u/Ornery-Back7669

Hi! F15.

I am in highschool, and the next year just started. (School started again in September after 2 months of summerbreak)

Socially, I'm doing great, I don't notice too much..

But stuudy wise.. 🥲

So right now I'm sick so bad, and I stayed home for a week, on wedenesday I'll be visiting school again and the day after on thursday, I'll be having my first math exam. 😭

I'm pretty worried and honestly overwhelmed. I have so much to cover and look up.. what they did in other subjects, do the homework to all of those subjects, have to understand them, and on top of all that and more I have to study for math test really bad. Oh and I need to buy stuff for my art class as well.

I can see myself having a downfall again.. I wish for t NOT to be like 7th grade again. I was mostly sick and.. socially I wasn't doing well and aijsjwbd it's just really hard.

So all of that overwhelms me.. on top of that I have to so it ALL sick. In a FEW days. I don't know if that's necessary to know but I am diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety, ADD is suspected. I guess it kind of prevent s me too. Ofc I have professional help and much support but I think it really just makes things harder. I rarely got motivation for anything.

What do I do? Where do I start? Should I even start? I'm srill feeling sick? Will i just waste time when i study but actually leave my desk with nothing in mind? How can i actually learn withour it burning me out? My EXAM?! And it's math? How do I cover every homework??? oh and TO THAT 15 oct is math test right, guess what on 19oct it's english test!! So how do i study for 2 exams?how do I even do anything?

I really can't.. 😭 i'm still feeling really really sick too💔 i wish I was just healthy and better at studying so I could have a life.

What do u guys think?

Any advice?

Or similar students?

Or opinions?

:)

(This is a really lazy rant btw -.- I'm still unwell to correct things and all /my eyes hurt)

HEAD OVER HEELS for this one person I can't.

I just have to rant this off in the internet space, I love them so much.. It's unhealthy..

My whole life I never crushed on anyone and if I did it was way too short and faded but this one. Oh.. it's different. I'm so in love I can't even deny it anymore, I liked them for more than a year and kept telling myself no I don't like them, and had a crush and then it forcefully faded only to always come back. This person is my bestfriend and I know them in the absolute worst..I've seen things I don't tolerate AT all yet I still like them. We often deep talk and small talk or talk funny just as serious. This person. Oh my days.. IDK BUT I LOVE THEM SMSMSMSM 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 IT FEELS WEIRD BUR AH?? And it's not just always cheesy feelings but honest feelings and without all the sugar rush and stuff I can imagine them literally being in my life daily. What the shits.

WHEN DID CUPID ATTACK ME LIKE THAT? WHY DO I FEEL ATTRACTION OUT OF A SUDDEN? AND WHY THEM AND NOBODY ELSE 😵💗

Hi I'm f15,

Everytime, at school at home, outside and everyday I find myself atleast once or twice picking on my scalp alot. Consciously and unconsciously.

I really hate it tho.. when I realize it's been so long I've picked, at my arms hurt and my scalp is bleeding I just feel exhausted. And not only my scalp but my nails too. They constantly bleed or are someway.

And the fact that nothing was even itchy.

It really frustrates me. If I want to stop I put my hand down and try not pick again but I can't stop. I don't want it.. it's like my hand just has to??

And if I try to keep my hands of one skin part like my scalp, it just gets to another. My fingers, my nails my face, my ears even my nose?!

It's so bad I'd feel like having to vent about my hands even like... why can't they just stop? ToT.

Fyi. I'm not sure if I have Dermatillomania, I never really went to the doctor or anything about this. And I am not diagnosed with anything about skin picking. Is it something?? Idk.

Yeah it's really bad. Oh and anytime I scratch my scalp or do skin picking it usually lasts for hours. The amount of time , I wasted doing just that is crazy.. and i regret it a lot. It gets sort of addicting? Arghh it's frustrating!!!

I wish I can do anything about it. I'd want to keep my hands away from me forever or something..

I don't even have fidget toys or stress stuff😭

And FYI ; I am diagnosed with depression and anxiety mixed. My therapist was telling me she thinks I have ADHD but we still have to look into that because I never to 100% thought or still think I am. Welp I wonder if my skin picking is any related to that? And MIND YOU I still need to tell this my therapist and discuss bc ITZ GETTING A PROBLEM. I told her once but we never really talked about it. I

feel like if I mention it anywhere (not talking abt my therapist) they might won't take me serious or think I'm disgusting or weird for doing so.. but beside that I will DO talk to my Therapist and tell her all anyway IN detail and hopefully I can get somewhere!!

PS: Do you have any advice? Or what is helping u? :)

Tysm for reading! (Sorry if my grammar is bad,if things are unclear or etc.!)

