u/Ok-Simple-6032

I fucking cant express how much i appreciate this beautiful piece of art, that is No, I'm Not A Human.

Life is shit at hard mode since the beginning. But I am a 100% optimist. (Though bpd has its moments) this game makes me cry every time.

It makes me see the humanity and raw feeling that others actually feel too. I've always been alone and the problem child, so, when I see characters struggling with similar things makes me feel seen. I feel happy, that my feelings actually are real and not me being dramatic or delusional, like ive been told.

When I experienced cheerful man's and stand up comedian's dialogue, it made me feel something completely real. I always keep a positive sunshine front and can speak bright words, that make others cheer up. so when I heard cheerful man saying that kind stuff, like, he's always ready to listen and that he believes in you, I felt it. No has ever said those words to me. I say them because I know I'd like it to be said to me when i was little. I appreciate his character so much for it.

my experience and appreciation goes similarly to stand up comedian. I used to have my two angel dogs of 5 and 6 years. At yhe start of this year my parent sent them away without a word. They were the only living beings so bright and I felt they gave me so much love. I was in a mental unit at the time so I couldnt see them for 2 months before they were taken away.

I couldn't say goodbye.

I grieve it so much and cannot bear to think about them. The way stand up comedian expresses his unconditional love for his past dog, is so fucking real. My dogs were never understood. But I tried to be the light of their day, I tried to do anything to make them even a little bit more relaxed in our chaotic house.

I dont know what im sharing and probably regret posting this. Feel free to laugh at me and ill probably delete this after.

I just wish for a character to hug me. Reality is terrifying, horrible, but also so valuable.

But I need a break.

That's why I love this game and just want to express and reach my love out for it so badly. Thank you, because of things like these I can keep going strong, even if its all so harsh. 💜

Boundaries or ill-mannered?

(FYI: I'm 17 m, deal with autism, ADHD. I strongly suspect i have BPD, OCD and CPTSD. I am classified as mentally disabled.

2: this text is very scatterbrained and structurally not the best, since it is very hard for me to sort my thoughts out. Still, if you read it, thank you so much.)

So, last year my mother got a new partner. His post is me asking for advice on how to sort this out and set clear boundaries.

Today my mom got super mad at me all of a sudden. I was lounging, just taking care of my cat, when she all of a sudden started lecturing me about not greeting her partner, when he comes to our house. (I have a very bad trauma reaction to adults and freeze when he comes to visit.) Mom said partner doesn't feel welcome when I "ignore" him and it's making their relationship go downhill, since she is a single parent and the partner not feelivg comfortable with me being rude. she argued, that a greeting is so simple and yet I cannot learn such basic manners. Since I am almost of legal age, she justifies her harshness as teaching me manners and doing so hard work because of it, but that I am just so difficult. This "teaching" lecture she gives me is more like how she tries to train dogs, rather than children. I set my boundaries clear, with a "no". I tried to calm down but the split made me unable to stop responding. I have the right to set my own personal boundaries, wheter she likes it or not. She asked, "what boundaries? that these are not some boundaries. These are just basic human skills, but you still can't learn." and that even my troubled younger sibling can do this basic thing, but here I am, still yet to learn. I said my no is no, and she continued complaining about all the things she does to me and I am acting so poorly despite it. she cannot see the care I have for her and all I do, just saying I am ungrateful and am trying to use my trauma and BPD as an excuse to be lazy.

i also explained that I do not mean the partner any personal harm, rather am trying to protect everyone by not triggering my split further and exploding with rage to him and her. I said that I am sorry, that I cannot follow the basic manners, but that I just am not in the right headspace to be dealing with her partner right now. especially since a year ago I had to deal with massive reflection about my abusive parent and cutting them off. she said that I am hurting the partner and triggering their trauma response, making them feel not safe. But why am I suddenly having to take responsibility for these adults' relationship? needing to shift my own mental health at risk too. She is validating her partner's trauma but not mine, and tries to use it as protection. she degraded me, saying, that I cannot survive in the real world without her, so this is simply to help me. I know the basics of when I turn 18 and am trying my best to go there slowly. she treathens to leave me because she knows I have attachment to her and that is really scary and it makes me feel like i am not actually loved, but I always keep it down. I dont want to cut her off. She is she ONLY safe person to me. In the future, hopefully i can think more rationally of it when i get treatment.

Now, I am so scared to get out of my room and feel as if I need to calm the situation down. How do I do that? Any advice?

Boundaries or ill-mannered?

(FYI: I'm 17 m, deal with autism, ADHD. I strongly suspect i have BPD, OCD and CPTSD. I am classified as mentally disabled.

2: this text is very scatterbrained and structurally not the best, since it is very hard for me to sort my thoughts out. Still, if you read it, thank you so much.)

So, last year my mother got a new partner. His post is me asking for advice on how to sort this out and set clear boundaries.

