u/ThereWanderer

I claimed, by order of most used to least : "Addictive Personality", "Misophonia", "Evil", "Obsessively perfectionist", "Aggressive", "50yo teen". I also wanted to be a hermit and was very much disgusted when my mother asked my sister if she thought I was autistic when they thought I wasn't hearing.

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So I'm not diagnosed, but I recently found out I have a family history of autism, ADHD, schizophrenia and OCD. Just found out because that side of the family was one I didn't interact with growing up. Just now that I'm 22 did my older siblings explain why.

I researched a bit and at least autism and ADHD feel familiar. I want to talk to a therapist about this but I want it to be easier for them and for myself so I thought of writing a document with symptoms I've been feeling.

The thing is: I wanted to give this document structure but I've written 3 pages of what looks like rambling so far. Any ideas what to write?

I feel like it's so hard to find Europeans into Ren outside of the UK. I'm a 22yoF trying to find renegade friends who electrically vibe to his songs as much as I do. It's hard when the max I get from others who I can get to listen to him is them saying he's good. And that's it. Like wdym "good"?? I could write a book about my views on his songs!

I know it's very random but I want to have girlies to talk to from around here who are into Ren - as in Ren from "Hi, Ren" because I think Renegades are a tribe and add lesbians to it and we're rolling.

Antes vivia no Algarve e tinha montes de oportunidades de falar com pessoal novo e fazer amizades (clube de debates, grupos de música, fotografia e artes, literalmente só ir à praia e ter gente a falar contigo)

Desde que voltei para CB que tenho estado bastante sozinha. Estou nos meus 20s mas não estou na universidade, trabalho por casa e não gosto de ir a clubes ou beber por isso isso não ajuda, mas não há aqui mais pessoas que não gostem só disso?

I'm in Portugal, centre (Castelo Branco district), pretty close to the border and something in my brain tells me I should absolutely get a last minute trip just to go to Spain and watch the world go black for 1 minute 40 but I keep thinking about how I'll be doing it alone, don't even know the best spots, was thinking of going to the Praia de Orzán but what if the weather sucks and I see nothing? Not to mention I have nobody to go with and I know it will feel super lonely and I hate that. But then I think I'm a woman in my early 20s, this is the ideal time to do this when I have time, idk if I'll be able to watch the one next year and ughhhhh. But it's less than 2 minutes... But it would be a cool box checked... Someone convince me to do this

I know he takes an insane amount of meds every day but do we know if he takes ADHD meds?

TLDR: There is this guy who makes me very uncomfortable but I pretend to think he is cool and let him believe I like like him just to get 100 euros a month.

I'm a 21F and there is this creepy weirdo (37M) who I used to work with who made me so uncomfortable always touching me and laughing weirdly and even the way he pronounces my name makes my skin crawl. Reminds me of my dead alcoholic dad. Ew. (This guy isn't an alcoholic, they just have the same accent)

Now I started hanging out with him because he took me out to fun places I'd never been to before and paid for the trips and helped me out at work. But he was so awfully annoying at work even my bosses had to call him a few times so he would stop following me around.

Now I moved away from where I met him (for medical reasons, unrelated to him) but he started visiting every month at least twice a month and it was so uncomfortable! But he started sending me 50 euros after some 15 days and another 50 after another 15 and I let him visit me and talk to me and call me and touch me and he started saying I'm his girl (even to his family (I never met them because he's an immigrant, family's out)) and I only ever said once to him "yeah I like you you're cool, but keep it slow, I just met you" after he declared his love 3 weeks after we met and a day after I learned his name and I guess he took that and me accepting his GIFs and money and availability to get pictures with him as confirmation he could be weird.

Now I never did more than hold his hand and hear him talk even when he visited so he even settles for little. He makes me so uncomfortable that I'd do nothing more. But I guess my comfort is just 100 euros a month. The worst is this taught me how much I can be bought and my price is so fucking low since I've been accepting this for a whole year. And every time I pull away? He knows he can just send money and I'm open to him again and keeps doing this. Can you tell I'm Portuguese?

I've been using this hell every day for two years. I finally did it!

Sometimes I need to talk about this to distract myself and not relapse again and again and again but just going on Reddit isn't enough because that requires posting again and again

Sometimes I need to talk about this to distract myself and not relapse again and again and again but just going on Reddit isn't enough because that requires posting again and again

TLDR kinda: For example when I'm sitting cross legged but the fact that I have to sit cross legged bothers me and that I have muscles (legs, knees, ankles, toes, etc) limiting me (as in you HAVE to have them, even when you aren't using them) and providing nothing - I just imagine grabbing my feet and ripping them out of my body. Is that like normal?

Details unnecessary to read: I struggle a lot with this kind of thing, it usually helps me to use my body, for example go out on a run or start doing push-ups or squats or squats while curling dumbbells. But it's very hard sometimes.

For example I was working a desk job and I had to take a lot of breaks to go to the bathroom and start doing some bodyweight exercises in the booth.

Also when I'm trying to sleep every single part of my body feels wrong and I can't sleep and have to always get up and move (stretching, rolling shoulders, doing splits, or bodyweight + dumbbell exercises usually or just go out and run).

I go back to bed and even then many times I just want to rip my legs off and then my arms and then my torso and then my head until I have nothing left so I can actually sleep to get up tomorrow again. Most of the time it's my legs but it extends often to other parts of the body when they don't feel right/feel useless

I'm trying to find a digital version of the book "Marina Abramovic - A Visual Biography" and can NOT find it any freaking where.

Gosto de falar com pessoal que entende tudo o que nós neurodivergentes temos de passar todos os dias. Mas não conheço praticamente ninguém tão afundo assim.

Gostava de fazer um grupo tipo WhatsApp, Telegram, Discord, para falarmos, fazer chamadas, combinar coisas (mesmo que tenham de ser online), partilhar outras, conhecer pessoas, conversar - nada de especial, todos sabemos os nossos problemas por isso ninguém julga as nossas "características" e "momentos" autisticos e assim.

Teriam interesse nisso? Se sim, digam alguma coisa. Mensagem em ai em baixo, ou mensagem privada.

Maioritariamente à procura de pessoal nos 20s, mínimo 18+.