Hi f16 here

I had an appointment at the dentist today,

Last week they spotted a hole in my teeth and did xray scan and I didn't really now what they were doing but I was just sitting there and letting then treat me.

So before that they numb the area and i felt nothing (yay)

okay so week later (today) I got to them and they worked on that tooth again they idk.. opened the tooth again and closed it again?? I'm really not sure.

I got another teeth filled that was not really a big deal. (No numbing at all this time) and i didn't feel what they did with the one tooth who we worked on last time??)

So when I was done the lady took me to the xray thing and I asked what were they doing and she showed me the xray and explained. That tooths root was like white?? Idk and the others next to it were normal. That's what I picked up. They had me again and told me that they put some medicine in that tooth too. So i did my research, was it a canal root? Or?? Idk.. but yeah i had that..

And now my teeth just hurt?? Idk why?? I feel scared to eat anything as well. And i keep tasting like.. liquid.. idk it's like my mouth feels toothy? Hard to explain, i already rinsed with water and all but it won't help? It really tastes like the numbing they inject from last time? Idk and

And strange thing: i was just laying okay and suddenly my teeth hurt and it felt like a sting.. almost as if it was my nerve ?? Ideek and then it felt like somethig was running out of it idk??

I'm so worried? Is this normal? Is there any advice? What should I say to my doctor? What can I do for now,can I eat drink or do anything?, Why is it painful and can I take pain killers? Helpp!

Hii so uhm f15. I'm diagnosed with Depression and anxiety mixed and take Sertalin 100mg.

I don't know if that's a stupid question ans I was just wondering..

So I was staying up late and ended up making an all nighter, it's 8 am and I usually take the SSRiS at mornings. Now I'm just thinking.. because I've never done a real all nighter before and toon it. So uh, I didn't sleep my body didn't rest at all? I think and I'm hungry or atleast my stomach hurts and I don't know how I will tolerate taking an SSRiS well after the all nighter.

I mean I probably DO have to take it anyways since it's a medication i have to take daily..

But uh yeah!

Thanks for reading :)

Hey guys.. I really have to get this out my chest, and It's bothering me for a while now.

I'm 15f and I have many friends a bit older than me.

Let me just explain how it got there;

When I was 13-14 I used to be online ALOT and having strict parents made me be way more sneakier and often online. I never really had IRL friends at that phase since I had a breakup with my friendgroup. I was alone 2 years and developed Social Anxiety. I wasn't used to be left by my friends and be all alone in 7th - 8th grade. Everyone already was in groups and I felt left out.

That's how I got to be playing games on Roblox, Animal Crossing being on Socials like YouTube and even Discord

I made lots of Online-Friends who were kind and I felt really close to.

I still wanted to be save so I hid my real Identity.

When I was 13-14 I told them I was 2 years older than my actual age to fit in/ not get bullied for it and have actual friends, as well as keeping my identity kind of safe. I faked name and most of myself also.

The friendships and my personality were real tho.

So those friends were/are around 16-20 or so.

Now I'm 15.. still pretending with a fake age.. 17.

Man I wish I wasn't so stupid.. and now I'm still friends with my Online-friends. It's been almost 2 years now.

The older I get, or the older they get, I feel guilty.

I feel so guilty and it feels so wrong. Seeing my online friends enter to college while I'm going to high school. Is that still okay?.. I'm perceived pretty nicely by all of my friends. But I've been lying about my age all the time.

Usually I really feel like I fit in with older agegroups too but why is it like that... OOF ToT

I don't know what to dooo. And I've grown big love for them all too.

As someone who is pretty avoidant due to past trauma from my irl friendgroup I keep myself away from getting friends or making newer once. Even online. Sometimes I even feel like ghosting them and I considered quitting socials too. Because I know, or atleast I think they'd never be friends with me again. ARGHHH Couldn't I just be born 2 years earlier?🥲 I avoid getting close to anyone even. Because loosing someone is the worst feeling for me. So i'd rather stay alone.. it's hard to say.

Fyi; I do have irl friends too and my social anxiety decreased ALOT! I'm so thankful for that. I have Summer break now and I don't get to meet my friends anymore.. and that's when I felt like that and overthought too.. ughhhhhhshahhq

And that's not even my only problem.

See, there's a guy let's call him Jake and he's been one of those Online friends I've known for 2 years now. I must say he's my bestfriend and we are REALLY CLOSE it feels like a waste of friendship too me...all this guilt and overthinking. I love him ALOT as a friend, I even worried If I'd ever crush on him too (I'm on the aroace spectrum if you wonder + aroacefluid) everything in my life feels so confusing !!!!!!!

And if you wonder how old he is? He turned 20. 😭

ARGHHHHH

I don't know.. thinking of that makes me sad. It feels so wrong.. oh man...pls help yall T T

I cant stop thinking about a person I ha ent even seen in months...