u/SatisfactionFalse833

I’m 27 & I feel like I’m 90. 🥺😭

I just experienced a migraine with aura (second one ever). There was no or minimal accompanying pain. I have a long-standing history with migraines; however, they were always severely debilitating, needed to be in a dark room, with a cold towel on my head, puking type, with no aura.. I started getting them at age 4; I'm 27 now. I feel like what I just experienced was very much a similar experience to Brainspotting therapy. I found a specific point in my visual cortex and started thinking about a very traumatic person from my past; however, I had other additional positive thoughts such as how far I've grown and what all I've accomplished since leaving them. Then the aura hit and started with a smaller circular blurry spot, and intensified into the black and white zigzags around my peripheral vision. What does science say about C-PTSD, migraines with aura, and somatic healing??? This felt like almost the exact same thing....

I’m so sick of having this thick layer of dissociation over my brain. What are your best coping strategies for this? The whole 5-4-3-2-1 thing doesn’t work for me. 🥺

I miss the me that was able to actually function without melting down all the time…the me before motherhood.😭😭😭 my meltdowns have gotten 100 times worse since becoming a mom. I’m constantly overstimulated to the point of meltdowns or panic attacks, ugh. 😭

Why do neurotypical people say or ask things they don’t mean? Such as “how are you” or “let me know if you need help/anything!”; it’s literally just a script where you’re supposed to follow along and say you’re “good/fine” and “thanks for asking” or “thanks i appreciate the offer”, but their words hold no substance because they don’t literally mean “how are you” or to literally “let them know if you need help”, because they didn’t say those things with genuine care or compassion about how you are or any kind of actual desire or plan to help you, they just said them because it’s just like saying “hello” or “goodbye” to them. I honestly think neurotypical people should be considered the neurodivergent ones because neurodivergent people say what they mean and mean what they say, yet we’re constantly punished for it.its like majority of this entire world is participating in this giant delusion, yet just because I don’t participate, I’m the one who is labeled and punished. Make it make sense. 🤦‍♀️

Genuine question.

Can’t stop won’t stop, lmao.😂 When I first started I was having a really hard time letting go for some reason. It was like every single item held some kind of sentimental value, the more I practice & get rid of stuff though, the better I feel and the easier it becomes. I never thought this day would come!!!

Why is it so difficult??? 😭😭😭😭

Ummm whatttt, Like ??????????? I’m so sick of being invalidated because of the way i look or carry myself. Ugh. 😩

I just had the most insane myofascial session, I’m talking landmark, life changing. It felt eerily similar to an LSD trip, except better!!!!!! I can’t even wrap my mind around how much trauma had been stored in my body that I just let go of & how much I just learned. To think my body had all the answers all along, they were just locked away!!!!

I have done 20 plus years of regular talk therapy, plus a few sessions of brain spotting but never really felt like i got much out of it. I decided to start foam rolling recently, which has been helpful, but nothing life changing. I bought some lacrosse balls. Yesterday and used one and cried for a good 20 minutes just releasing pent up emotions.

Tonight, I decided to try again. I’ve been stuck in chronic fight or flight and am desperate to get my body out of it. When I tell you I’ve done ALOT of psychedelics ranging from LSD, 2CB, Shrooms, MDMA, DMT, & Ketamine, yet never, ever had an experience so psychedelic, yet, put together in a way that it all made sense for me to take back with me & integrate into my life, I’m not lying.

I was also able to pair the somatic myofascial release with finding my brain spots. I felt familiar with it since I had done sessions of it before. I’m sure this intensified it, but WOW! It put soooo many things into perspective & allowed me to just LET GO! Something I’ve been unable to successfully accomplish other than an ego death while on acid ONE time (i used to drop a lot & only ever felt trauma truly release once).

I am AuDHD, OCD, & C-ptsd; i guess all i really needed this whole time was bottom up processing and im so glad I finally found something that actually works!!!! It’s not just tik tok fad.😭

I’m gonna journal it all out, but this experience I just had is truly something that needs to be in some peer reviewed psychology journal because there is no way that this is even humanely possible.😅😅😅😅 The human brain and psyche never ceases to amaze me!

Anybody else also have thoracic outlet syndrome and tmjd along side their vestibular migraines ?