Hey brothers, I hope you all are staying strong—I am trying my best as well. I have stopped counting, but this is at least my 15th day. Over the last four days, however, I have been facing a very difficult issue. At times during the day, I feel an irritating, slightly painful burning sensation inside my penis.

Also, for the past couple of days, I have been leaking a few drops of semen almost every day. I call it quality semen because it is much thicker than the usual fluid from when I used to masturbate. Along with that, there is a lot of pre-cum. I would really like to know how to prevent this leakage.

Even though I am keeping my actions completely clean, stray thoughts still cross my mind, and I have been experiencing frequent wet dreams. Interestingly, it doesn't happen at night, but rather when I am fully conscious and least expecting it. I would appreciate any guidance.

Hello everyone! I am not exactly new to "pen-paling," but I am coming back to it after a break. This time, I am looking for a long-term connection with someone who appreciates slower, more meaningful communication..something unique and deliberate, far away from the fast-paced world of one-click messages.

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To be honest, I find it a bit tough to brief things out about myself in a short post! Because of that, I prefer deeper, intellectually dense, and emotionally rich conversations over small talk. We can absolutely start by chatting here to get to know each other a bit, and the move to the main letter-writing if we click. I love talking about life, our existence, philosophy, religion, culture, and politics (as long as it doesn't get toxic or stressful).

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I absolutely love history. In fact, my passion for it is so strong that I completed a Master’s degree in History despite being an engineer by trade! I have high academic ambitions, including pursuing research in the philosophy and history of my local region, India in general, and world history as a whole. Knowledge has always fascinated me; I spend a lot of time listening to storytellers and podcasters on YouTube. I am also a big Friedrich Nietzsche fanboy, and books like "The Brothers Karamazov" and "The Stranger" are among my absolute favorites.

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Beyond academia, I have a deep fascination with different cultures, traditions, and societies. If you are from India, that would be wonderful, but if not, I am highly enthusiastic about a global cultural exchange!

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My interests aren't strictly academic, either..I love horse riding, Running (10km a day in winter) and my fashion related ideas is heavily inspired by European and Indian royalty.

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And believe me, I find it a bit tough to brief people on myself. That being said, I prefer deeper conversations over small talk. We can start by chatting in dms to get to know each other a bit, and then move to the main correspondence if we click.

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If you are looking for a thoughtful, slow-paced connection, please reach out!

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I think semen retention is much more powerful than I originally believed. After more than a week, I’ve started noticing positive changes.

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For example, I now feel like less sleep is enough for me. Last night, I slept for only four hours, yet I’m not feeling the kind of fatigue I usually used to feel with so little sleep. Yesterday, I had around nine hours of screen time, obviously for studying purposes, but it still didn’t feel as exhausting as before.

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I genuinely feel like there’s something magical about this, and I’m really noticing the positive effects. I’m no longer getting tired while reading thick books continuously like I used to. My screen fatigue also feels reduced, and even a smaller amount of food seems enough for me to get through the day.

My goal is to pass the day. Win the day. And then tomorrow's goal is same. But for tomorrow.

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Just got few thick drops of Semen released while peeing.. but that's not my fault.

Please, for once?

Most notifications are off.

My mind is convinced that if we relapse, we lose. If we hold, we win. This is the toughest battle I’m fighting against myself.

The great souls of my ideals, like Emperor Napoleon Bonaparte, Samrat Ashoka, Friedrich Nietzsche, Samrat Samudragupta, B. R. Ambedkar, Veer Vinayak Damodar Savarkar, Fyodor Dostoevsky, Chhatrapati Shivaji, Miyamoto Musashi, Yukio Mishima, and HRM His Holiness Saint Tsar Nicholas II are all watching me fight against the self.

This victory would be one step closer to the Supreme Lord, Supreme Brahm, and the Lord of the Universe.

May Ishwar Almighty give me the strength to keep my castle standing high and follow the footprints of my ideals. I want to change the course of history for my people, and thus I have to change the course of my own future, which completely depends on my sexual self-discipline at the moment.

Wish me luck, brothers. Pray for me.

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I've been reading _Dante's Divine Comedy_ lately. At one point, in the part of hell reserved for those punished for lust, there's a woman who took her own life out of passion , out of love that tipped into something more like obsession. I was sitting with that scene when something shifted in how I was reading the book itself, not just the story.

