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Hi, I'm 15 years old, I would appreciate if anyone has the same story / trauma and managed to rescue their own mind from this terrifying religious conditioning. please read!

My extremist religious mom pulled me out of public school and homeschool me to "protect" me from this world and "Woke schools brainwashing kids into becoming nonbinary cats" (she repeated it for years and years) When I was like 8 years old mom would yell and get furious for me listening or watching anything secular (pop, kpop, my little pony, Star Wars) and it's "corrupting" my soul which is why I have panic attacks. I believed it for years that it caused my crippling anxiety (when in reality it was because I was getting abused). Now, when I listen to any music, I get scared because of her lessons that music is evil and has subliminal satanic messaging in it.

She threw out my favorite Harry Potter books when I was 9 (her “research” showed witchcraft invites satanic spirits), claimed to see spirits and ghosts, watches channels that claim the LEGO MOVIE!!!! is "satanic Christian persecution propaganda” and complete qanon maga conspiracies etc. She claimed my dad’s abuse was ”just Satan controlling him“ denies the existence of mental health and tried to do “Christian cbt” on me, taught me for years that I need to kill myself instead of denying Christ + said she would sacrifice and kill me if God asked. It really messed with me. (She sadly isn’t mentally well btw)

whenever I have anxiety she berates me, says it's my fault because I'm not a "good Christian." When I use past tense in this post I actually mean present tense, she still does all this sh-t. She claims I’m chronically ill because I’m not seeking God. whenever I have any single negative thought or anxiety I think "oh it must be because I listened to too much music today and didn't pray and it's influencing me satanically as mom said! That must be why" and I don't know if it's true or not. I don't trust any of my thoughts and I'm not a person anymore. She always says the rapture is happening very soon, Christians will be murdered and persecuted in America soon, and that I need to be focused on church (which I don’t care about) and I’m scared of going to hell and I don’t know what’s wrong or right anymore or what I beleive, my mind feels so fractured and I don’t know what the point of life is, since she always says there’s none and all that matters is being a servant of god. Help.

Hi. I’m 15 years old and have been suffering from Functional Dyspepsia and gut brain axis dysfunction for over a year with no relief at all, it has been non stop agony and pain, it’s unbearable and doctors haven’t been helping and have given no guidance at all.

I’m finally meeting a specialist GI dieitican tomorrow, I have detailed food logs and everything but I’m really scared I don’t know what to expect at all. I don’t know if it will help me, if I will be dismissed or gaslit, or how it will go (it’s a virtual zoom meeting.) If anyone has advice please I would appreciate it so much. I feel so unprepared and overwhelmed.

Hi, I'm a teen and I would like to know if anyone else’s parent acts like this. All my mom talks about these days is the Lindsay Clancy case. She’s obsessed, and has been consuming right-winger maga content about how "the liberals are psychotic and defending a killer” and ranting all day saying everyone is defending Lindsay Clancy. She told me proudly she told an AI bot that “Karen and liberals are supporting Lindsay” and got mad that the chatbot corrected her. I have not looked into the case, but I am just baffled by how she has more anger for this case than I’ve seen for mass murderers, and is blaming it all on “crazy feminist women” and liberals and abortions, and is obsessed with making this political, instead of caring about the literal innocent dead children.

Stay with me here because she’s racist, homophobic, hates on minorities, and anti-feminism, when I was like 7 yrs old made me report gay people FOR BEING GAY on social media for her 💀 She would always say maga qanon propaganda like “The woke left are brainwashing kids at school into nonbinary cats” which is why she pulled me out of public school to homeschool. She constantly claims she is “politically neutral” (”I don’t support trump, he’s a momster who’s gonna cause the left to persecute Christians” yes she always says that) She constantly calls me a “liberal” and “woke” over everything, for empathizing with DYING Palestinian people, she claims they started it. She says hating that Trump and Hitler is ANTI CHRISTIAN. SHE SCREAMED AT ME OVER SAYING I HATE HITLER. She victim-blames the TEENAGE/CHILD VICTIMS OF EPSTEIN. She is saying the Lindsay Clancy supporters are the “Downfall of USA”, yet is okay with defending Epstein and Trump? i am so confused

I thought my dad was sane, now he sides with her, saying Epstein victims deserve it, “JD Vance was right” etc, although he hates Trump. They’ve always been like this, all I heard a few years ago when I was a literal kid was them hating on Rachel Zegler and people of color and the lgbtq+ community every day, obsessed with the word woke. The other day my mom was watching a video on the Lindsay Clancy case, then I saw it was from this maga youtuber who had possibly the worst homophobic, transphobic, disturbing content I’ve seen. I was scrolling through the channel speechless, if this is what my parents have been watching for years, no wonder I’m called slurs and told I’m an evil woke feminist for basic human empathy and HATING HITLER. I don’t why specifically my mom is like this, I’m really exhausted I feel like I lost her and I don’t know why she’s defending the literal demons of this world and I used to trust her so much with sharing my thoughts but now I know she has been judging me the whole time

