me.. To which he replied that ohh may ur curses and wishes for me come true... I said I m not cursing u I just want u to understand me for once.. He said I just want to be so happy that i never want to understand this... And then I said which I know I shouldn't have that okyy maybe u will be happy once I m gone... He replied to that whyy.. Why r u doing this.. I said I don't have anything else to talk to u.. Sorry I ruined ur mood.. And blocked him on whatsApp only.. It's been 5 days..he didn't try to contact me nor I have heard from him since then.. I strongly believe he doesn't love me... He was just there... I don't know what to believe what to not anymore.. I m just feeling like ok I shouldn't have had said that last line and blocked him but it was just unbearable for me at that time.. But now I think that was true.. He doesn't care abt me at all..

I have been in a relationships with my best friend from childhood since a year now... When we were best friends it was like unbreakable bond and everything.. Like we both trust each other with our lives.. He was always find of beauty and girls nd everything.. I was always a nerdy simple girl.. I don't know when I fell for him but when I confessed it to him he surprisingly said he loves me too.. But I never felt that way from his side.. As his best friend I know how much he used to do for all the girlfriends he used to have... Taking out time, planning surpirses.. Always eager to meet and everything.. In my case he calls me almost everyday but once a day for like 10-15 mins that's it... Even if I texted him in the morning like good morning he sometimes reolies sometimes doesn't.. He is like we r not that mandatory gm gn texts couples. I was like ok atleast we could msg something in the morning he is like I can't promise. I don't feel like he like really wants to talk to me. It feels like he does bcoz he wants to maintain the connection. Even in terms of intimacy I know he has very high drive and we have intense chemistry intimacy wise but he doesn't seem excited that much too. I just felt like he never loved me he just didn't wanted to upset me or maybe don't want to loose that emotional connection with me that's why he said he loves me. I tried to talk to him about all this he is like I do love u but in my own ways not the way u expected. I m like I agree everyone's way of expressing is different but I know urs si ce so many years. Nd this isn't u.. To which he says he is dead now. This is new me.. I no longer know what to do.. I don't wanna loose him but it's just frustrating to be there..i can't talk to him whenever I want bcoz he won't pickup and inspite living in same city we can't meet bcoz he is too busy even on weekends I have to ask him will u meet me plz...lately we met only indoors just for sex.. We never gone for any date.. He never did any gestures like flowers or anything.. Even on my bday he uninstalled Instagram same day saying he is using it too much and didn't put story.. Also didn't do anything came in the evening we cut the cake and he left like for 30 mins he came.. And when I didn't called him for his bday at 12 .. He got angry saying how didn't u call.. I said ur family came just for bday I didn't want to disturb. I did texted him at 12..but I don't know there are many things small or big which makes me feel like he doesn't loves me.. He is just attached maybe. Doing enough to keep me in touch. Even when we have arguments he just leaves.. Saying I don't like to fight.. It's very frustrating at times what to say.. I even said to him that I might leave I m frustrated to which he said ok if it makes u happy I won't stop u.

I have been in a relationships with my best friend from childhood since a year now... When we were best friends it was like unbreakable bond and everything.. Like we both trust each other with our lives.. He was always find of beauty and girls nd everything.. I was always a nerdy simple girl.. I don't know when I fell for him but when I confessed it to him he surprisingly said he loves me too.. But I never felt that way from his side.. As his best friend I know how much he used to do for all the girlfriends he used to have... Taking out time, planning surpirses.. Always eager to meet and everything.. In my case he calls me almost everyday but once a day for like 10-15 mins that's it... Even if I texted him in the morning like good morning he sometimes reolies sometimes doesn't.. He is like we r not that mandatory gm gn texts couples. I was like ok atleast we could msg something in the morning he is like I can't promise. I don't feel like he like really wants to talk to me. It feels like he does bcoz he wants to maintain the connection. Even in terms of intimacy I know he has very high drive and we have intense chemistry intimacy wise but he doesn't seem excited that much too. I just felt like he never loved me he just didn't wanted to upset me or maybe don't want to loose that emotional connection with me that's why he said he loves me. I tried to talk to him about all this he is like I do love u but in my own ways not the way u expected. I m like I agree everyone's way of expressing is different but I know urs si ce so many years. Nd this isn't u.. To which he says he is dead now. This is new me.. I no longer know what to do.. I don't wanna loose him but it's just frustrating to be there..i can't talk to him whenever I want bcoz he won't pickup and inspite living in same city we can't meet bcoz he is too busy even on weekends I have to ask him will u meet me plz...lately we met only indoors just for sex.. We never gone for any date.. He never did any gestures like flowers or anything.. Even on my bday he uninstalled Instagram same day saying he is using it too much and didn't put story.. Also didn't do anything came in the evening we cut the cake and he left like for 30 mins he came.. And when I didn't called him for his bday at 12 .. He got angry saying how didn't u call.. I said ur family came just for bday I didn't want to disturb. I did texted him at 12..but I don't know there are many things small or big which makes me feel like he doesn't loves me.. He is just attached maybe. Doing enough to keep me in touch. Even when we have arguments he just leaves.. Saying I don't like to fight.. It's very frustrating at times what to say.. I even said to him that I might leave I m frustrated to which he said ok if it makes u happy I won't stop u.

