u/Nervous-Affect-5960

Everything (and I mean everything) can set me into an cognitive overload type of space, and I feel like it’s constantly managing it in ways or else I feel gone from my own thoughts/feelings/body

What helps me is — thinking of things in categories basically compartmentalizing things (I.e. work, friends, health, and so on); feeling really heavy in my body like I can’t describe this but making my body feel heavy; thinking or feeling slower; blinking slow and breathing slow and deep; imagining things far; having set times for things and doing those things then and not thinking worrying about it other times; and like feeling like i’m here with myself first and doing anything else is then going i’m another area of my life and adding into it.

Anyone else have similar things? Also anyone else have other ideas to help?

I know there are options like throwing broccoli in the air fryer or microwave etc. but I’m wondering if there are any other ways to get your vegetable intake in daily that is quick and easy and not much work (I unfortunately consider prepping to put in the air fryer then cleaning the air fryer all to be too much work some days). I wish there was just a drink I can have everyday that covers it all (which maybe there is!!)

I don’t know how to explain it but whenever I don’t feel fully ~there, present, in my body, aligned with what i’m doing, there fully (I can’t describe it really)~ then everything feels really bad, uncomfortable, overwhelming, overstimulating, jumbled, etc. Then if I keep operating in this then it builds up and I feel more and more disconnected to myself.

Does anyone else experience this? Does anyone know what this is?

Suffocating, Identity-less, Stuck, Frozen, Anger, Overwhelm, Resentment, when work ends then you're fine and confused why you felt the things you did -- I can go on 😭

What are your experiences like?

• Suffocating
• Identity-less
• Stuck
• Frozen
• Anger
• Overwhelm
• Resentment

I can go on

😭

I feel like all of the hard busy work is put on the paralegal while the attorney gets more autonomy, pay, satisfaction with clients, etc. In all my attorney acts like everything’s all good and chill while he’s not the one handling the constant messes. Does anyone else feel this way?

Edit: I wanted to add in too — my attorney is not a bad guy to work with at all and nice and super helpful and stuff like that. The only thing is the pay is insanely low like not enough to live on your own in the area i’m at (NY), so that may add in too

Extra edit: I work in corporate/transactional

I work as a Contract Specialist Analyst, where I draft and redline documents (employment and corporate related) for attorneys

I’m interested in learning about all the other types of roles and practice areas out there in the legal field in general (paralegals, mediators, IP attorneys, jury consultants, and really any role out there). I wish there was a program to do everything and see what you like the best so instead I’m on Reddit asking your experiences

***I’m looking to hear about your role — what your day to day is, what’s your title, and anything else.***

I work as a Contract Specialist Analyst, where I draft and redline documents (employment and corporate related) for attorneys

I’m interested in learning about all the other types of roles and practice areas out there in the legal field in general (paralegals, mediators, IP attorneys, jury consultants, and really any role out there). I wish there was a program to do everything and see what you like the best so instead I’m on Reddit asking your experiences

I’m looking to hear about your role — what your day to day is, what’s your title, and anything else.

Being on it (37.5 XR) takes away a lot of the sad/hopeless feelings that I have and stimulates me which helps me function more.

Buttt is stimulating where I feel very stimulated and moving around a lot. Like I feel in my throat or head a bit "high" if that makes sense. It doesn't take away my executive functioning issues, trauma responses, etc. just they show up in a different way (some more manageable though).

Anyone else have this, specifically where it's stimulating? Have you added on a medication to lessen the stimulation?