I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t know what to do. I’m 15 years old and I suffer from severe digestive disorders for over a year (Functional dyspepsia, visceral hypersensitivity, reflux, etc). I have been in pain for over a year, it has not improved at all. Every day is nothing but pain. It’s mainly Gut Brain axis dysfunction which NO doctors I see know about or how to help me so they don’t help at all, so I got a referral to a Motility Clinic. IN OCTOBER NEXT YEAR. OC. TO. BER. 2027. AKA THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO KNOW HOW TO HELP. Another specialist will meet me in MAY 2027. NOBODY IS HELPING ME AT ALL.even when I meet them NEXT YEAR, how are they even going to help me….????? HOW?

 my life has been ruined by the chronic pain, and  I AM BEING GIVEN 0 ADVICE, 0 MEDS (all standard ones failed), 0 HELP, I don’t know what to do. Seriously what. Am I supposed to do. I can’t do anything. I’ve been crying for the last hours because wtf. Am I supposed to go find a Dietician at the very least or a GI specialist therapist to try and get some basic help with foods I can tolerate or what? Please help me please my dad is making it worse saying he’ll fly me to another country (AKA RUIN MY ENTIRE EDUCATION LOL) to get help, AS IF ANYONE EVEN KNOWS WHAT GUT BRAIN AXIS DYSFUNCTION IS? I NEED HELP BUT IDK WHAT HELP IS! PLEASE WHY DOES EVERYONE IGNORE ME I JUST NEED HELP

I'm 15 years old, and I have had chronic functional dyspepsia and other conditions for over a year. Ever since it got bad, everyday as soon as I start eating, I literally just can't stop. I get the symptoms of heartburn, stomach pain, stomach heaviness, burping, dizziness, etc. all my standard symptoms, and though I am extremely full from the meal, almost about to throw up, I just keep eating. When I'm not hungry, I just want the taste of something yummy, despite the physical agony. Help.

This behavior and pattern got bad after a bad experience with a terrible doctor who told me to "Eat through the pain", gaslit me, and had me have dairy even though I'm intolerant to dairy, basically really horrific stuff. All I want to do is eat all day - when I have FD and chronic pain, so isn't this constant severe overeating worsening my condition, I literally will never get better at this rate.

But once I start getting symptoms am I just supposed to stop eating on the spot...? What do you guys do?

Clearly, the overeating is worsening my daily symptoms. I don;t know how to stop overeating and eating through the pain. Idk. Nobody online can relate I'm conused.

I really need help on how to manage LPR without meds, I've had chronic indigestion and LPR/reflux for over a year and I'm losing my sanity seriously.. I can't sing because of my sore throat, heartburn, and shortness of breath. If anyone has home remedies or some sort of natural supplement like maybe refluxraft you recommend it would really help. i just want to sing but my symptoms make it impossible and doctors don't even KNOW what LPR is. I'm 15 years old and it's hell.

Hi. I'm a teen, and my parents are highly conservative and “anti woke." My dad hates Trump and whenever he expresses it my mom gets EXTREMELY mad, and says hate is against Christianity, that hating Trump is SINFUL, and she even said once hating Hitler is sinful and that it’s anti christian. I'm not sure if she supports Trump/MAGA or not, but it seems she does with the way she defends it all, while claiming she doesn't support it and is "politically neutral."

She says hospitals kidnap kids to forcefully make them transgender and will persecute Christians in the future to arrest them. When I was like literally a kid my parents said schools are brainwashing children to "turn them into nonbinary cats" (????) and said teachers at school prey on kids to make them lgbtq+ and other crazy conspiracy stuff. What?? and they raised me in a religiously abusive cult before we left so I guess that influenced their views too.

Plus, they are really hateful sadly, racist and homophobic, obsessed with insulting and degrading lgbtq+ people and saying slurs about Black people, it’s just sad to see them be this bitter and cruel to minorities FOR NO REASON. Basic human decency doesn't exist to them. When we were arguing once, my mom said I "talk like a Black b*tch" and I was just SPEECHLESS. Idk where she got that from but it stunned me. And she preaches about the bible and being a loving neighbor..?

