u/Prasadhegde

18 yo from India here doing Btech in CSE

At first I thought I will get into Competitive programming but miserably failed

Then started ML sci-kit learn and Math got me

Now started Devops but it also making me go crazy

I want something in which I can even do a master thesis

Also what certificates will help me in Cybersecurity field ...

Please help asap feeling like a burnout failure.

18 yo from India here doing Btech in CSE

At first I thought I will get into Competitive programming but miserably failed

Then started ML sci-kit learn and Math got me

Now started Devops but it also making me go crazy

I want something in which I can even do a master thesis

18 M from India here doing Btech in CSE

At first I thought I will get into Competitive programming but miserably failed

Then started ML sci-kit learn and Math got me

Now started Devops but it also making me go crazy

I want something in which I can even do a master thesis

At first I thought I will get into Competitive programming but miserably failed

Then started ML sci-kit learn and Math got me

Now started Devops but it also making me go crazy

I want something in which I can even do a master thesis

Thanks

I am doing Btech CSE from tier 3 college currently in first year and I am 18.

So from childhood I had very big interest in Animals, Geography, History but guess what after 10th (96%) .I went to a hostel for 11th and 12th simply why ? Because father and sister wanted me to get good marks and get into a very good engineering college. But I couldn't stay in hostel so returned back to my hometown and studied in a private PU college there and got 86.4% ..... And got admission in Btech through management in a tier 3 college

I wish I had stood up that day and took up what I actually loved history and geography. But no I didn't now I am crying to myself daily and regretting this fuck ass life . Tried competitive programming, machine learning, devops nothing is working, my life is just falling apart.

I don't have any identity of my own and I am influenced by other's decision fuck ts mera mood off

And worst off all its affecting my mental health i am not in the mood to go anywhere, have social interactions etc

I am 18 and iam in first year of compsci engineering but I am side by side also preparing for my masters (ie trynna learn German) and learning linux commands, docker basics , basic networking and stuff.. what else should I learn I know basic python fundamentals

I tried to get into competitive programming but miserably failed, tried machine learning but 💀💔🙏🏿 math got me

Okay don't judge me for my behaviour...

I don't know what to do in life

I am a Computer Science and Engineering student from India , currently in my 1st year and I am 18 years old.

Like every other kid life was good till 10th got 96% I was happy fat childish... But after 11 and 12th everything changed. Idk why like I got 86% in 12th entrance exams didn't go well and got into a tier 3 engineering college through management seat...

During 1st semester i was like yeah life will go better until I dunno why I started kinda becoming a loner I would say. Failed my math exam but got back and got 7.8 gpa in mid terms , started hitting gym and because of the pain i tried to enter into competitive programming but I miserably failed.

Then I got into Machine learning but failed again...

Recently I started doing DevOps and cloud okay I got linux basics and Docker but I didn't get to know about developing containers...

Leave it you gotta kill yourself and your interests if you are born here

I feel like I might end up being a failure in the eyes of the society and the modern world...

Due to all of this frustration i stopped socializing with people... I shouted at my parents as I became too much materialistic, i became jealous of people who had better looks, Personality, social skills, money, phone , motorcycle, girlfriend, Friends group, marks and what not.... Now I have started to realise in the end it's just me by myself... I feel bad for my parents as I have become extremely hostile towards themselves... Idk man i just want to become a polymath, move to germany to pursue my ms but these emotional shifts, mood swings are getting bad.

I am 18 and iam in first year of compsci engineering but I am preparing for my masters and learning linux commands, docker basics , basic networking and stuff.. what else should I learn I know basic python fundamentals

Okay don't judge me for my behaviour...

I don't know what to do in life

I am a Computer Science and Engineering student from India , currently in my 1st year and I am 18 years old.

Like every other kid life was good till 10th got 96% I was happy fat childish... But after 11 and 12th everything changed. Idk why like I got 86% in 12th entrance exams didn't go well and got into a tier 3 engineering college through management seat...

During 1st semester i was like yeah life will go better until I liked that girl ... She didn't give a f about me after that I dunno why I started kinda becoming a loner I would say. Failed my math exam but got back and got 7.8 gpa in mid terms , started hitting gym and because of the pain i tried to enter into competitive programming but I miserably failed.

Then I got into Machine learning but failed again...

Recently I started doing DevOps and cloud okay I got linux basics and Docker but I didn't get to know about developing containers...

Leave it you gotta kill yourself and your interests if you are born here

I feel like I might end up being a failure in the eyes of the society and the modern world...