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Here's the thing...this poem has been argued over for seven hundred years. Millions of people, across centuries, debating Dante's circles of hell, his guide Virgil , the Roman poet from antiquity who Dante chose as his companion through the underworld, partly because Virgil's own epic, the Aeneid, was considered the high point of classical literature , and the whole architecture of sin and redemption Dante built. And I found myself thinking..this isn't just because the book is brilliant. It's because it was written in a ```European language``` , by someone whose civilization eventually went on to dominate the world.

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Kalidasa wrote things just as profound in Sanskrit..arguably more psychologically intricate. But _Shakuntala_ doesn't get debated in every literature department on earth. Not because it's lesser. Because the infrastructure of global attention was never built around it.

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That's when an idea from _Michel Foucault_ came back to me. He was a French philosopher who spent his life studying _how power shapes knowledge itself_ . He used a word, episteme, for the invisible boundary of what's even thinkable in a given era. Not what people choose to believe...the deeper layer underneath that, the unconscious framework that decides which questions feel like real questions at all.

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Democracy, socialism, the entire vocabulary of rights and individual liberty, the literary forms we treat as ```"universal"``` ...all of it arrived through a Western lens, because the West held the power to make its ideas the default ones. We think we're freely thinking. Foucault's point was that _we're mostly thinking inside walls we never built and rarely notice._

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I tried an experiment in my head: what if India, not Britain, had _been the dominant world power during that same stretch of history?_ United, politically coherent, projecting its civilization outward the way Britain did. Then maybe ```Vedanta and the idea of Brahman``` wouldn't be filed under "Eastern philosophy"...a subcategory, an elective. Maybe they'd just be philosophy, full stop. Maybe the existential questions everyone wrestles with would be framed in terms of maya and atman instead of the ```Bible, the Greek mythology, Sartre and absurdity``` . The language of power decides which texts become scripture for the world and which become cultural footnotes.

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This isn't really a complaint. It's more like vertigo. Because once you see the cage, you can't unsee it. I noticed this in myself almost immediately..I could still enjoy the verse, sure, the rhythm and the imagery. But I can't go back to enjoying it the way I used to, innocently, without some part of me also asking why this verse, and not Kalidasa's, sits at the center of the world's bookshelf. That particular kind of naivety is gone. I'm not going to become someone who reads without noticing this anymore..that time has passed, and I don't think I get it back.

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But maybe there's a way to hold this that isn't just paralysis. Foucault didn't write to make people give up..he wrote to make the cage visible, because a cage you can see is one you can at least push against, even if you can't walk out of it. Nietzsche did something similar from inside his own German, Christian inheritance..he thought against his own tradition's grain, using its own tools against it. Dostoevsky did it from inside Russian Orthodoxy. None of them fully escaped the episteme they were born into. Nobody can. But they became conscious of its walls, and that consciousness is itself a kind of freedom...maybe the only kind actually available to us.

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So that's roughly where I've landed. I can't think my way to some pure, unconditioned vantage point outside history..no one can. But I can read Dante and Kalidasa side by side, hold both up to the light, and ask out loud why one got canonized and the other didn't. The asking doesn't break the cage open. But it means I know I'm standing inside one. And once you know that, _reading..thinking, living.._ isn't quite the same activity anymore.

I won't give up this time. I feel like crying for my current situation in life, but I won't masturbate just to find an escape. Please motivate me brothers.

This is my day 6th.

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Hey everyone,

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I've been trying different things..staying away from my phone, keeping myself busy, and building better habits. But whenever the urge hits, we all know how irrational we can become in that moment. So I thought, why not try an accountability partnership?

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A daily voice call of just 5..10 minutes would be enough for me. Preferably, I'd like someone from India who is on the same path and genuinely wants to improve.

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I'm not disappointed in myself. In fact, I'm quite relaxed about the process because I know I'm making progress. I've had streaks of 14 days, 21 days, 25 days, 2 weeks, 1 week, 4 days, and 5 days. Slowly but surely, I'm improving, and I'm genuinely happy that this is no longer an everyday habit for me.

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Now, this amateur but disciplined man could use an accountability partner. If anyone is interested in joining this journey together, please hit me up.

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Let's help each other become a little better every day.

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Jai Bajarangbali!

Edit : All the people who dmed, seem very dishonest. They just disappear in the one text. Please don't DM if you are not serious regarding this thing.

Hello, I'm looking for book recommendations on terrorism and counter-terrorism in easy-to-read English.

After following Indian media and terrorism updates in our region for over a decade, and watching hundreds of documentaries on terror attacks, I've become very curious. I want to understand:

- How attacks start and are planned

- Religious and ideological motivations

- Counter-reactions from the opposite side

- Political impact on our lives

- How people perceive the world differently

- Spy world, Intellingence agencies

I specifically want to understand events like 26/11, 9/11, Akshardham attack, 1993 bombings, Parliament attack, Dawood Ibrahim, and the Hindu-Muslim ideological battle (a small minority from both communities fighting).