My mom gets mad at me for saying I believe in equal rights (feminism) and she calls me “woke” and “a liberal” for hating on Trump and Epstein, gets mad that I care about social issues and says I'm left-leaning for it, says I’m not supposed to question the Bible, whatnot, I can’t summarize years of insane statements. She screamed at me over characters in a Tomodachi video game being gay 😭 They victim blamed Epstein victims 😭 She and my dad are SO obsessed with “woke” and miuse it and throw it around like a JOB, that's ALL I HEAR THEM TALK ABOUT THESE DAYS, WISH I WERE KIDDING (aka the “problem” of casting Black/POC actors in movies which is "So woke" and lgbtq people existing is woke, everything is woke to them I guess?) and "Crazy feminism" and are obsessed with these youtube videos that I'm guessing are qanon propaganda or hardcore right wing stuff. They don't believe in mental health either and call it "woke." 😭They spread misinformation about everything possible, they were SOOOO OBSESSED with rachel zegler saying she is a "man hating lazy psycho feminist" and didn't listen when I said I did research 😭 The recent lindsay clancy murder case they keep saying the murders or something are the fault of feminism and liberals? Idk just needed to vent. I just assume there could be hope for them because at least my dad slightly agrees with my views compared to my mom.

Hi! 15 year old here, and I suffer from chronic fatigue and chronic illness for over a year, and I have NO idea what specifically causes my constant never-ending fatigue.

I have chronic indigestion and reflux, gut brain axis dysfunction, scoliosis, syringomyelia, chronic rib & back pain, and nutrient deficiencies (low iron), so I really just can't tell what exactly is causing my exhaustion. It could be everything, probably is. I can't function. Being in constant pain all over my body doesn't help. I get good sleep at night, I've been trying to eat healthier despite 24/7 stomach pain. And doctors can't help it's really frustrating.

I SWEAR ON EVERYTHING that it is connected, but I don't know if it'll ever get better. I'm convinced my left-sided stomach pain, left-sided rib pain, and left-sided throat pain is caused by my spine being curved left, and I have severe nerve issues due to my syringomyelia, but what can I do?? There's just too much happening. I'm convinced my stomach pain is causing physical fatigue and idk anymore I just wanted to rant.

Hi :) I'm 15 years old, and I've been suffering from severe chronic indigestion (Functional Dyspepsia) for over a year. It has been hell, and I have not had a single day or remotely any form of relief. After my GES test + endoscopy came out normal my doctors concluded I have visceral hypersensitivity and nerve issues, and my chronic indigestion and reflux is due to a gut brain dysfunction. I have severe vitamin/nutrient deficiencies, I'm eating horribly, and my doctors aren't helping. I feel so alone and I don't know what to do. I've been suffering alone for a year. I was referred to a Motility clinic, but I don't know how to combat any of this and my parents don't understand how much it hurts daily.. I can't sleep at night due to pain and symptoms. I just want to vent and sorry if this is the wrong subreddit, my teacher has gastroparesis and I was 1000% sure I had it too when talking to her, until my test came out normal a few months ago... I just want to be cured but it is hopeless. Every day I'm in SO MUCH PAIN AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT!!

15f. lit sobbing in my room as my n mom spews complete lies to my dad outside my room while I'm crying to do my homework. frames me as the problem, tells me I'm the problem, makes fun of my 5+ diagnosed nerve gut and digestive health disorders, and claims my chronic illness is all my fault for not listening to her "health" advice and saying my SPECIALIST DOCTORS AND DIETICANS "won't help" me and that she's "better." wtf?. I cannot survive in this house. I seriously can't.

I wish I were making it up, but I'm 15 years old dealing with severe gut-brain axis digestive issues and nerve/spine disorders for over a year, it's been a lonely terrible journey. So I've been keeping a daily journal/log of the foods I eat and the symptoms/reactions I have (as recommended by a doctor to me) to show to specialists I got referred to so they can help me. Normal right?

And my mom is losing her mind over it. She said it's "self-absorbed." Guys, if you're keeping track of symptoms to show to specialists and see what works for you and doesn't you're a NARCISSIST, as she said. lol.

She has been DENYING the DIAGNOSISES I GOT FROM MY DOCTORS, refusing to understand the literal facts, and accusing me of some of the most absurd things ever. She is claiming dieticians won't help, (as she always does)my head is spinning and she's threatening that specialists won't help me and that my year long sickness is because I don't exercise and eat healthy. Yes, I struggle with exercising and moving around since I got sick, because I'm in constant pain all day, so it's HARD to move around?? mentally it's difficult, I told her this, and she mocks me and says I'm just lazy. she's calling me names and sht-talking to my dad to get him on her side and say i'm the problem and a narcissist for journaling symptoms lol.

If anyone has gone through this same crazy gaslighting I would seriously appreciate the support I'm crying rn please help

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Hi! I'm 15 years old and I've had severe, constant digestion issues (functional dyspepsia and visceral hypersensitivity) for a year. Along with that, I've also had constant rib discomfort/pain for about a year too, and I'm wondering if anyone has experienced something similar. Idk if it's SRS or not, because I never felt DIRECT rib pain, just this dull heaviness.

