u/Trick-Manager-201

Ngl bro might be off topic but after reading the replies to a certain post it just enforces the negative idea I already have of subjective music discourse(especially on Reddit). Imagine posting your PERSONAL top albums and someone in the comments is saying you just started listening to music or you’re an “insert artist” dick rider. Apart from me being able to like what I like, why must there be so much superior complex just because you have listen to some niche album made in Slovenia. Music is music and no matter how many albums you’ve listened to we all have the autonomy to decide which albums we deem fit to be in our top rankings, it’s understandable to express your own opinion on thus album but to make someone feel less of themselves or create a ranking system and make yourself judge and jury is a sign of insecurity.

Everyone was dancing, singing and having fun. I had a girl besides me who is more or less my girl but I felt nothing. I feel this way nowadays just unexplainable heaviness, sadness and loneliness. I find it hard to enjoy these social settings without feeling like I’m loosing my self and happiness has become ambiguous to be. I don’t know how to be happy with other people; I only enjoy fishing, soccer, listening to music and watching movies.

Everyone was dancing, singing and having fun. I had a girl besides me who is more or less my girl but I felt nothing. I feel this way nowadays just unexplainable heaviness, sadness and loneliness. I find it hard to enjoy these social settings without feeling like I’m loosing my self and happiness has become ambiguous to be. I don’t know how to be happy with other people; I only enjoy fishing, soccer, listening to music and watching movies.

Is it normal for my mood to drastically change during the day and my mental health just feels so fucked? Today was my graduation and for most of the day emptiness and sadness crowded me, on a day when I should be happy all I wanted to do was listen to music and isolate my self. But to be fair I’m just exiting a phase of deep isolation which lasted for months and deep sadness which changed my life. Every fucking day is just so fucking depressing and I can’t stand it, I feel so alone and away from society and the people who ideally should be in my life because i think people exclude me from most social situations and fuck me man😂😂😂it’s actually really fucking lonely to see the people who are close to you in your life having fun in social situations and in my head it just fucking hurts

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I never knew it will come to this

5 years of school and only 3 worth mentionable friends.

The first two years I was everywhere and everyone knew me but no one really cared for me, probably because we were all immature and little

The next two years; relationships, socializing and understanding my self. I felt part of the school community and I did have friends to talk to and hang out with.

IGCSE year. I don’t know if it was drive or just internal pain which slipped into my day to day life, but one error after another and I found my self isolated. Everyone drew away, phone became less busy. From 10 notifications to only 2 notifications and then 0 notifications. Getting invited for hangouts was a thing of the past and engaging in social interactions was a waste of time. People only know me for my wrong. and all the care, effort and patience I poured into people has proved to be meaningless.

This is not a cry for help/ nor is it a confession of wrong doings. But I did my last paper today, and having no one to even celebrate it with was heavy. I might be the only one facing this hurt but I’m glad I shared perspective to something I haven’t read before.

What are the most underrated tips for international students who would like to study in an Ontario university?

if you can, just reply to this post with the country you are from.

I’ve been very curious for a couple years about death grips production process and I’ve always wanted a deeper understanding on Stefan, Zach and Andy. If anyone knows a website other than YouTube where I can view their production process or find a biography that would be helpful.

I have been studying econs 0455 rigorously for about 2 years now and in my last mocks i got 85/90 in paper 2, although i haven't touched the subject at all in about a month of less and i have only tonight to brush up. Would i be cooked? need to get 75+ btw