In short, I need books on terrorism and counter-terrorism that explain how it all works.

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Hello everyone. I'm a guy in my mid 20s , from India.

I got familiar with Nietzsche during my college days. Since then I have watched plenty of YouTube lectures on him — by Dr. Peterson. Then , Dr. Michael Sugrue, a channel called The Stoic Philosopher, The Quest, Prof Gregory Saddler, a Pakistani YouTuber named Ali Hassan, and many other channels. I have also read a few chapters of Thus Spoke Zarathustra and finished Beyond Good and Evil. I have been stuck with Nietzsche for two to three years now.

Knowing him even at a surface level — through dozens of lectures on his works — genuinely improved my life. If I have not fallen into depression or done anything drastic, a large part of that credit goes to Nietzsche. He kept fueling my thoughts and my drive.

Now I want to read his complete works from an authentic source. I have tried searching online but the options I found had questionable reviews, and I am not confident about their authenticity.

My main concerns are:

- No misinterpretations or bad translations

- I want Nietzsche's raw, original thoughts

- I want to start from the very beginning — from his early days as a fan of Wagner, his writing on David Strauss, and follow his intellectual journey from there

No matter how long it takes, I want to go through his complete works in order.

I would appreciate suggestions for the most authentic source available. Physical books are fine too — I will buy them eventually — but for now I am looking for something online, like a Google Drive link or a reliable website. Authenticity is my only concern.

Also, if you are from India or can communicate in English, Hindi, or Gujarati, and are looking for someone to discuss Nietzsche — his thoughts, his ideas, his philosophy, and what you personally feel about them — you are most welcome to reach out as well.

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I have seen many people say that accountability and such things are very much overrated. Someone once said that if you are driven enough and passionate enough about your work, you don't need an accountability partner. But I think everyone has their own perspective. If this works for me, then that's perfectly fine.

***Here are my reasons for looking for an accountability partner:***

1. I don't have many friends, and due to various situations, I have isolated myself — partly for reasons, partly for no reason at all.

2. I don't go out. My only two activities in a day are completing my work hours and studying for an indefinite period.

3. My mental health was always fine, but it has been getting tough to show up on every front — family, society, study, and workplace — all at once.

4. I'm not looking for a tutor. I just want someone friendly who is on their own path and can understand mine. It is a well-proven fact that you become like the people you surround yourself with. That's the kind of person I'm looking for.

# Brief introduction:

I am a 25-year-old guy from Gujarat, preparing for state PCS. That doesn't mean you have to be in the same field — you could be someone working on fitness or anything else entirely. I read a lot of books, love running, watch documentaries, and consume a lot of intellectual content. For more, feel free to ask.

# My goals/Reasons for this accountability partnership:

1. I want to restart my routine — specifically, getting back to days that begin with a 5 km run.

2. Preparing for my exam requires a lot of patience, and I feel alone in that journey.

3. I need someone to talk to and share my thoughts with — but that doesn't mean I'm selfish. Whatever you bring to the table, I will show up on the same level.

4. I want to eliminate social media addiction for good. I have overcome it before, but I keep coming back. I don't want to fall into that trap again — mindlessly reading posts on Instagram, scrolling for no reason, and wasting time on things that add no value.

# The method:

Simple — a daily voice call where we update each other about our days. We just need to be friendly and genuinely wish well for each other. If you're not comfortable with voice calls initially, we can start with text and take it from there.

If our interests align, that's a bonus. I hope this makes sense. Feel free to reach out.

If you are reaching out, make sure you introduce yourself and share your thoughts on how we resonate — what in this post connected with you and why you think we would be a good fit for each other.

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I have seen many people say that accountability and such things are very much overrated. Someone once said that if you are driven enough and passionate enough about your work, you don't need an accountability partner. But I think everyone has their own perspective. If this works for me, then that's perfectly fine.

Here are my reasons for looking for an accountability partner:

1. I don't have many friends, and due to various situations, I have isolated myself — partly for reasons, partly for no reason at all.

2. I don't go out. My only two activities in a day are completing my work hours and studying for an indefinite period.

3. My mental health was always fine, but it has been getting tough to show up on every front — family, society, study, and workplace — all at once.

4. I'm not looking for a tutor. I just want someone friendly who is on their own path and can understand mine. It is a well-proven fact that you become like the people you surround yourself with. That's the kind of person I'm looking for.