They feel heavy, uncomfortable, and ache. My left rib completely sticks out because of my scoliosis. The rib pain always flares alongside my stomach flares, as my digestion issues seem to linger on my left side of the stomach too as my left rib feels uncomfortable.

Any tips on how to cope with the 24/7 discomfort and pain? I can't sleep on my back, sides, or stomach at all, I can't sleep comfortably at all. Digestive issues alone have been interfering with my daily life, and now realizing I've had constant rib pain I mistook as stomach pain has been even worse.

I want to see my neurosurgeon or doctor about it, I don't know what's happening, but I am so scared I won't be taken seriously as previously with other symptoms I was dismissed. Idk how to manage the pain other than icing my stomach.I 'm seeing Gastro specialists but idk if they know what to do about my rib or if I should bring it up. Any advice on how to be taken seriously or anything pls?

Hi! I'm 15 years old and I've had severe, constant digestion issues (functional dyspepsia and visceral hypersensitivity) for a year. Along with that, I've also had constant rib discomfort/pain for about a year too, and I'm wondering if anyone has experienced something similar, and my stomach pain is always on my left side.

My ribs feel heavy, uncomfortable, and ache. My left rib completely sticks out because of my scoliosis, it's been a year of this and I don't know if it's because of my hypersensitivity and digestive issues. The rib pain always flares alongside my stomach flares, as my digestion issues seem to linger on my left side of the stomach too as my left rib feels uncomfortable.

I can't sleep on my back, sides, or stomach at all, I can't sleep comfortably at all. Functional dyspepsia alone has been interfering with my daily life, and now realizing I've had constant rib pain I mistook as stomach pain has been even worse.

I want to see my neurosurgeon or doctor about it, I don't know what's happening, but I am so scared I won't be taken seriously as previously with other symptoms I was dismissed. Idk how to manage the pain other than icing my stomach. I 'm seeing Gastro specialists but idk if they know what to do about my rib or if I should bring it up. Any advice or thoughts please

15 years old here!! It's frustrating because for example in essays for my history or literature class, my head is EXPLODING with specifically so many critical analyses (on characters, themes of the story, etc) that I would like to express through my own words and writing, but I struggle to find the right words and terms (or phrases such as, I don't know like "creative liberty" or "cognitive dissonance") to use. I really don't know how to improve on that. I read classic literature and do language arts which I thought would help with my vocabulary and things like that, which over the years it has a lot, but I'm struggling to find another way. Like when I go online and read people's analyses and thoughts (hopefully you get the picture) I'm just BLOWN AWAY and so jealous of how perfectly they word it, I wish I could, and it feels like I don't rly know how to do that 😭

Being chronically ill as a teen is horrible, I want to do so many things, basic things like even go outside in my backyard but I'm so fatigued and trapped in constant physical pain, I can barely do my online schooling and I feel like I'm just floating around meaninglessly every day. It's so frustrating I'm so upset that it's been over a year of my life being ruined. i want to draw, i want to write, i want to design, i can barely get the energy to do those basic things, i'm neurodivergent and have executive dysfunction on top of 24/7 daily stomach rib and back pain, really awful and idk how I'm going to ever do anything I wanna do, idk what to do.

I have been suffering with health / severe digestive issues (functional dyspepsia, visceral hypersensitivity) for a year since I was 14 years old, dealing with chronic pain all day, and finally I got bloodwork results from yesterday back and I have high thyroid, low iodine, low white blood cells, low iron and other deficiencies I think (my doctor will reach out to explain soon)

and I guess I should be sad, which I am, but I'm also so happy, now my family and doctors can't minimize my suffering and say that nothing is wrong with me except my "anxiety"🙏 Idk what to do from here or how to fix my health, but I'm just so happy for the time being idk this is overwhelming i just wanna get better idk but everywhere hurts all day it's too much to explain. Thank you so much to some of the kindest people ever here who have been giving advice and supporting me thank you

I'M SO HAPPY. I have been suffering with health and severe digestive issues for a year since I was 14 years old, and finally I got bloodwork results back and I have high thyroid, low iodine, low white blood cells, low iron and other deficiencies I think (my doctor will reach out to explain soon) and I guess I should be sad and I am but I'm also so happy, now my family and doctors can't minimize my suffering and say that nothing is wrong with me 🙏 Idk what to do from here or how to fix my health but I'm just so happy for the time being idk this is overwhelming i just wanna get better

being told "you need to train your mind" after begging for help because you're experiencing severe symptoms daily after a sip of water because of your reflux burned throat and mangled stomach. for 400+ days. yeah. nice. thanks for the advice on how to manage my pain and suffering until my next appointment with specialists!!! do doctors just not know how to help or what? im 15 years old and literally trapped having to figure out my entire diet and symptoms and how to manage it all on my own????????????? this shit has been happening for more than a year

update: thank you to the people who actually helped and gave advice on how to word my thoughts, I ended up getting 100%