Due to all of this frustration i stopped socializing with people... I shouted at my parents as I became too much materialistic, i became jealous of people who had better looks, Personality, social skills, money, phone , motorcycle, girlfriend, Friends group, marks and what not.... Now I have started to realise in the end it's just me by myself... I feel bad for my parents as I have become extremely hostile towards themselves... Idk man i just want to become a polymath, move to germany to pursue my ms but these emotional shifts, mood swings are getting bad.

Okay don't judge me for my behaviour...

I don't know what to do in life

I am a Computer Science and Engineering student from India , currently in my 1st year and I am 18 years old.

Like every other kid life was good till 10th got 96% I was happy fat childish... But after 11 and 12th everything changed. Idk why like I got 86% in 12th entrance exams didn't go well and got into a tier 3 engineering college through management seat...

During 1st semester i was like yeah life will go better until I liked that girl ... She didn't give a f about me after that I dunno why I started kinda becoming a loner I would say. Failed my math exam but got back and got 7.8 gpa in mid terms , started hitting gym and because of the pain i tried to enter into competitive programming but I miserably failed.

Then I got into Machine learning but failed again...

Recently I started doing DevOps and cloud okay I got linux basics and Docker but I didn't get to know about developing containers...

Leave it you gotta kill yourself and your interests if you are born here

I feel like I might end up being a failure in the eyes of the society and the modern world...

Due to all of this frustration i stopped socializing with people... I shouted at my parents as I became too much materialistic, i became jealous of people who had better looks, Personality, social skills, money, phone , motorcycle, girlfriend, Friends group, marks and what not.... Now I have started to realise in the end it's just me by myself... I feel bad for my parents as I have become extremely hostile towards themselves... Idk man i just want to become a polymath, move to germany to pursue my ms but these emotional shifts, mood swings are getting bad.

I am a 18 year boy who is studying computer science and engineering iam still in first year .. note that I am from India. I was extremely passionate about geography and history but well Indian parents don't see anything but engineering.. so I got admitted into a engineering college. At the start I was like I will do this that etc .. tried to get into competitive programing but I always came last as I was not able to understand problem set.... I was like leave it and started Machine learning but I am very bad at math and ML burnt me out... I was like leave it ill do Devops .... Linux commands I got to know yeah it's memorable but Docker I am not getting anything especially the development part.... My heart still aches for geography... So I researched and got to know about GIS and Geospatial Engineering but I don't have confidence that I will do something in this also ! I want to do masters and move abroad but at this point all of this feels impossible and I am just betraying myself that life will get better one day !

I feel like my life is falling apart and I got no one to tell it to......

I am a 18 year boy who is studying computer science and engineering iam still in first year .. note that I am from India. I was extremely passionate about geography and history but well Indian parents don't see anything but engineering.. so I got admitted into a engineering college. At the start I was like I will do this that etc .. tried to get into competitive programing but I always came last as I was not able to understand problem set.... I was like leave it and started Machine learning but I am very bad at math and ML burnt me out... I was like leave it ill do Devops .... Linux commands I got to know yeah it's memorable but Docker I am not getting anything especially the development part.... My heart still aches for geography... So I researched and got to know about GIS and Geospatial Engineering but I don't have confidence that I will do something in this also ! I want to do masters and move abroad but at this point all of this feels impossible and I am just betraying myself that life will get better one day !

I am a 18 year boy who is studying computer science and engineering iam still in first year .. note that I am from India. I was extremely passionate about geography and history but well Indian parents don't see anything but engineering.. so I got admitted into a engineering college. At the start I was like I will do this that etc .. tried to get into competitive programing but I always came last as I was not able to understand problem set.... I was like leave it and started Machine learning but I am very bad at math and ML burnt me out... I was like leave it ill do Devops .... Linux commands I got to know yeah it's memorable but Docker I am not getting anything especially the development part.... My heart still aches for geography... So I researched and got to know about GIS and Geospatial Engineering but I don't have confidence that I will do something in this also ! I want to do masters and move abroad but at this point all of this feels impossible and I am just betraying myself that life will get better one day !

I mean I get it and don't get it at the same time

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I am pursuing BTech In Computer Science and Engineering but my passion has always been geography and computers, can I get into GIS without any geography courses ? Like I have plan for masters too .. idk confused

Umm Lemme say it straight I am not interested in partying nor going out in groups , I just like history, books, geography and animals ashte

I have come to a realisation that I can't fit in this generation I don't know why no matter what I do I can't fit in . I am not like other boys of my age who are in their late teens who like to party, go for bike rides, play competitive games. Same goes for my music taste no matter how much I try I can't listen to Drake, Carti etc wtc my heart always aches for The Queen, Oasis, frank sinatra, elvis Presley and much more. I am not very outgoing or person who speaks alot I just want be in my safe space and more of a reserved person. Also I am not interested in bad-ass things like others I just like cute animals, geography and books . But it's getting hard to cope up with life what to do ?