Brief introduction:

I am a 25-year-old guy from Gujarat, preparing for state PCS. That doesn't mean you have to be in the same field — you could be someone working on fitness or anything else entirely. I read a lot of books, love running, watch documentaries, and consume a lot of intellectual content. For more, feel free to ask.

My goals/Reasons for this accountability partnership:

1. I want to restart my routine — specifically, getting back to days that begin with a 5 km run.

2. Preparing for my exam requires a lot of patience, and I feel alone in that journey.

3. I need someone to talk to and share my thoughts with — but that doesn't mean I'm selfish. Whatever you bring to the table, I will show up on the same level.

4. I want to eliminate social media addiction for good. I have overcome it before, but I keep coming back. I don't want to fall into that trap again — mindlessly reading posts on Instagram, scrolling for no reason, and wasting time on things that add no value.

The method:

Simple — a daily voice call where we update each other about our days. We just need to be friendly and genuinely wish well for each other. If you're not comfortable with voice calls initially, we can start with text and take it from there.

If our interests align, that's a bonus. I hope this makes sense. Feel free to reach out.

If you are reaching out, make sure you introduce yourself and share your thoughts on how we resonate — what in this post connected with you and why you think we would be a good fit for each other.

I am 25 years old, a civil engineering graduate, and I have been preparing for the GPSC Civil Engineering examination for the last 1.5 years. I have also cleared one prelim and appearing for an interview, but honestly, I am not satisfied with where my preparation stands.

I study for good hours every day, but revision, mock tests, and consistency — none of it feels on track. A big reason is the constant disturbance at home, which breaks my focus again and again. And the most painful part is that I have no one around me who is on the same journey. No study partner, no one to discuss topics with, no one who understands the pressure of this path. It has just been me, four walls, a mobile screen, and an online subscription — for one and a half years straight.

I feel I need a drastic change now. And that change, I think, is moving to Gandhinagar for preparation.

But this decision is not simple. If I go to Gandhinagar, I have to leave my current job, sacrifice income, and stay away from my family — and all of this will affect everyone at home, not just me. That is why I keep going back and forth and cannot make up my mind.

My question to anyone who has gone through this — \\\*\\\*Is it actually worth moving to Gandhinagar for GPSC preparation?\\\*\\\* What genuinely changes when you are there compared to preparing from your hometown or village? I understand the environment and peer circle are better — but is the change really that drastic and significant? If you have experienced both sides, please share your honest experience. It will mean a lot.

હું 25 વર્ષનો છું, સિવિલ એન્જિનિયરિંગ ગ્રેજ્યુએટ છું, અને છેલ્લા દોઢ વર્ષથી GPSC સિવિલ એન્જિનિયરિંગ પરીક્ષાની તૈયારી કરી રહ્યો છું. એક ઇન્ટરવ્યૂ પણ પાસ કર્યો છે — પણ સાચું કહું તો, મારી તૈયારીથી હું જાતે સંતુષ્ટ નથી.

દરરોજ સારા કલાકો ભણું છું, પણ revision, mock tests અને consistency — કશું જ ઠેકાણે નથી. સૌથી મોટું કારણ છે ઘરનું disturbance, જે વારંવાર focus તોડી નાખે છે. અને સૌથી દુઃખ જે વાતનું છે — એ એ છે કે મારી આસપાસ કોઈ એવું નથી જે આ જ રસ્તા પર ચાલી રહ્યું હોય. કોઈ study partner નહીં, topics discuss કરવા કોઈ નહીં, આ journey નો pressure સમજે એવું કોઈ નહીં. બસ હું, ચાર દીવાલ, એક mobile screen, અને online subscription — દોઢ વર્ષ સુધી આ જ.

હવે મને લાગે છે કે એક drastic change જોઈએ. અને એ change છે — ગાંધીનગર shift થઈ જવું.

પણ આ decision એટલું સરળ નથી. ગાંધીનગર જઉં તો નોકરી છોડવી પડે, income sacrifice કરવી પડે, અને પરિવારથી દૂર રહેવું પડે — અને આ બધું ઘરના દરેક સભ્યને અસર કરે. એ જ કારણે મન ઠરતું નથી, વારંવાર વિચારો ફરી આવે છે.

જે કોઈ આ રસ્તે ગયા હોય, તેમને મારો સવાલ છે — \\\*\\\*શું GPSC ની તૈયારી માટે ગાંધીનગર જવું ખરેખર worth it છે?\\\*\\\* ઘર કે ગામ છોડીને ત્યાં જવાથી શું ખરેખર drastic change આવે છે? environment અને peer circle સારું હોય એ તો સમજ્યો — પણ શું ફરક ખરેખર એટલો significant છે? જો કોઈએ બન્ને side experience કર્યું હોય, તો honest feedback જરૂર share કરો. ખૂબ ઉપકાર થશે.

