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I used to wear air optix but stopped after a few years because they were so uncomfortable for me. I decided to start wearing contacts again a few years after I stopped and my optometrist prescribed me total 30 instead. It's my first day wearing them and I bought a 12 month supply at the clinic since I usually just buy my contacts right after my eye appointment. So far I like the lenses. They're so much softer than my air optix ones were and stick to my eyes better.

I started stressing out when I got home and am now reading that everyone hates total 30 lenses and that they are way worse than air optix ones. Has anyone had good experiences with total 30? I already bought the year long supply of them so... 😭 I think my doc mainly switched me because of my irritation with air optix but I'm just seeing people say that total 30 are more irritating and I'm worried. Are yall just wearing them for too long?

I'm living with my parents again for the summer after a mental health crisis in the spring. Since I got out of the hospital my parents have finally been helping me with getting better mental health treatment. I'm doing an IOP to learn DBT and CBT skills, individual therapy, psychiatry... what are my parents doing? Nothing. I'm expected to make every change they want because they're "worried about me" (translation: want my recovery to be linear along the lines of what they think wellness should look like for me and would be most convenient for them).

I am so constantly filled with rage, disappointment, and sadness because of my parents' anger issues. Since I was a child I've been shouted at, belittled, shit talked, etc. and manhandled if things got really heated. My mom is the main issue but my dad is no saint. It feels impossible to use the skills I learn in therapy with them. And sometimes I wonder why I even bother. I've finally acknowledged the emotional abuse inflicted on me as a child and my parents are aware of me likely having CPTSD. Why am I doing DBT just to cope with their presence in my life? Why do I have to use DBT skills just to have a conversation with my mom? Why am I the "angry one"? Why am I the only person who has to make a change?

My mom is currently stomping around and snapping at everyone. She came home from a walk angry and we had some argument where I was fed up about her anger issues and she demeaned me for my mental illness like always and refused my angry offer to send her some skills packets and suggestion for her to go to therapy too. Every time she's mad at me, the worried mom who just wants to help her kid come back from a severe mental health crisis is gone and I'm just some mentally ill idiot taking up too much time and space and money. It's hard not to see the way she acts when she's mad as showing her true colors. If she's a kind and gentle person deep down and her anger is masking that, she could choose to make changes that she has explicitly said she never will. I will just have to find new ways to grit my teeth that align more with therapeutic guidelines.

I'm on 0.05mg of estradiol biweekly patch 100mg progesterone daily (don't remember the units off the top of my head but assume I mean the standard dosages basically). I am titrating up to 0.1mg for estradiol but I'm wondering what else to add or change since I'm 19? Do I also need testosterone? Do I need localized estrogen gels? Please give any advice for what works for you!​

i have primary ovarian insufficiency and my estrogen levels are harmfully low so i had to start HRT to replace estrogen and progesterone. i can barely accept myself as trans so i just stick with being nonbinary and not transitioning, but i've been trying to open myself up to exploring more, and now i'm hit with this. i'm really nervous about what physical changes will happen, i hate even the minimal curves i do have and i'll assumedly gain more. i just wish i was comfortable enough with myself to ask my doctors if there's anything i can do to preserve a more androgynous/masculine appearance, but idk. some support right now would be nice :(

I just got diagnosed a week ago and all the fatigue and brain fog I've been having for the past several years finally makes sense. But I'm still trying to get an appointment with an OB-GYN who knows how to treat POI so I can start HRT. I'm falling behind on academic and life tasks and I don't know what to do. I just want to go to sleep all the time. Please give any advice you might have 😞

I just got diagnosed with POI/POF at only 19 and I'm struggling so much. The low estrogen levels already cause cognitive decline (memory, brain fog, inattentiveness), anxiety, and depression. To top it off, low estrogen seems to worsen ADHD symptom severity based on recent studies. I have primarily inattentive ADHD and with the hormonal issues, I can't remember the last time I had any hyperfocus. I'm just exhausted and confused all the time. I used to be able to handle life with my ADHD because I had enough energy and mental capacity to do tasks once I could start them, but now I just sort of go to sleep if there's a task that seems difficult and I want to avoid it. I don't know what to do, I'm so behind on important tasks but I won't be able to see a specialist for a while to start any hormonal treatment 😞

I thought I probably just had an atypical presentation of PCOS or something. I got labs done and got diagnosed with POI today. I was sort of frustrated with the call the nurse practitioner gave me. It was mostly her trying to comfort me about infertility, which doesn't matter to me; I don't want to have children, and if I did change my mind later, I would rather adopt. I'm most concerned right now about my own health and what the short term and long term impacts might be.

