Hey guys, I am interested in learning how to produce music, though I’m unsure what programs to use. As of right now, I don’t want to pour too much money into it as I don’t know if I will stick to it, so I want to find applications that I can use for free to get the gist of it. If this isn’t the correct place to ask, let me know. Thank you! (FYI I have a PC, if that affects the recommended programs.)
I don't get it, I was over them for years and then I ruminate over them for months. It is like a sour grief and I cannot stop punishing myself for making him leave and losing the one person who I thought got me. I try to do other things and speak to others but everything is a reminder of him—-a stab in the heart for me.
Ich bin A2 Sprachniveau und mag Drama, Komödie, und Liebesserie. Außerdem, die Kinderfernsehserie ist ok.
They push the stupid "looksmaxxing" crap agenda because dating apps are the most superficial way to connect with others. They're also unfair because there are significantly more men on those apps over women---of course people want the hottest person on there. Men are more likely to match with a hot girl, and women are overwhelmed with options---they will pick the best one on there. Because the rest of the men on there are upset that their "looksmatch" doesn't want them, they created looksmaxxing to justify the fact that they get no pussy, even though a lot of times there is someone who might be objectively uglier than them that desires them. The problem is we want what we cannot have.
Tldr: Dating apps dimmish people to their looks and creates unrealistic expectations on how average people look, also I didn't mention this in my rant but I hate how it monetizes love. Fucking predatory industry, I hope it crashes and burns one day.
Context: I have dyno and arcane, but I don't know what else to add. I had a league/valorant server but I think the cutesy bots in those servers won't work for the theme I want here. Should I just keep the bots I already have?
Think of music that plays in your head when you're with people and are reminded of someone who you wished were there. No matter what you do, you always wish that specific person was with you and it always comes back to them. Whatever genres work, but it should sound and have romantic lyrics.
For context I would use snapchat for NSFW and when I gave the account away today, I had to change the password since it had personal info about me in it. When logged in, I looked through my old DMs and was so disgusted. I couldn’t help but look at the unread stories I had so I opened it and saw so many attractive people, lots teasing themself on the platform. For a moment, I was in awe, but then I realized it was so fucking nasty—-I have a partner. Obviously, I quickly changed the passcode and logged out. I just have this knot in my stomach because my partner doesn’t know how I used to struggle with this addiction and I feel gross keeping it from them. The worst part was that I still get urges to act promiscuous and consume other people’s porn on there—-this morning a thought like that came in my mind. I do not act on these because I know I don’t really want hollow sex but still it drives me crazy. I just wish I never got into this shit, this addiction ruined my relationships and my self esteem.
There's this nice guy I just started dating and I love the fact I can just chill around him. He also treats me well so I should be satisfied, right? Well, here's the thing: he's not very curious about much. Sure, we spend a lot of time together and we try new things together. But when it comes to conversation, he's usually in dead ends. I love making him talk about things he enjoys such as medieval history, but he rarely asks about me. I even mention things I do in my free time and he never asks any questions or gives his insight on it. The same goes for my opinions---most of the time he just agrees with me or says "I don't know".
On paper, I should be grateful for it. To a certain extent, I am---it has saved me and made my life easier in some aspects. However, I find it so hard to connect with others because of it. I try to be humble and acknowledge the fact that I don't know everything in the world. However, everyone around me puts me on a pedestal or uses my intelligence against me. For example, if I say something that the other person dislikes, they say that I'm dumb and as a "smart" person, I shouldn't disagree with them. Then, when I say something they like, it's because I'm "smart". The worst thing is that whenever I try to speak with others, I feel so misunderstood. Nobody asks the same questions that I do in my head about my behavior or they misinterpret me which leads to another set of problems. In all my relationships, I'm considered "more intelligent" and it hurts feeling like I'm speaking down to others.
What do I do?
So I met my first love 4 years ago. We were awkward and young, but thats what made it even better. Even though we had a flirty friendship, things eventually ended as he got with someone else and moved on. Obviously, I ”got over him” with time. This post is the reason its in quotes LOL.
Flash forward to a couple of years later and I’m randomly thinking about him. I decided to message him and we chatted for a bit, but it went nowhere. Normally, this would be the end of this dituation. But I still find myself dreaming about him and thinking of him whenever I listen to certain music or see certain things. How do I make this stop? I love someone else now, but he just lives rent free in my head and its disgusting to me.
Me and these certain friends have been together for 3 years. This isn't a friend group, but rather a collection of friendships. While we have had many setbacks throughout the years regarding their romantic feelings for me, we'd always fix it and move on. However, I've recently stopped talking with them as much, partly because they (they = the friends) are usually busy. When they're not around, I find myself okay with it---in fact, when they text, I don't care to answer instantly anymore. Also, when we call, all I think about is when I can leave. These friends aren't bad people by any means, but I just find myself indifferent around them. I just told off one of these friends to stop being so emotional (Context: This person would frequently come in my DMs and call just to speak about his issues and try to act as my therapist) and while he hasn't been calling me as much, I've felt better without him. This indifference is spilling into my other friendships---to be honest, I just don't care to be on discord (these are online friendships) anymore. I've been interested in real life connections and so answering DMs on there just feels so tiring, even if someone hasn't done something wrong. The problem is that I don't know where to go to meet the people I want to meet (authentic, curious, trustworthy people---though these are just vague personality traits I'd like someone to have, I could get more specific if you ask me.)
Feel free to respond if you have had similar instances or have advice!