u/One-Letterhead1091

I feel absolutely terrible about this. I love my bf and he’s amazing but I have dreams of being with other women.. in some of my dreams I cheated on him with a woman. I feel torn over this. I am straight but have been questioning bisexuality for the last few years. I haven’t told my bf this. These dreams feel so real that when I wake up I question my entire reality. Sometimes I do fantasize about being with a woman but I genuinely do love my bf and I do not want to leave him and I certainly am not going to cheat on him or suggest open relationship.

I don’t know what this says about me. I constantly push him away and others too when they show they care for me. But when they don’t then I get anxious and I realize how much I care for them and want them in my life.

Idk what it is maybe abandonment issues but with my partner and previous partners, friends, even family whenever they do the slightest thing to upset me I think of just cutting them off. I know it’s bad and I’m not sure why I do it. Like with my bf he is actually a very good guy and treats me well but I’m so irrational sometimes. For example: he forgot to call me ONE TIME and I obviously was upset and in my head I was like “screw him I guess I’m single again” obviously I never cheated or anything but my brain just immediately mentally pushes people away when I feel slightly abandoned or hurt by them. My closest friends I have thought this way too. The slightest thing internally sets me off and mentally I’m already imagining my life without them. I know it’s irrational but I don’t know why I do this or how to be more rational in the moment. With my parents it’s like every while after an argument I’m already imagining moving across the world so I don’t have to see them again. With my past partner a bit of it was definitely built up resentment but my bf is genuinely so sweet to me but I’m still like this over genuinely small things. And when I do this it takes a bit for me to comedown from it because I’ve already mentally blocked them from my life.

I have diagnosed adhd and it runs in my family but I am wondering how can you tell if you have autism? I know the two have similar traits

If I use an obsession spell on my bf, will it enforce his feelings for me, keep him feeling that way forever, or do the completely opposite? Also would it be a good idea?

**not asking for spells, spell ideas, or instructions !!

I finished college in April and back then I was going to my classes, gym, work.. I was pretty productive. Now I work 2 shifts a week + online class and literally only leave my house to go to work and to see my bf once a week. Every other time I am in bed. I barely leave my room now. I shower every 2 days which doesn’t sound bad but I used to shower twice a day so it’s quite a contrast from my normal routine. I don’t have the motivation to do anything anymore. But the last 2-3 weeks I keep pushing everyone away. I have been pushing most of my friends away… hung out with one friend last week but I had to drag myself out of bed to see her because I did not want to and then this weekend I saw my bf an once again had to force myself to see him. And then my friends from out of town came to my city but I lied and said I was busy. And then lately I’ve been picking super unnecessary fights with my bf and also ignoring my friends messages because I just don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to hangout with anyone and I don’t want to talk to anyone and I keep getting annoyed at them for bothering me. Like it’s to the point that I was contemplating breaking up because I’m gettigg bf annoyed he wants to talk to me. Also debated uninviting certain friends to my bday because I’m getting annoyed that they are messaging me to hangout. And the thing is I have amazing friends and a wonderful bf but I have been such a terrible friend and partner lately and I don’t know what to do. These are good people and I just keep pushing everyone away. Please don’t give me advice to break up or leave anyone because deep down I know I don’t want that and honest to god idk why anyone in my life has stayed

I’ve been with my partner for 5 months now. He’s an amazing person, treats me well, and is always there for me. We have the same goals in mind and same expectations for our relationship. We can talk about anything together and he feels like my best friend. I can see myself building a future with him and I know we would have a happy marriage together. The only issue is I’m not fully attracted to him. It’s been like this since we started dating. When we met I thought he was cute but I wasn’t like head over heels gushing at the site of him. I immediately fell for him because of his personality and we have a great and healthy relationship together. But I’m wondering if anyone else is the same way… I do love him but I dont think he is the most attractive person and sometimes I feel this anxiety that I have to break up with him

Hi guys I’m new to this sub and new to witchcraft. I’m wondering how to get started with learning tarot. And how can I use crystals with the tarot. Thank you!

So as the title reads I have a little bit of a problem. Now it’s not to the point where it’s super obvious nor am I a hoarder but I always WANT to buy stuff. it’s likely because of my adhd.. because my dad also has adhd and is exactly the same way. Just always buying stuff for the sake of it and sometimes it’s the most random stuff ever that is not exactly needed. When I shop I feel happy. I get a dopamine boost and I like the feeling of buying stuff. I literally find ANY excuse to spend money. I recently spent a pretty penny on some new clothes last week and I’m already shopping for more. I justify this to myself by putting my old stuff up for sale on marketplace. But I online shop very frequently. My love language is gift giving and so I will often buy my family small gifts and my bf too. Everytime I have any sort of event (including a friend’s bday) I use that as an excuse to buy a new outfit and to buy them a gift. I’m having my friends and their bfs and my bf over for a party soon and I have been on a few shopping sprees using it as an excuse to buy a new outfit, decorations, food for the party, party games, and now I’m considering purchasing some fujifilm cameras so my friends can photograph it as a memory. My bf and I also keep quoting this certain meme and now I’m considering buying him a shirt with the meme as a joke. Which is just me finding an excuse to buy something. Now while I like how generous I am I know a part of it is just because I find any excuse to spend money. How do I stop wanting to buy stuff all the time??

I’ve been with my bf for just under 6 months and the entire time we have been together I always think “what if he doesn’t like me” or “what if I don’t like him” my nervous system is constantly stressed out. When I think “what if he doesn’t like me” it makes me anxious and I am constantly seeking reassurance and feel the need to touch him and be with him literally 24/7. When I think “what if I don’t like him” then I pull away because I’m scared of having that deep commitment and it not working out. It makes me withdraw from him both emotionally and physically during that time. It’s a constant cycle and in the rare moment I’m not stressing myself out then I feel calm and feel like I love him. I don’t know why I am this way but this is the healthiest relationship I’ve been in and he treats me very well.