u/Prestigious-Cup-5456

Fuck, she is gorgeous. The beauty marks, the pretty eyes you can stare into all day long. She's charming, funny like a comedian and she's got that good brain. NO, no, no, I mean intelligence silly. You may find her on Reddit, out at the store, on the street, ata restaurant or some dive bar on retro row. All you know is that she is someone who you want to get to know.

So you do. The only problem is that youre taken and she isn't but she lives in a different state. the reality is that you just wanted to fuck her and leave.. But you fuck and fall for this girl and she loves you but there's something she needs to tell you. A LOT OF GUYS LIKEME. the reason is because well..... I post NSFW stuff on Reddit under a different username. You know, because that 's how you found her. You tell her not to worry about it. so she doesnt...

.......weeks go by and then one day you decided that you don't want to stay with her anymore. You break her heart. But you really don't care. she begs for you to stay but you don't want to because of the post she made. You are fucking disgusted with her apparently , and since she's trash you dispose of her and carry on with your life, smiling in pictures at events that you said you wanted her to be at. Serioulsy how fuking dumb can you be you dumb cumdumpster.... Can't you see , he doesn't want you, the reality is that youre old , used up and fucking ugly and begging for a man isn't very becoming of you ,why don't you just go away.????

"OK," so she does. But then tragedy strikes......

she's gone for good.

I've spent a long time thinking about what I would say if I ever had the chance to truly say goodbye. Even just typing this out I feel a giant lump in my throat because this is something that I know has to be done. The truth is that it’s time for me to acknowledge and accept that I’m never going to see you again. What we had will never happen again. It’s hard to imagine you with someone else because it destroys me, absolutely makes me sick , but we don’t always get our happy endings. What I do know is that you were an important chapter of my life, and no matter how our story ended, I can't erase the memories we created or the person I became because of them.

We shared moments that made me laugh, dream, and believe in a future together. We also experienced pain, misunderstandings, and unfortunate circumstances that neither of us could fully overcome. Looking back, I know we both made mistakes. I know I wasn't perfect, and I know you weren't either. It’s good to acknowledge that there were errors made on both sides and not just by one person.

Life has changed us. We've each walked different paths, faced different challenges, and become different people than we were when we first met. I used to wonder what could have been if things had happened differently. I remind myself of our conversations, imagined different endings, and searched for answers that I was never going to get. Over time, I've realized that some questions simply don't have answers, and that's okay.

But looking forward its never more clearer to me but my priorities are different. My children are my entire world, and they deserve my full attention, love, and energy. Because of that, I have made the decision that I will no longer be pursuing or entertaining romantic relationships. Dating is no longer a part of the future I envision for myself. My focus is on being the best mother I can be and creating a stable, peaceful, and loving life for my children.

I want you to know that this goodbye doesn't come from anger or resentment(maybe a smidge) . It comes from acceptance. I am choosing to let go of the past so I can fully embrace the life that is in front of me. I sincerely hope you find happiness, peace, and fulfillment in your own adventure. Derick, you deserve a life filled with love and purpose, just as I hope to build one centered around my family. How am I ever going to forget that sweet face ?:(

Thank you for the memories we shared and for allowing me to feel what it means to be loved and seen. I will never  ever forget you, for as long as I live. *****I’m crying really hard right now***** sorry. It’s painful envisioning not seeing you or not having you around to watch the twins grow up and see who they turn out to be. All in all, all of our  experiences shaped me into the woman and mother I am today. I will always appreciate the good we had, but it is time that I move on.This isn't goodbye because I’m upset with you or even because of resentment. It's goodbye because I've accepted that our paths were meant to separate and that’s okay

Take care of yourself, Derick.  May god bless you  and may he be with you on all your future endeavors. I'll always miss you, I love you.

Goodbye Goosey

 

 

I'm starting to suspect that i'm getting fucked with on here. ( To all you people that use reddit to do shit like this, go get a better hobby, quit being a weird neckbeard/guy/girl virgin and get out of your parents basement) The reality of this is that If he really wanted to speak to me, he would've reached out by now. so, I'm out of here. Bye Derick, if you ever come across this post , I want you to know that really did love you. May god bless you with a great life. Take care.

You ruined me Pete

Knowing you have twins that

1. You don't care to acknowledge, nor see.

2. Let me say it again for the people in the back:That you literally don't give a F*** to see or even are to ask about them.