I am 25 years old, a civil engineering graduate, and I have been preparing for the GPSC Civil Engineering examination for the last 1.5 years. I have also cleared one prelim and appearing for an interview, but honestly, I am not satisfied with where my preparation stands.

I study for good hours every day, but revision, mock tests, and consistency — none of it feels on track. A big reason is the constant disturbance at home, which breaks my focus again and again. And the most painful part is that I have no one around me who is on the same journey. No study partner, no one to discuss topics with, no one who understands the pressure of this path. It has just been me, four walls, a mobile screen, and an online subscription — for one and a half years straight.

I feel I need a drastic change now. And that change, I think, is moving to Gandhinagar for preparation.

But this decision is not simple. If I go to Gandhinagar, I have to leave my current job, sacrifice income, and stay away from my family — and all of this will affect everyone at home, not just me. That is why I keep going back and forth and cannot make up my mind.

My question to anyone who has gone through this — **Is it actually worth moving to Gandhinagar for GPSC preparation?** What genuinely changes when you are there compared to preparing from your hometown or village? I understand the environment and peer circle are better — but is the change really that drastic and significant? If you have experienced both sides, please share your honest experience. It will mean a lot.

હું 25 વર્ષનો છું, સિવિલ એન્જિનિયરિંગ ગ્રેજ્યુએટ છું, અને છેલ્લા દોઢ વર્ષથી GPSC સિવિલ એન્જિનિયરિંગ પરીક્ષાની તૈયારી કરી રહ્યો છું. એક ઇન્ટરવ્યૂ પણ પાસ કર્યો છે — પણ સાચું કહું તો, મારી તૈયારીથી હું જાતે સંતુષ્ટ નથી.

દરરોજ સારા કલાકો ભણું છું, પણ revision, mock tests અને consistency — કશું જ ઠેકાણે નથી. સૌથી મોટું કારણ છે ઘરનું disturbance, જે વારંવાર focus તોડી નાખે છે. અને સૌથી દુઃખ જે વાતનું છે — એ એ છે કે મારી આસપાસ કોઈ એવું નથી જે આ જ રસ્તા પર ચાલી રહ્યું હોય. કોઈ study partner નહીં, topics discuss કરવા કોઈ નહીં, આ journey નો pressure સમજે એવું કોઈ નહીં. બસ હું, ચાર દીવાલ, એક mobile screen, અને online subscription — દોઢ વર્ષ સુધી આ જ.

હવે મને લાગે છે કે એક drastic change જોઈએ. અને એ change છે — ગાંધીનગર shift થઈ જવું.

પણ આ decision એટલું સરળ નથી. ગાંધીનગર જઉં તો નોકરી છોડવી પડે, income sacrifice કરવી પડે, અને પરિવારથી દૂર રહેવું પડે — અને આ બધું ઘરના દરેક સભ્યને અસર કરે. એ જ કારણે મન ઠરતું નથી, વારંવાર વિચારો ફરી આવે છે.

જે કોઈ આ રસ્તે ગયા હોય, તેમને મારો સવાલ છે — **શું GPSC ની તૈયારી માટે ગાંધીનગર જવું ખરેખર worth it છે?** ઘર કે ગામ છોડીને ત્યાં જવાથી શું ખરેખર drastic change આવે છે? environment અને peer circle સારું હોય એ તો સમજ્યો — પણ શું ફરક ખરેખર એટલો significant છે? જો કોઈએ બન્ને side experience કર્યું હોય, તો honest feedback જરૂર share કરો. ખૂબ ઉપકાર થશે.

Hey everyone,

I have my GPSC exam on 10th May and I'll be arriving by bus at Geetamandir GSRTC bus stand. I'm not looking for a full room or an overnight stay.. just a small accommodation where I can freshen up and get myself ready for about 30 minutes before the exam.

If anyone knows of a Cheaper(Budget is tightttt) dormitory, PG, or a small lodge in that area that is open to something like this, it would be a great help.

Also, if anyone has been in a similar situation before and found a good solution, please do share. Any guidance would be sincerely appreciated.

Also, let me know what the best option is from Geeta mandir GSRTC bus stand to Chandkheda. Do I have to take Rapido only, or AMTS options also available? Sorry if I sound unfamiliar with the local transport in Ahmedabad.(I really am.)