I'm exhausted
Sometimes I wonder if I made the biggest mistake of my life by choosing the wrong partner. My parents always respected my choices and even though they don't really like him, they still accepted my decision because they want me to be happy. But I feel like I'm constantly carrying everything alone.
I'm trying my best to find a job for him, supporting him, encouraging him to take whatever work he can get while he searches for something better. But instead of appreciating the effort, he often remains unhappy. He cares, he loves me a lot but when his mood changes, it's like I don't even matter.
People don't get everything easily. Everyone is struggling in their own way and sometimes we have to be patient and grateful for whatever opportunity comes our way. I feel exhausted trying to make everything work. I just know that I'm tired. I'm trying my best to do everything I can but I'm also a human being. I need care, appreciation, support and someone who understands that I'm struggling too. I feel like I made the stupidest decision in my lifeeeeeee, gosh! I can't even leave him, everyone knows about us, I already had a bad past and we are legally married just social marriage is left. I'm already exhausted, God save me. Choose your partner wisely, guys! Don't be a stupid and an idiot like me.