From few month almost a year I m going through a situation with my best friend.He knows I have feelings for him he wanted me to be there for him always but on the other hand he has a girlfriend... I m trying to cope up but it's getting heavy and heavy each day... The non chalant he behavee.. He knows his behavior is hurting me still he chose to not care.. He just runs away.. I was crying and all before to that also he said does it look good to u.. U r crying and calling me.. Now I m just furious very furious..i dont know I feel like I don't deserve this and still don't have courage to see life beyond him. I know he will never choose me.. He will keep me around his emotional support. He says u are not having 1% of anything also na so it's better to have at least 50% than nothing... So I feel like maybe I deserve 50% only I don't deserve 100%. I m so low on confidence right now.. But also very angry on him.. But even if I text him anything angrily or anything he just choose to ignore it..

My bf earlier he doesn't used to give oral sex.. But then eventually we got comfortable and he started giving it..but after he is done eating down there he immediately comes up to kiss and put all the fluid from down there in my mouth.. One or two times it feels okay if he likes it. But now I m feeling that he might not like it or what I don't know.. I just don't feel good abt it. Also after fingering he wipes his hand on my body. It makes me feel unlovable.

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I m 26 f and has a bestfrnd 26 M..I don't know how to put this but we have been frnds for over a decade. We are there for each other in everything like an unbreakable bond. But one day my friend persuaded me to be intimate bcoz we share almost everythings what a relationship have except this. I was new to this concept so I just believed him.He had a recent breakup that time.. But as the intimacy became part of it... I fell for him.. But before I could confess he got into relationship with another girl. I controlled we stopped all this nd were back to frnds.Although he insisted but I was not able to.. But soon after few yrs we were alone nd things happened. And then it continued to beffor a year while he was still in a relationship with his gf. He said he will always be there for me.. But he wants to continue this.I don't know I agree I contributed in this but I said to me him marry me we have everything but he was firm on his decision he said his family knew his gf they r compatible nd everything.. Nd now he is asking me to accept him and his to be wife.We will always share this bond.. I m in very miserable state I can't tell this to anybody when I go to him that this doesn't feels right I m hurting he is like u r ruining our frndship I want happiness. Stop being the frnd who brings negativity to my life. Nd if u r feeling heavy deal that with alone. I don't want to discuss all this. Nd I always end up saying sorry for how I m feeling.. I m fucked up.. I don't know what to do. I m just not able to handle my emotions. My situation. My life anything. What should I be doing right now??

TL:DR - In a emotionally draining situation with my bestfrnd not knowing how to escape it.. I need help. I just can't live without him. But also can't survive like this it's heavy to much heavy for me to see him with his gf. Nd he doesn't give a damn abt it.. He wants to live with both of us.. But I would have to remain unmarried for rest of my life.

I don't know how to put this but we have been frnds for over a decade. We are there for each other in everything like an unbreakable bond. But one day my friend persuaded me to be intimate bcoz we share almost everythings what a relationship have except this... I was new to this concept so I just believed him... He had a recent breakup that time.. But as the intimacy became part of it... I fell for him.. But before I could confess he got into relationship with another girl.. I controlled we stopped all this nd were back to frnds.. Although he insisted but I was not able to.. But soon after few yrs we were alone nd things happened... And then it continued to beffor a year while he was still in a relationship with his gf.... He said he will always be there for me.. But he wants to continue this.. I don't know I agree I contributed in this but I said to me him marry me we have everything but he was firm on his decision he said his family knew his gf they r compatible nd everything.. Nd now he is asking me to accept him and his to be wife.. We will always share this bond.. I m in very miserable state I can't tell this to anybody when I go to him that this doesn't feels right I m hurting he is like u r ruining our frndship I want happiness. Stop being the frnd who brings negativity to my life. Nd if u r feeling heavy deal that with alone. I don't want to discuss all this. Nd I always end up saying sorry for how I m feeling.. I m fucked up.. I don't know what to do. I m just not able to handle my emotions. My situation. My life anything. What should I be doing right now??

TL:DR - In a emotionally draining situation with my bestfrnd not knowing how to escape it.. I need help. I just can't live without him. But also can't survive like this it's heavy to much heavy for me to see him withhisw gf. Nd he doesn't give a damn abt it.. He wants to live with both of us.. But I would have to remain unmarried for rest of my life..

I don't know how to put this but we have been frnds for over a decade. We are there for each other in everything like an unbreakable bond. But one day my friend persuaded me to be intimate bcoz we share almost everythings what a relationship have except this... I was new to this concept so I just believed him... He had a recent breakup that time.. But as the intimacy became part of it... I fell for him.. But before I could confess he got into relationship with another girl.. I controlled we stopped all this nd were back to frnds.. Although he insisted but I was not able to.. But soon after few yrs we were alone nd things happened... And then it continued to beffor a year while he was still in a relationship with his gf... He got married to her.. He said he will always be there for me.. But he wants to continue this.. I don't know I agree I contributed in this but I said to me him marry me we have everything but he was firm on his decision he said his family knew his gf they r compatible nd everything.. Nd now he is asking me to accept him and his wife.. We will always share this bond.. I m in very miserable state I can't tell this to anybody when I go to him that this doesn't feels right I m hurting he is like u r ruining our frndship I want happiness. Stop being the frnd who brings negativity to my life. Nd if u r feeling heavy deal that with alone. I don't want to discuss all this. Nd I always end up saying sorry for how I m feeling.. I m fucked up.. I don't know what to do. I m just not able to handle my emotions. My situation. My life anything. What should I be doing right now??

TL:DR - In a emotionally draining situation with my bestfrnd not knowing how to escape it.. I need help. I just can't live without him. But also can't survive like this it's heavy to much heavy for me to see him with his wife. Nd he doesn't give a damn abt it.. He wants to live with both of us.. But I would have to remain unmarried for rest of my life.. Nd will be a secret forever