u/Stoddyman

My toxic trait is thinking we are immediately going to the finals if lebron comes back. Pls come back!!!

I feel as though Ive ran my life through the ringer in therapy. Ive done all the shadow work, reflection, exercises, talk, emdr, ect. Im sure there are things out there still to try. But Im just tired man. Its so hard opening everything up trying to heal over and over and still having so much addiction and pain issues.

I guess itd feel a bit better to hear if people can relate. I know this isnt an original thought or anything

I love harmonizing with his LAs during the chorus. Lol just wanted to share

I just wanted to share my feelings about this song. It resonates with me because of my addictions. The hoplessness of feeling like you cant stop. That you’re a horrible person. Everything feels fake (relationships, happiness, ect) and that this is how its always going to be.

Especially the line about being a peice of meat, it really does feel like that when youre ruled by something. I dont feel like a person with feelings, thoughts, or actions that make any sense or do any good.

Great song, it brings me catharsis and makes me feel seen -

Ive played with some pretty decent-awesome musicians that are nobodies. And thats ok, that happens to the overwhelming majority. The thing that grinds me gears to no end is the ones with shitty attitudes.

Like dude, stop fucking complaining about us not hitting an end note perfectly every practice (just an example). We are a COVER BAND. Thats plays in BARS. Loosen tf up for christs sakes and have a little fun why dont you? Accept reality and stop riding your high horse. Stop being a royal pain in the ass perfectionist and complain how we arent that good under your breathe like you belong in Metallica.

Some people just are allergic to having a good time it seems like. I get it if you are actually THAT good, but this post is about the 99% that just cant accept it aint gonna happen for them

Ill make music in a closet if I have to

I have quit alot of stuff at this point. Its strange to wittle it down and actually see the waves of anxiety that caused me to use drugs, alcohol and porn.

Like I know the anxiety isnt from abstinence from these things. Its something deeper. I dont get an urge per se anymore to watch. Its just an urge to numb. Porn isnt even appealing anymore. Its just very effective at cancelling out my feelings

I aspire to create music like this song. That is all

The dude is everywhere making key plays with hussle. Yeah he’s not perfect, but the guy is like delly on roids. Love it. He’s become my favorite player fast over the past few years

Just dropping in and saying I love this one. Its quite possibly the most straight forwardly uplifting song in his whole discography.

I like how its told from the perspective of some older wiser brother or friend . Feels like he is speaking directly to me

“One little flicker of light can erase the dark.”
-Atmosphere

“But wait, I been through a whole lot of other shit before, so I ought to be able, to withstand some more.
But I'm sweatin though, my eyes are turning red and yo,
I'm ready to lose my mind but instead I use my mind.
I put down the knife, and take the bullets out my nine
my only crime, was that I'm too damn kind”
- Gang Starr

“I…Am I alive?”

“No, my beloved. You are not.”

.    .    .    .

“Where am I? Who are you? What..”

Silence.

Darkness.

All of a sudden, it comes flooding back.

The pain. Intense pain.The ripping intensity of shame and hatred. The gun. The car. Oh my god…

“Did… did I kill myself?”

“Yes.”

“I remember now. I’m sorry.”

“It’s quite alright my child. Life on Earth is hard.”

“It got too hard for me I suppose.”

The darkness starts to shed, leaving room for a glimmer of light to reveal the dusty linoleum floor on which you stand.

“Well, that is where you are mistaken. Nothing you chose was too difficult for your spirit to experience.”

“Why did I give up then? Why didn’t I keep going?”

The room reveals itself to be a simple laundromat, softly whirring machines stacked on top of each other.

“The human condition is often hard to deal with. You lived and died amongst many who did the same.”

The voice seems to be coming down from some loud speaker. However , there is none to be found. The storefront windows separate you from what appears to be a normal rainy afternoon in the city where you once lived.

“My child, every soul that chooses to attend Earth is one of a warrior.”

Suddenly the room feels more familiar. There is no one in it, but you are struck by a deja vu that cuts deep.

“I don’t understand. Why do I recognize this place?”

“My dear, you have completed fourteen life cycles. However, each time you have gotten further down the path.”

You shudder at what this could mean.

“I know all of you. I can hear your thoughts. I know your strengths and weaknesses. None of that matters. What matters is that you chose this burden.”

As the realization becomes clear, the room crystalizes. You can see everything. Touch. Feel. You understand now.

“Only the brave face extreme hardship in pursuit of what they seek. You are one of these souls.”

The memories come flooding back. The searing pain, as vivid as the sun. The unconditional love, an oasis in the desert. Your soul wells up with every emotion and experience you have had. However, the feeling that something is unfinished remains.

“I have to go back. I know this is the last time. I think I finally know what to do.”

Something inside knows you have felt this every time. You have always wanted to go back. Not to change things, but to experience. To give meaning to your existence.

“Ever so eager, child. You were just the same before as you are now. You have grown wise, much closer to the truth you seek. I am proud of you.”

Suddenly, the room morphs into a new form. A staircase is now in front of you, leading to a great white light. The stairs are lined with many other friendly spirits.The everlasting presence of exceptional men and women.

“Now, when you are ready, ascend the stairs. Be born again, and realize your true purpose.”

You take some time to momentarily mingle with the other spirits, taking notes of encouragement. You feel incredibly full from the experiences of all your past lives, but you know that will be taken from you.

“When I forget everything, how will I know I am on the right path?”

“My love, your spirit will not forget what your memory has. You have developed your being enough to guide your physical body. In your time of need, always remember to stop and look towards the heavens. You have my word.”

Filled with courage, You walk up the stairs and become enveloped in the light. You feel a familiar sensation of being transported back into the mortal realm. Back to your life in which you left so suddenly and violently. . .

Gonna post here everyday for accountability and post a positive quote!

“Healing takes courage, and we all have courage, even if we have to dig a little to find it.”

How the hell do these people sleep at night knowing that people start watching so young. And profiting off of it??????? Jfc