Jealous, hurt, disappointed
I’ve been a Christian for most of my life, I was raised Christian and years ago I personally trusted in Christ and God , eventually I left due to having problems with Bible contractions, laws, and I just became discouraged and eventually no one was able to answer any of my questions and I just realized it was time to leave. I’ve been non-Christian for a while now and me and a family member were in a non religious group but the other night she had a dream and described it as a religious experience and believes it was a guardian angel and a dream from God, she’s now leaving the group and considering becoming a Christian. This family member was never really religious or spiritual at all and wasn’t really interested in it so it’s really surprising. I’m really happy for her and I think it’s truly from God because of how she described it but I am so hurt and deeply jealous about it. Why doesn’t he ever answer my prayers or come to me? It hurts so bad, I’ve spent so much time dedicated to God and sharing the gospel and learning the word of God. Ever since she told me about her dream I’ve been praying to God and BEGGING him to come to me, idk if I’ll come back or not atp because one of the reasons I left was because he never answered my prayers or comforted me or anything.