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I love men so much they’re so beautiful and handsome and amazing and when they’re good they’re very good but ive only found i am just used by them and idk maybe this is what being attracted to men is maybe they were right and the fruits of liking men is being used. all i do is get used and I can’t stop letting myself be. im so tired of loving men im so tired of being told i cant love Jesus and men im so tired of life.

im just starting to realize I love my friends too and idk is being in a relationship not right for me idk anymore

hi i was two days sober from porn and thinking about hookups and everything and now i relapsed and looked at some and even sexed with some grindr guys. i had a dream last week where i let in some hogs to eat an annoying pig in my yard and then they targeted what was most precious to me (my dog) and it feels similar. my ability to quit was making everything look up and be able to love my friends and family and neighbors again and now i relapsed trying to relieve the pain and doubt and shame that i felt (i think i was triggered by a video saying that if i think being gay is ok then i support israel) and just wanting to test if i was really gay cause what if i am secretly attracted to women i wasnt really finding men hot with the same frequency i hate having a libido i wish i could be horny less im so exhausted and i also realized a lot of heteros dont even see non piv sex as sex and it makes me feel like what if im missing out on life im so done with it all

hi i (18mtf pre everything) and I heard getting on estrogen will make me less energized and not be able to have a drive to do much? i think my drive is an important part of me and im afraid of not being able to do anything without prompting. i am a bubbly happy playful person half the time now and i really dont to lose that. do y’all have any insights from the other side?

hi im a child of God who also happens to be queer and lately I’ve been feeling like I am playing God on technicalities by accepting myself as I am and getting a relationship and trying to date and stuff and I just don’t know how to stop feeling like this. I wanna take my faith seriously I want to know God and I’m tired of feeling like I’m just saying oh it’s not in the Bible so it’s OK. I want to feel like I’m using the Bible as a positive thing like I want my Christianity to come before my sexuality and I don’t really know how to get there because it feels so polarized. I just don’t know what to do.

Let the decree of my weary soul be proclaimed before the HEAVENS and let every corner of the Earth bear witness unto this solemn DECLARATION! By the Almighty who beholdeth both the burdens of kings and the toil of common men. My SPIRIT hath grown weary of this labor that bindeth me day after day!
The strength once found within these hands have been spent. And the fire that once compelled me Onward now butnetg but as fading ambers upon the wind. *Passionate laugh*. *Thinking about the pain of working* BEHOLD I have endured the long hours the countless trails and the relentless weight laid upon my shoulders. I have walked this path with steadfast resolve yet every road hath its appointed end and every servant knoweth the hour when his task is fulfilled .CURSETH be my manager *maniac laugh* Damien
*more laughing*. You have strangled my soul and have brought surrow unto my spirit. Let no man mistake this for surrender for I depart not in defeat but in the pursuit of the greater calling.
Ending maniac laugh

so like I understand that sex and marriage are like Christ and the church and I was wondering if anyone who gave this more thought than me could tell me how queer relationships model this dynamic or if we can hold that truth about sex in our lives

hi so like my body is comedically male and hairy and whatever and I think more feminine clothes might be right for me but honestly I can’t stand the idea of wearing them before I am on hrt because of just how bad it is does this mean im not trans?

Dear God
we’ve been talking a while
remember when you said
id get to heal
well i got a job i didn’t want
and i still don’t feel real

i had a dream
i went to get the surgery
and the doctor turned me down and said
why didn’t you get on your meds?

i just need a little money
and a bundle of time
I don’t want to spend my whole life
caught on this rhyme