u/Prize-Application700

SO I WENT TO THE ER TO GET TESTED FOR THYRIODS (because it runs in family and my neck is a lil swollen) AND STD TEST.. I got a small swollen lymph node but he said that’s common with infections.. HE DIAGNOSED ME WITH BV BECAUSE HE SAID I HAD A YEAST INFECTION. THEY SAID THEY WILL CALL ME IN 2 DAYS FOR MY STD TEST RESULT.. TBH I DONT CARE IF ITS AN STD AS LONG AS ITS CURABLE. my neck is a lil swollen as well he said it could be bacteria in my throat, I went to the doctors 2 weeks ago and had bacteria in my urine.. Now this is raising my hiv anxiety!!! I ORDERED ORAL QUICK IN THE MAIL. IM FREAKING OUT NOW WTF !!!! I aslo had a minor sore throat but he said it wasn’t anything, idk if that’s just cause I’m always sleeping with my fan on at night.. the doctor said he didn’t see no swollen tonsils or sore throat but why am I feeling like this?

Got tested for Chlamydia, Trichomoniasis and gonorrhea they said everything looks ok so far but I don’t get my test back until two days but they did give me a shot in the butt just in case lol ☺️ athough they told me they can not test me for syphilis and hiv because I went to the er to get tested and not my obgyn but I do have my oralquick hiv swab coming through the mail.. so happy I’m getting all of this over with, I’m having less anxiety.. I’m staying celibate, I am done with men lol I hate getting tested.. although I’m still scared to test for hiv, I know that everything will be ok as long as I get my treatment. 🙏🏾 hope everyone have a blessed day

Been contemplating months about If have an std testing or not smh so I finally grew the balls to go to the er and get tested for that and thyroids because I’ve had extreme anxiety! I don’t care if I got anything as long as it’s treatable I will be ok. I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my past that I regret. I’m deciding to turn my life around🙏🏾wish me the best of luck guys I hope y’all all have a great day and stay safe 🥰☺️

But what are the chances of catching hiv if you have unprotected sex with a person that is hiv positive? I hear a lot of stories of people having sex with ppl that has hiv and are untreated plenty of times but yet they are still negative.. I guess it depends on their viral loads 🤔

Hello I am 34 years old and I have really bad anxiety, I’m goin to get testies soo but I’m scared shitless. I’ve have had a promiscuous life with men.. i was alcoholic and partake in I risky sex..only did anal in my 20s and I got tested negative for it but now it’s 14 years later and I’m freaking out, though I don’t do anal no more but I know yu can catch it vaginally aslo. Women out there, can you tell me your hiv stories and how you contracted it? I don’t wanna be with men anymore and I’m going to become celibate because I have a really bad health phobia.. I’ve been googling for weeks. Though I don’t have any symptoms or anything but I was told that you don’t always have symptoms while contracted hiv.. I know I’m dumb I should have been testing frequently. Never thought hiv was a big deal because they say the risk is low but as of lately I’ve been on google for days.. I seen this guy from my city exposing a girl for giving him hiv . My aunt died for aid but it was from injections and sharing needles.. I had anal twice in my 20s. I’m freaking out ladies please tell me you stories and how you contracted it.. please educate me .. anxiety is killing me

How high are the chances of me catching hiv? I am a 34yr female I used to be very promiscuous back in my days, ive been celibate for 2 months now .. I was molested as a child and I was diagnosed with bipolar depression.. a lot of men used to use me, I was very sexually active.., I’ve got tested for hiv 7 years ago and I’m going to get tested again in two months, I wanna make sure the test is accurate.. I’m just tryna make sure I am mentally ready for the results, until then I will remain celibate (I know I am grown and I’ve caused this) please don’t judge. Im scared shitless to have sex with anyone. I’m very ashamed of my past and it’s haunting me til this day, I would get blacked out drunk and participate in risky behavior. I only had anal sex twice and that was years ago. I’m not really educated on hiv and I’ve been on google for weeks now smh . How easy is it to catch HIV vaginally? My anxiety is really bad like I’m shaking and everything thinking I could possibly have it. I’m starting to feel physically sick just the thought of having it. I know many of you thinking why didn’t i stay getting tested for HIV knowing I was promiscuous. I was young and dumb I would take many of std test but not test for hiv . Didn’t think it was a big deal until I got a little older, I thought it was more risky to get it for gay males (I’m dumb I know) please do not judge me . As of lately I’ve did a 360, I no longer drink or partake in sexual activities. I wanna change my life around. All I can do is cry. I don’t even trust men anymore, I’m so scared.. I wanna be a great mother to my kids, all I could do is cry and pray..