3. You don't even provide any type of help for them. ( Don't worry my lawyer is working on it)

4. You moved ALLLLLLLLL the way to the other side of the country to get away from and me and my kids because you're embarrassed and your'e too consumed with what other people will think of you. *****Word of advice, maybe don't lie and maybe keep your johnson in your damn pants.

5. If you ever hurt my children by trying to walk back into their lives and then discard them like they're trash, I will take you and your wife ( because she continues to allow you to behave this way. So, to me , she's equally at fault) for every thing that you've got.

P.S.

I know that you're LE but you not going to get away with this. For 3 damn years, you my brother and his fat wife and T have tried to railroad me and make false accusations to ruin my life. Well the reality of it is ,that you guys partially did, tbh but fortunately your time of reckoning is upon you and let me tell you you lying POS You all are in for a rude awakening.

I hate you MF's.

I really thought you were different. Because for once in my life I finally had felt seen, heard even, and truly loved by a man.I really believed that I was special to you. However, the reality of it is that I always wished to be special but unfortunately, I gave all my special, and I gave it away to a loser. Look at me now, I'm a loser even though I used to be special but you really made me hate me. Now, my only regret is that unconsciously I changed me and I made me , JUST. LIKE.YOU.......... a loser.

ND

I'M FINALLY FREE OF HIM, I JUST GOT THE BIGGEST "ICK" FEELING IN REGARDS TO MY EX... I AM NEVER LOOKING BACK. YOU CAN KEEP YOUR DUSTY ASS RELATIONSHIP WITH HER. I'M WAY TOO PRETTY AND RAD TO BE WITH A BUM LIKE YOU. I'LL BE IN SD NEXT WEEK, LET YOUR WIFE KNOW IF SHE WANTS TO HAVE A CHAT WITH ME. BTW, YOURE AN AWFUL DEVILDOG. YOU DON'T EVEN RATE TO BE A MARINE . BUT DON'T WORRY, I'LL STILL BE YOUR HERO , BOOT. RAH!!!

TL;DR: I was in a 6-month long distance relationship with a man who told me he was single but later admitted he was only legally separated. Despite the short relationship, it was the deepest love I've ever felt. We met each other's families, talked about marriage, he called me the love of his life, and even got my finger sized for an engagement ring.

Things started falling apart after his ex found out about me through their daughter. I was harassed by his ex and her family, and he ended up staying at his ex's house before leaving for training. I felt abandoned, broke things off out of hurt, then immediately regretted it, but he refused to reconcile. After I posted a photo of myself to regain confidence following breast cancer and being rejected, he took it as me moving on. Since then he's become cold, distant, and has mostly ghosted me, despite once being incredibly loving and affectionate.

I'm still struggling to understand what changed so dramatically on his end and why someone who talked about forever could walk away so completely.

We weren't dating for very long (6 months) but it was the most intense love i have honestly I have ever felt in my life. I've been married before and I have dated plenty of guys that I believed I was in love with but nothing compares to the immense feelings of love of that I felt for him. when I first met him I asked him if he was single, he said yes. I didn't even question it. Eventually, he would later tell me that he was "legally separated." At the time they weren't living with one another, however he was in contact with his ex because he share's two daughters with her. So, like everyone in the world, we all have our fair share of issues. I made it a point to be understanding and not judge, nor let his past ruin what could be a beautiful relationship. We said that we loved each other fairly fast ,I said it first and he reciprocated.

Here is where It takes a turn. One day I get a message from some unknown person about him on my IG. Let me preface with this: \\ I used to post NSFW stuff on reddit and I would get a lot of guys wanting to "date"me. It got to the point that they would go as far as stalk my social media. This person who claimed to work with him , wanted to inform me about him by claiming that he was a POS , and questioned what it was that I saw in him...blah,blah blah. So, I questioned him and he eventually came forward and told me everything.I blocked the guy and gave my bf the benefit of the doubt. I never heard from that person again. Another incident occurred when he was getting a promotion at his job, he had been drinking and we were texting each other and it got a little spicy and I expressed a fantasy of mine and he flipped his lid. He broke up with me over it, like literally to the point where he called me a bitch. We eventually resolved the issue and he took me back .