What kind of symptoms have you all noticed to be related to your POI? I honestly haven't noticed much besides losing my period. I associated my fatigue and brain fog with my mental health conditions, but it hasn't all gone away with mental health medications, so I think it must be related to my hormone levels. If you had mental health symptoms, did treatment help? My mental health deteriorated so badly this spring that I was hospitalized and I wonder if it was partially related to this.

Do different hormone levels indicate how severe the condition is? My FSH is higher than I've seen people with POI discussing, and my estradiol and AMH are lower. I'm not disclosing exact numbers for privacy reasons, but if anyone has insights about this, please let me know! Like is there a range for mild/moderate/severe POI or is severity not considered with this diagnosis?

Also, yes, I will be talking more to my doctors about this. Just looking for some peer input since information online is sparse and I'm nervous about my health in the long run :')

as stated on the tin... can't seem to find em anywhere :'D

desperately in search of a fanfic about the scene in s1 e6 where louis kicks Antoinette out and stabs lestat with the record 🙂🙂🙂 if anyone has any please please tell...

i recently had my first psychiatric hospitalization and overall it was a very baffling experience. wondering if anyone who's been through similar has advice?

for context, i had a suspected hypomanic episode at some point between february 20th and march 15th...? (my memory of february-april is very foggy, sorry.) it started when the dose of my main adhd med was increased at the same time as adding a booster med, but i've had similar, less severe episodes before in my life. i think i may have mad mixed episodes before. anyways, after that med-related episode ended, i fell into a severe depressive spiral which led to my hospitalization.

at the hospital, the psychiatrists i saw all had the similar conclusion of me MAYBE having bipolar... maybe not. i have a family history of bipolar, but i also have a family history of people being misdiagnosed with bipolar. i've had a probable hypomanic episode, but stimulant meds were involved. the psychiatrists basically put severe recurrent major depressive disorder on my chart but treated me like i had bipolar 2 and avoided any meds that could trigger mania. the main psychiatrist who treated me said that we would only know if i truly have bipolar disorder if i had a manic episode, but we don't want to trigger one for obvious reasons.

i'm very frustrated because i can't be put on an ssri for my ocd or a stimulant for my adhd because of the mania risk, but we don't even know if i have bipolar 2. i'm now on wellbutrin for the depression and adhd but i feel like it's not doing anything except making me angry and i'm just going to have to suffer from my ocd and adhd being untreated for weeks until the wellbutrin kicks in enough for me to tell if it's working.

i'll be starting with a new psychiatrist very soon, so i'm wondering what to tell her to clear this up? is there anything we can do to clarify my condition? i also may have cptsd, bpd, and/or autism on top of the ocd (definitely have) and the adhd (almost definitely have). i'm just feeling very confused rn :(

I love horror but I'm too scared to consume any of it lol. I've had paranormal obsessions since I was like... 7?? It started with SLENDERMAN lmfao and I genuinely still compulsively check this tall skinny lamp in my living room to make sure it isn't him. I have certain horror creatures my brain has consistently shown me throughout the years. If I get over one my brain makes up a new one.

I remember reading horror movie summaries on wikipedia when I was in middle school because I found horror concepts so interesting but I couldn't bring myself to watch any of them. I still do this. I have still never watched a horror movie.

I read a lot of horror manga, and it usually doesn't bug me that much for some reason. But I just read Strange Houses by Uketsu and now I'm afraid to leave my room. For context, it's about an author investigating a potential case that she an an architect noticed when reviewing the unusual floor plan of a house in the area. I'm now convinced my house has secret passages in it and I'm part of a murder cult?? Send help ldkfjgklsfghksjdf

I have ocd, adhd, and either mdd or bipolar 2 + cptsd or bpd (psychs arent sure). I was recently discharged from a mental hospital. During my hospital stay I was put on wellbutrin xr because an SSRI might risk mania and stimulants triggered hypomania for me in the past. I don't feel much change other than bring angry all the time and not finding anything enjoyable. I did read the medication info but I still barely know what to expect. What should I know?

I'm seeing a new therapist who has decided not to start treatment until I get a neuropsychological evaluation, and she mentioned that she wants me to be evaluated for autism. I agree that I should be evaluated based on my life experiences but ​one thing that always confuses me is how to know if I am masking. Tl;dr I want to learn more about what masking feels like to someone with autism

I've had socialization issues for my entire life and the best way I can describe my understanding of socialization is that one only performs social duties for the sake of meeting expectations, but otherwise wouldn't do them. All social interactions are a performance. The way I act around other people is like playing a character.

But isn't that just what everyone does??? I don't see an alternative to what people would describe as masking so I can't honestly ascertain whether I do it.​

Could someone diagnosed try to explain what masking va. unmasking actually feels like? Not asking for anyone to try to diagnose me of course, or trying to self-diagnose. I just want to understand better!