u/No-Heat-6149

Video was about how "İslam is worst religion"

Look, i can take beating, whatever beating there is, i went through worse. I can take insults, dumb, idiot, bitch, cunt, asshole, anything.

But there is something in the world that makes me want to gouge someone's eyes out, it's people lying about me. You insult me, i pass, You beat me up, i cry, You lie about me? I will break your nose. It happened in middle school and i was expelled. Today, my younger cousin told my aunt and mom that i was hitting him and cursing at him. Which is a lie. But okay, You know, he is ten years old, i can take it. Children lie.

But when i told my aunt that he was lying and that i did NOT hit him. She called me a liar. She told my mom i was lying, She told her that "her son would not lie about something like this." I asked her "i'm a liar? I'm a liar?!" I wanted to hit her. So. Hard. But instead i locked myself in the bathroom and cried while thinking about disemboweling myself right there and leave them to find my bloody corpse missing its guts.

But i just couldn't do it. I wanted to hurt something so bad. I bit my fist and washed the blood off and droed my tears before coming back inside.

This is my home. I fucking hate it here.

Out of all the families in the universe, i was gifted with this one. What can you do? I can't wait to move in with one of my friends and fuck off from this hellhole.

So we have my cousin and aunt over at our house. I didn't consent to them coming but they came anyway. I actually remember genuinely telling my mom that i won't babysit my cousin (he is ten years old)

Well they came and i had to babysit my cousin. Today i saw my cousin playing with my masks. The masks that i made, dyed and was planning to use in a couple of weeks. Masks that i did to cope with my depression and dysmorphia. So i told him to put them away and not touch them. He didn't listen, i repeated, he didn't listen and i repeated he didn't listen and i realized he doesn't give a fuck so i just took them out of his hands. He then told my mom. Apparently my mom was the one to give him my masks for him to play.

This kid has an iPad, legos anda hundred other toys and my mom gives him masks to play with.

Mom gets angry at me and tells me that i am an idiot for not giving my masks that i am not even using, saying they are just masks and nothing important. So i am forced to let this brat play and break apart my masks. After half an hour i hear my mom her angry at him and yell and hit him for an unrelated reason, i quickly run and get between them, my mom hit me too and i told her.

"So You're okay with hitting and yelling at a ten year old, but not giving him masks, that's too much?"

My mom beat me up and then just sighed and grabbed her cigarette and left with my aunt. She always does this when conversation doesn't go the way she wants. She always comes back and i am tired of it. I HATE that i am dependent to her.