During our relationship we met eachothers families. He met my children, but I did not meet his because he and his mom felt that it would be better when he had finalized his divorce. My parent's loved him, he even introduced himself to my dad and his friend's as his "future son-in-law." My little boy adored him and to this day will ask me where he is. I have a dard time with that tbh. Around Christmas time I went to visit him in his home state .This is where it really turned to shit. His daughter was with him, I was at our Airbnb and she happened to be on the phone with his ex and well I called. She saw what I was labeled under in his contacts, which was, "my love" and she told her mother.I endd up getting very angry texts from her and some of her family member's threatening me. It was all bad.

Back in November his lease to his apartment was up. He wasn't renewing it because he was going to be in Quantico, Va for a few months. He explained to me when he was over for Thanksgiving that we would be sleeping on the couch at a friends house before he left for Quantico. That friend was at his exes house. It annoyed me but I did my best to look past it. When i got back to my state things were off. He couldn't text me from his number and i felt really kind of abandoned. He did his best ot reasssure me that when he got back everything would be take care of. I ended up breaking things off because i ws upset about him not telling me that he was staying his ex . I had a change of heart but he didnt want to take me back.

I felt very abandoned and i ended up posting a picture of myself. It bothered him he said someone messaged him telling him about it and i pissed him and he said it was like i was already trying to find someone brand new. I'm very self- conscious of myself these days because I had breast cancer and i have scars and as a result I lost a nipple. I was trying to feel confident after getting rejected. Since then he went no contact with me, i even had some pretend to be him that crushed me. One day i got a hold of him asking him to talk he gave me like 30 minutes but he was very dismissive and cold to me. Keep in mind that he was very affectionate with me, said I was the love of his life, wrote me very thoughtful letters. He wanted to marry me even. My last day in his home state we went and got my finger sized for an engagement ring. Its weird because when he dropped me off at the airport, I didn't want to let go because i new I wouldn't see him again. i've spoken to him 3 other times, becuase he was going through some stuff. But when i needed him he didn't even speak to me. another time he was drunk and I poured my heart out to him only to be left with, "baby girl its over plus the distance , it just wont' work .W e were a LDR to begine with.

So there it is. I just want some insight into what you think happened on his end with me. NGL, I still message him because i love him still but he has essentially ghosted me.

thanks.

How can you not acknowledge anything you've done?? I know i fucked up and i've expressed that to you. But for me, don't even get a sincere apology.

Im still heartbroken because i never felt heard by you.... I felt like you dismissed me and i never got a genuine apology..

I have nothing else to give

WHY DIDN'T YOU FUCKING FIGHT FOR US???? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?? YOU ALWAYS TOLD ME THAT I WAS THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE, BUT THEN SO QUICKLY DROPPED ME. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?

I wish we could've been a family like we wanted. Fuck, I'm so sorry. I suck.

My parents are the embodiment of what, "Old school " love is about. They met in high school and as the story goes, my mom and dad were at a party and my dad saw my mom , across the way , tucking her hair behind her ear. My dad immediately, smitten and with love turned to his friends and said, " I'm going to marry that girl one day!" At the ripe age of 21 , my mother gave birth to my oldest brother. The following year in 1978, she had the second oldest of the bunch, and in June of '86, I was born. Finally, 9 years later ,they had my youngest sister.

My parents have been
together for a grand total of 49 years!!!!!! They are high school sweethearts.
Where on earth and in this day and age do you hear about a couple staying
together for 49 years?????? Yea.... NEVER!!! But they have. But that doesn't
mean it hasn't come with its fair share of trials and tribulations ,that couples
around the world face. Ive witnessed some pretty nasty fights and I've had to
endure the heartbreak of hearing my mother's cries. But all in all, they stayed
TOGETHER BECAUSE THEY LOVED ONE ANOTHER.

That type of love is what
I refer to as, "Old-school" love. They were your typical nuclear
family of the time .She came home and made homemade dinner EVERY NIGHT!! She's
would even make homemade tortillas. We would eat together, as a family and
would say grace. I’m not even kidding. I know. it probably seems outlandish,
but I swear to you, this is what we did growing up. This type of up bringing is
ingrained in me. It’s what I know. It's what I wanted for my children but,
that's just not in the cards for me.