Today my mom got super mad at me all of a sudden. I was lounging, just taking care of my cat, when she all of a sudden started lecturing me about not greeting her partner, when he comes to our house. (I have a very bad trauma reaction to adults and freeze when he comes to visit.) Mom said partner doesn't feel welcome when I "ignore" him and it's making their relationship go downhill, since she is a single parent and the partner not feelivg comfortable with me being rude. she argued, that a greeting is so simple and yet I cannot learn such basic manners. Since I am almost of legal age, she justifies her harshness as teaching me manners and doing so hard work because of it, but that I am just so difficult. This "teaching" lecture she gives me is more like how she tries to train dogs, rather than children. I set my boundaries clear, with a "no". I tried to calm down but the split made me unable to stop responding. I have the right to set my own personal boundaries, wheter she likes it or not. She asked, "what boundaries? that these are not some boundaries. These are just basic human skills, but you still can't learn." and that even my troubled younger sibling can do this basic thing, but here I am, still yet to learn. I said my no is no, and she continued complaining about all the things she does to me and I am acting so poorly despite it. she cannot see the care I have for her and all I do, just saying I am ungrateful and am trying to use my trauma and BPD as an excuse to be lazy.

i also explained that I do not mean the partner any personal harm, rather am trying to protect everyone by not triggering my split further and exploding with rage to him and her. I said that I am sorry, that I cannot follow the basic manners, but that I just am not in the right headspace to be dealing with her partner right now. especially since a year ago I had to deal with massive reflection about my abusive parent and cutting them off. she said that I am hurting the partner and triggering their trauma response, making them feel not safe. But why am I suddenly having to take responsibility for these adults' relationship? needing to shift my own mental health at risk too. She is validating her partner's trauma but not mine, and tries to use it as protection. she degraded me, saying, that I cannot survive in the real world without her, so this is simply to help me. I know the basics of when I turn 18 and am trying my best to go there slowly. she treathens to leave me because she knows I have attachment to her and that is really scary and it makes me feel like i am not actually loved, but I always keep it down. I dont want to cut her off. She is she ONLY safe person to me. In the future, hopefully i can think more rationally of it when i get treatment.

Now, I am so scared to get out of my room and feel as if I need to calm the situation down. How do I do that? Any advice?

Boundaries or ill-mannered?

(FYI: I'm 17 m, deal with autism, ADHD. I strongly suspect i have BPD, OCD and CPTSD. I am classified as mentally disabled.

2: this text is very scatterbrained and structurally not the best, since it is very hard for me to sort my thoughts out. Still, if you read it, thank you so much.)

So, last year my mother got a new partner. His post is me asking for advice on how to sort this out and set clear boundaries.

Today my mom got super mad at me all of a sudden. I was lounging, just taking care of my cat, when she all of a sudden started lecturing me about not greeting her partner, when he comes to our house. (I have a very bad trauma reaction to adults and freeze when he comes to visit.) Mom said partner doesn't feel welcome when I "ignore" him and it's making their relationship go downhill, since she is a single parent and the partner not feelivg comfortable with me being rude. she argued, that a greeting is so simple and yet I cannot learn such basic manners. Since I am almost of legal age, she justifies her harshness as teaching me manners and doing so hard work because of it, but that I am just so difficult. This "teaching" lecture she gives me is more like how she tries to train dogs, rather than children. I set my boundaries clear, with a "no". I tried to calm down but the split made me unable to stop responding. I have the right to set my own personal boundaries, wheter she likes it or not. She asked, "what boundaries? that these are not some boundaries. These are just basic human skills, but you still can't learn." and that even my troubled younger sibling can do this basic thing, but here I am, still yet to learn. I said my no is no, and she continued complaining about all the things she does to me and I am acting so poorly despite it. she cannot see the care I have for her and all I do, just saying I am ungrateful and am trying to use my trauma and BPD as an excuse to be lazy.

i also explained that I do not mean the partner any personal harm, rather am trying to protect everyone by not triggering my split further and exploding with rage to him and her. I said that I am sorry, that I cannot follow the basic manners, but that I just am not in the right headspace to be dealing with her partner right now. especially since a year ago I had to deal with massive reflection about my abusive parent and cutting them off. she said that I am hurting the partner and triggering their trauma response, making them feel not safe. But why am I suddenly having to take responsibility for these adults' relationship? needing to shift my own mental health at risk too. She is validating her partner's trauma but not mine, and tries to use it as protection. she degraded me, saying, that I cannot survive in the real world without her, so this is simply to help me. I know the basics of when I turn 18 and am trying my best to go there slowly. she treathens to leave me because she knows I have attachment to her and that is really scary and it makes me feel like i am not actually loved, but I always keep it down. I dont want to cut her off. She is she ONLY safe person to me. In the future, hopefully i can think more rationally of it when i get treatment.

Now, I am so scared to get out of my room and feel as if I need to calm the situation down. How do I do that? Any advice?