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(22f) weeks been kinda shit, anyone wanna chat?

I (22f) am graduating this December. For a while I was really convinced I wanted to go to graduate school for meteorology. Due to this I reached out to a professor and asked if he would help me through a research project. I felt this would look good on my resume and what not. The research is in groundwater response to various types of storm events. Concurrently, I have a summer internship as a nature preserve manager. I work out in the heat all day and am realizing it is hard for me to motivate myself to sit down and code after a day of work. I dont know what to do. Should I figure out a way to get through it? Should I be honest with my professor and see if this can be more of a fall project? Should I tell him I cant continue?
I am no longer sure if and what I want to go to graduate school for. I most likely will try to attend a year or two after graduation but dont feel narrowed in enough yet on my area of interest. I have two years of the internship I am currently at.

I personally go back and forth. I definitely compare myself to others and often feel I could be doing better socially. I wonder if this is common or just what everyone else is feeling.

Hope you all are having a nice day! It is beautiful weather in PA today:)

I 22f am reaching a boiling point. I have been in therapy for three years, and have tried a variety of different medications. I am currently trying Wellbutrin but I think it is actually making my depression worse. Despite my best efforts I am still very flawed and am losing relationships as a result. Feel like I am often losing friends despite my best efforts and only have two friends from highschool who I can rely on. Made no real meaningful friendship in college. Still hit myself in the head when I am upset. Still addicted to weed. Still have trouble regulating my emotions. Realized I cant drink alcohol so there goes that mode of socialization. Just feel like a bad person. No matter how I try to get better I always end up in the same spot. Anyone older have any advice, feel like I am exhausting the people in my life and therapy isnt for a few days. Rough times. Life is quite hard and lonely.

I love Amy Pohler’s podcast good hang and she always talks about enneagram. I tested and got 4w5 458 sp/sx. Whenever I look up this combo it seems a bit grim. People say its super moody, distrustful, self isolating, etc. I have taken different tests and always get 4w5, but I dont feel I am a negative person, I like life. Any enneagram experts care to chime in😭