Then I met You, and for
the first time in my life , I met my equal. My same, same. :)But we had out
issues., Our own individual issues. but you made me want to be a better person.
and I was trying, really actually trying for you. I wanted to give you that
exact experience my dad had from my mother. I wanted to cook and bake for you.
when you came home from work, I wanted to watch you pull in and as you walked
to the door I would run and jump into your arms, wrap my legs around your
waist; kiss you gently, yet deeply and then stroke your hair, while fondly
looking at you and tell you , "Derick I’m so glad you're home , I love you
so much."

I know that we would've
had our very own trials and tribulations but I wanted to be able to work on
them together. I wanted us to take the lessons of our problems and learn and
grown from them. So that we would never make the same mistake twice. Yes, It
would be a lot of hard work. It would force us to look deep within ourselves
and tackle the hard stuff. But in the end, it would all be worthwhile. You know
why? Because we both would’ve become better people. We always spoke about how
we wanted our children to know what true love looked like, our “little blended
family,” as we called it. But I guess you didn’t want it. Sooooooo, Just so you
know

That is what I could’ve offered you.

 

My parents are the embodiment of what, "Old school " love is about. They met in high school and as the story goes, my mom and dad were at a party and my dad saw my mom , across the way , tucking her hair behind her ear. My dad immediately, smitten and with love turned to his friends and said, " I'm going to marry that girl one day!" At the ripe age of 21 , my mother gave birth to my oldest brother. The following year in 1978, she had the second oldest of the bunch, and in June of '86, I was born. Finally, 9 years later ,they had my youngest sister.

My parents have been
together for a grand total of 49 years!!!!!! They are high school sweethearts.
Where on earth and in this day and age do you hear about a couple staying
together for 49 years?????? Yea.... NEVER!!! But they have. But that doesn't
mean it hasn't come with its fair share of trials and tribulations ,that couples
around the world face. Ive witnessed some pretty nasty fights and I've had to
endure the heartbreak of hearing my mother's cries. But all in all, they stayed
TOGETHER BECAUSE THEY LOVED ONE ANOTHER.

That type of love is what
I refer to as, "Old-school" love. They were your typical nuclear
family of the time .She came home and made homemade dinner EVERY NIGHT!! She's
would even make homemade tortillas. We would eat together, as a family and
would say grace. I’m not even kidding. I know. it probably seems outlandish,
but I swear to you, this is what we did growing up. This type of up bringing is
ingrained in me. It’s what I know. It's what I wanted for my children but,
that's just not in the cards for me.

Then I met You, and for
the first time in my life , I met my equal. My same, same. :)But we had out
issues., Our own individual issues. but you made me want to be a better person.
and I was trying, really actually trying for you. I wanted to give you that
exact experience my dad had from my mother. I wanted to cook and bake for you.
when you came home from work, I wanted to watch you pull in and as you walked
to the door I would run and jump into your arms, wrap my legs around your
waist; kiss you gently, yet deeply and then stroke your hair, while fondly
looking at you and tell you , "Derick I’m so glad you're home , I love you
so much."

I know that we would've
had our very own trials and tribulations but I wanted to be able to work on
them together. I wanted us to take the lessons of our problems and learn and
grown from them. So that we would never make the same mistake twice. Yes, It
would be a lot of hard work. It would force us to look deep within ourselves
and tackle the hard stuff. But in the end, it would all be worthwhile. You know
why? Because we both would’ve become better people. We always spoke about how
we wanted our children to know what true love looked like, our “little blended
family,” as we called it. But I guess you didn’t want it. Sooooooo, Just so you
know

That is what I could’ve offered you.

 

I wish i never allowed you to be apart of my little inner circle. I should've never introduced you to my parents. I kick myself for even allowing you to be apart of the twins lives in the short amount of time that you were present. I regret us, I regret ever giving you a part of me that i will never be able to get back .I do not wish you, well. I do not like you because you broke my heart and made me look like a fucking joke.

good bye DG

P.S. Do me a favor and forget I ever existed.

-NE

I'm still very much in love with him but it's time for me to move on, you told me you were not interested in getting back together with me. Clearly, you've been over me for a minute now. I mean, last month when I briefly spoke to you; you told me in these exact words, "Baby girl, it's over, we're done. " That is the remaining memory that I now have of you. I'm still deeply hurt, because we were very serious, and tyet I still feel like I was never given an opportunity to give my side of what happened. You just threw me away like trash. II guess that's all I am, trash. I guess i'll just spread my love around from now on.