Edit: I’ve been on this on and off for 2/3 years

I wish I was able to live where only 4 hours of my day I can dedicate to work and the rest of the day is filled with other things

• 8 hours of work feels like my entire mind belongs to work, not just my time. Even if I have no work to do then I mentally can't just like be thinking other areas of my life. It's like it's in the background and I feel like suppressed to do anything else. Like the time I usually have spent allowing space and time for thoughts and feelings and managing things, is completely gone.
• I can’t naturally think about other things during the day because my brain stays in “work mode.”
• After work I feel mentally flattened and disconnected from myself.
• It’s like my whole self gets put in storage until later.
• I don’t even want “less work” as much as I want work to take up less of my mental energy. Like I want a job where it doesn't take up that much of my day/time. When I wasn't working I finally got a system in place where I was able to feel more grounded and take the time I need for things and still like hit all areas of my life through the days/weeks. It takes me a while to do things.
• I want space to think, feel, have side interests, and exist as a person during the day.
• I've been having a lot more meltdowns, and not managing my thinking/feeling which results in internal lash outs or external lashouts (not many but just not acting or responding instead of reacting), and overall just like I feel numb or like "gone" even after work.

Does anyone else experience this, and also like does anyone have any tips (besides getting a part-time job)?

• hours of work feels like my entire mind belongs to work, not just my time. Even if I have no work to do then I mentally can't just like be thinking other areas of my life. It's like it's in the background and I feel like suppressed to do anything else. Like the time I usually have spent allowing space and time for thoughts and feelings and managing things, is completely gone.
• I can’t naturally think about other things during the day because my brain stays in “work mode.”
• After work I feel mentally flattened and disconnected from myself.
• It’s like my whole self gets put in storage until later.
• I don’t even want “less work” as much as I want work to take up less of my mental energy. Like I want a job where it doesn't take up that much of my day/time. When I wasn't working I finally got a system in place where I was able to feel more grounded and take the time I need for things and still like hit all areas of my life through the days/weeks. It takes me a while to do things.
• I want space to think, feel, have side interests, and exist as a person during the day.
• I've been having a lot more meltdowns, and not managing my thinking/feeling which results in internal lash outs or external lashouts (not many but just not acting or responding instead of reacting), and overall just like I feel numb or like "gone" even after work.

Does anyone else experience this, and also like does anyone have any tips (besides getting a part-time job)?

Edit:
In order to do something and not completely lose myself, I need to be able to choose doing the thing everyday, also each thing can’t be a long period of time (unless a hyper fixation), and I need to be able to remind myself to be in my body.

• 8 hours of work feels like my entire mind belongs to work, not just my time. Even if I have no work to do then I mentally can't just like be thinking other areas of my life. It's like it's in the background and I feel like suppressed to do anything else. Like the time I usually have spent allowing space and time for thoughts and feelings and managing things, is completely gone.
• I can’t naturally think about other things during the day because my brain stays in “work mode.”
• After work I feel mentally flattened and disconnected from myself.
• It’s like my whole self gets put in storage until later.
• I don’t even want “less work” as much as I want work to take up less of my mental energy. Like I want a job where it doesn't take up that much of my day/time. When I wasn't working I finally got a system in place where I was able to feel more grounded and take the time I need for things and still like hit all areas of my life through the days/weeks. It takes me a while to do things.
• I want space to think, feel, have side interests, and exist as a person during the day.
• I've been having a lot more meltdowns, and not managing my thinking/feeling which results in internal lash outs or external lashouts (not many but just not acting or responding instead of reacting), and overall just like I feel numb or like "gone" even after work.

Does anyone else experience this, and also like does anyone have any tips (besides getting a part-time job)?

Out of the 8 hours I work, I need at least like half of the day to spend decompressing, regulating myself, or letting my brain do what my brain needs to do. I get all of my work done on time and get good reviews. I have to bill my time to put each thing I do in for my role though and also because I am an hourly employee, so it is really anxiety inducing to see that I only worked 4/8 hours and then I don’t know what to put for the other 4 hours.

I have immense guilt / worry my manager or people will be like “wtf is she doing”, I feel like I should be doing more and get really anxious and overwhelmed constantly, I I have a hard time during the day when I do take time for myself, to not mentally be worrying about if I “should be working” so that sometimes it just doesn’t even count as time for myself then I burn out

For other people, i’m really curious, how much time is normal to spend doing actual work (tedious, mindless, etc., just any kind of work) during your actual 8 hour shift? I’m hoping hearing other answers will make me feel better