I’ve been living with depression most of my life, I’m a 34 yr old female. I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar depression since the age of 12.. I was teased for my looks as a child and also was molested by my brother I think that’s what caused most of my depression.. it caused me to be very promiscuous in my 20s until now ..it was very easy to manipulate me. All I can do is cry because sometimes I hate my life and I regret the things I’ve done. I have two boys 14 and 12 . I am a single mother doing it all on my own 😔 it sucks at times cause I’m going through a lot mentally but I have to keep it all together for my boys. Sometimes I would just go in the bathroom and cry my eyes out.. I feel so alone at times, I feel like no one understands me .. when will this feeling go away?

It hurts so bad to know that he really doesn’t gaf about me any more. He tells me he doesn’t want me or need me anymore smh and I’m steady blowing up his phone and texting him even after he treats me like sh#$ . He’s all I can think about like I still love him and care.. I’m constantly checking his social media page, read our old text smh. I think he moved on and found someone new already because we haven’t been talking for 5 days now he acts cold towards me.. it’s really taking a toll on my mental because he was truly like my best friend now I’m forced to leave someone I love and care deeply about alone. I’m so depressed like I’ve tried everything to make it work and it’s never good enough.. I just wanna be loved and happy now I’m all alone. I’m a beautiful woman men throw their selves at me left and right but I don’t think I will ever find that connection again.. I ask him why doesn’t he wanna be will me no more or why you acting so cold towards me and he never gives me an answer. I’m left with no type of closure.. I have no one I’m so sad, it’s going to be hard to get over this guy, I’m so obsessed 😢🤦🏾‍♀️

Life has been very much cruel to me as of lately, I’m a mother of two boys taking care of them all on my own, have no family support, no friends no nothing and on top of that, my boyfriend broke up with me when I was nothing but loyal, he was very mentally abusive and wants nothing to do with me what so ever, he blocked me and is igging all my calls. I have no one right now but my kids and I barely can function or tend to the kids because it’s so much weight on my shoulders and mind yu I have no job at the moment so everyday is a struggle.. I literally had to run to the bathroom and cry my eyes out so my kids won’t see me like this.. Why is God putting me through so much? I pray morning and night, I try to do right by people.. why do I always get dealt the bad hand? I wanna be happy for once. I’m just so tired of this and feeling suicidal. Only person I truly have in my corner is my mom but I feel like a burden because I’m always asking her for money or food for the kids so I try not to be too needy when it comes to her.. I was diagnosed with bipolar depression so my emotions is all over the place right now. Even tho my ex treated me bad, a part of me still want him around. I have no one now and I’ve been crying for 3 days now.. I just want the pain to stop, get my life to get her and be a great mother to my kids and find that one that’s gonna be by my side.. it’s like everyone is happy but me and I’m so tired of it 😔 when will I finally get my happy ending??!

Me and my boyfriend broke up yesterday, he blocked me the whole day and I panicked because I think he’s really done this time. So the next day I called him and noticed that I was unblocked but no answer so I panicked again and called him 10 more times smh (I know it seems a little obsessive) .. we are still friends on Facebook, he usually post stories and post but he hasn’t been up there for 2 days.. now I have to completely let go and go no contact and it’s killing me because he was truly like my best friend, we talked everyday all day now I have to get used to not having that anymore. I’m so said and hurt, I try to be productive but all I really want is to crawl in a ball and sleep all day. Even tho he was no good for me, it’s still a little peace of me that still loves him and care 😔 I hate this feeling, I just feel so alone