It was never supposed to be this way!!! FUCKKKKKKKI thought I was the love of your life, how can someone say they love you so much and then just toss you and act like you never existed ?? It's so heartless. Well, baby boy I can be heartless too.

But you don't know the real me. You only see my outside appearance. The girl with the shy eyes, who steals a glance at you; who quickly looks away by averting her eyes as she blushes .You love that! Oh, and she has these moles that you adore. She's beautiful in the sense that not only is she gorgeous but she's smart, she's got a head on her shoulders. In fact, she's a real go- getter.AND SHE'S EVEN FUNNY!!!! She' believe's she should do stand-up comedy, that's how funny she think she is. Growing up she admired, and looked up to her dad and wanted to become one of the few and the proud like him.. So she did. She earned the title.

Then she found YOU. You're one of them too. She thought that you were going to be her forever. You sold a great story, not only to her. But yourself, even her mom and her dad. You got her to believe that finally, after all the frogs that she planted those beautiful lips on, she finally got her prince. Sadly, the prince........ Well, lets just say........

Nothing.... He's gone. ........

Because he broke that beautiful girl like the many boys that have done before him; down into nothing, Because that's all I am, right .. nothing.

She shows her body and acts sexy in hopes that she finds another guy to , " make her happy" when she knows damn well no guy really wants her. Because who really wants a woman who used to beautiful, and smart, who used to be one of the few and the proud.

NOBODY!!!!

You All like the novelty of me, you like how I shower you with attention and make you feel loved. But as soon as get what you need from me, POOF. You're gone. Back to your life, leaving me to pick up the pieces of what was never to be. and so I cry and beg for you to stay . But baby girl its over, it would never work out because of the distance.... And so you move on to the next girl..... while i'm left broken and a mess. But it's cool I get it, i'll shove my emotions down until one day.....

I feel like ending it all because i'm worhthless and on one wants me. I must be a real piece of shit if at my age I can't keep a fucking man. Or maybe, i'm just left with the burden of my dad's own misdeeds as a young man. and you know what, I truly believe that. I'm left to live with the sadness and loneliness of never knowing a true love.

But why? Why do I have to pay, I just wanted somenone to love me for me.

But you don't know the real me. You only see my outside appearance. The girl with the shy eyes, who steals a glance at you; who quickly looks away by averting her eyes as she blushes .You love that! Oh, and she has these moles that you adore. She's beautiful in the sense that not only is she gorgeous but she's smart, she's got a head on her shoulders. In fact, she's a real go- getter.AND SHE'S EVEN FUNNY!!!! She' believe's she should do stand-up comedy, that's how funny she think she is. Growing up she admired, and looked up to her dad and wanted to become one of the few and the proud like him.. So she did. She earned the title.

Then she found YOU. You're one of them too. She thought that you were going to be her forever. You sold a great story, not only to her. But yourself, even her mom and her dad. You got her to believe that finally, after all the frogs that she planted those beautiful lips on, she finally got her prince. Sadly, the prince........ Well, lets just say........

Nothing.... He's gone. ........

Because he broke that beautiful girl like the many boys that have done before him; down into nothing, Because that's all I am, right .. nothing.

She shows her body and acts sexy in hopes that she finds another guy to , " make her happy" when she knows damn well no guy really wants her. Because who really wants a woman who used to beautiful, and smart, who used to be one of the few and the proud.

NOBODY!!!!

You All like the novelty of me, you like how I shower you with attention and make you feel loved. But as soon as get what you need from me, POOF. You're gone. Back to your life, leaving me to pick up the pieces of what was never to be. and so I cry and beg for you to stay . But baby girl its over, it would never work out because of the distance.... And so you move on to the next girl..... while i'm left broken and a mess. But it's cool I get it, i'll shove my emotions down until one day.....

I feel like ending it all because i'm worhthless and on one wants me. I must be a real piece of shit if at my age I can't keep a fucking man. Or maybe, i'm just left with the burden of my dad's own misdeeds as a young man. and you know what, I truly believe that. I'm left to live with the sadness and loneliness of never knowing a true love.

But why? Why do I have to pay, I just wanted somenone to love me for me.