The Curse of Always Loving From One Side

Sometimes I look at other people and wonder how they found someone who genuinely loves them back. They fall in love, become partners, get married, build a life together… and I’m happy for them, but at the same time, it makes me feel sad because I don’t know what that feels like.

I have loved someone genuinely. I cared about him, I had feelings for him, and I imagined that maybe one day it could become something real. But he never loved me the same way. There was no love in return, and I ended up getting hurt.

Now when I see people who are truly loved by the person they love, I sometimes feel jealous not of their relationship itself, but of the experience. I want to know what it feels like to love someone and actually be loved back. To have someone choose me, care about me, and want to build a future with me.

It feels like other people get to experience love, relationships, and marriage, while I keep getting the opposite. I don't know if I'm unlucky, if I'm choosing the wrong people, or if love just hasn't found me yet.

I know everyone has their own timeline, but sometimes it genuinely hurts watching other people have the one thing I've always wanted.

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 1 day ago

Why did he unblock me?

He blocked me first, and after about a month, he unblocked me, but he never messaged me. I found out that he had unblocked me, so I messaged him first. He replied, but after that, he barely messaged me.

I got angry and told him, “Please block me.” He suddenly blocked me again, and we had no contact for a couple of months.

I used to check his profile every day to see if he had unblocked me. Today, I noticed that he has unblocked me again.

But I know he probably won't message me. So why did he unblock me? Does it mean he thought about me or still cares about me? Why isn't he messaging me? What's the point of unblocking someone if you don't intend to talk to them?

Should I stay silent and not message him this time? Part of me feels like he might be testing me to see whether I'll message him first, but I honestly don't know.

What do you think I should do? Should I just stay silent and move on?

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 1 day ago

Why did he unblock me?

He blocked me first, and after about a month, he unblocked me, but he never messaged me. I found out that he had unblocked me, so I messaged him first. He replied, but after that, he barely messaged me.

I got angry and told him, “Please block me.” He suddenly blocked me again, and we had no contact for a couple of months.

I used to check his profile every day to see if he had unblocked me. Today, I noticed that he has unblocked me again.

But I know he probably won't message me. So why did he unblock me? Does it mean he thought about me or still cares about me? Why isn't he messaging me? What's the point of unblocking someone if you don't intend to talk to them?

Should I stay silent and not message him this time? Part of me feels like he might be testing me to see whether I'll message him first, but I honestly don't know.

What do you think I should do? Should I just stay silent and move on?

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 1 day ago

Why did he unblock me?

He blocked me first, and after about a month, he unblocked me, but he never messaged me. I found out that he had unblocked me, so I messaged him first. He replied, but after that, he barely messaged me.

I got angry and told him, “Please block me.” He suddenly blocked me again, and we had no contact for a couple of months.

I used to check his profile every day to see if he had unblocked me. Today, I noticed that he has unblocked me again.

But I know he probably won't message me. So why did he unblock me? Does it mean he thought about me or still cares about me? Why isn't he messaging me? What's the point of unblocking someone if you don't intend to talk to them?

Should I stay silent and not message him this time? Part of me feels like he might be testing me to see whether I'll message him first, but I honestly don't know.

What do you think I should do? Should I just stay silent and move on?

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 1 day ago

My happinesss is mine to keep

I feel like some of my relatives are my biggest enemies because I feel like they don't like seeing other people's success. They can be jealous, gossip about others, spread rumors, say negative things, and not accept other people's achievements. I feel like some of my relatives, especially some cousins—not all of them—like seeing others fail.

That's why I don't like to show my achievements or share my success with everyone. I don't post statuses or share much on social media because I prefer to keep my life private. I feel more comfortable keeping my happiness and success to myself.

I can post things here because everyone is a stranger to me, and I don't have to worry about people from my real life judging me or being jealous. I don't like showing my happiness to people I know because sometimes I feel like they may be jealous or hope for my downfall. I just prefer to live a peaceful and private life.

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 8 days ago

My Au Pair Interview Experience

I had interviews with two German host families. During the interview with the first family, they spoke to me mostly in German, with some words in English. After the interview, they didn’t contact me again.

With the second family, the interview was completely in English, and I was able to communicate really well with them. They also said that I could communicate with their current au pair, so I spoke with her and learned about their daily life and everything else.

After that, I sent a message to the host family saying that I had spoken with her, but they only saw my message and didn’t reply. I actually really like this family, so I don’t know why they haven’t replied. I’m wondering if the current au pair said anything negative about me.

But I also think that the family might like me because they asked me to communicate with their current au pair. However, after I spoke with her, they haven’t responded.

I really hope I can find a good host family in Germany. ❤️

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 12 days ago

Who was your first bts crush

Who was your first BTS crush, and who is your bias now?

Mine was Taehyung at first, but after some time I started falling for Jimin too. 😅💜 Has anyone else had their bias changed or been bias-wrecked?

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 15 days ago
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Who was your first BTS crush

Who was your first BTS crush, and who is your bias now?

Mine was Taehyung at first, but after some time I started falling for Jimin too. 😅💜 Has anyone else had their bias changed or been bias-wrecked?

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 15 days ago

I can't move on, no matter how hard I try what should I do?

I've become really attached to a guy, and I feel like it's turned into an obsession. He blocked me, but the truth is I was the one who told him to block me because he kept ignoring my messages. I thought it would help me move on, but it hasn't.

I think about him all the time. My mind keeps craving him, and I miss the days we spent talking. I've tried everything I can think of to heal and move on, but nothing seems to work. It's exhausting because I know I need to let go, but I just can't.

Has anyone else gone through something like this? How did you finally stop thinking about someone and move on?

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 19 days ago

I can't move on, no matter how hard I try

I've become really attached to a guy, and I feel like it's turned into an obsession. He blocked me, but the truth is I was the one who told him to block me because he kept ignoring my messages. I thought it would help me move on, but it hasn't.

I think about him all the time. My mind keeps craving him, and I miss the days we spent talking. I've tried everything I can think of to heal and move on, but nothing seems to work. It's exhausting because I know I need to let go, but I just can't.

Has anyone else gone through something like this? How did you finally stop thinking about someone and move on?

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 19 days ago

I can't move on, no matter how hard I try

I've become really attached to a guy, and I feel like it's turned into an obsession. He blocked me, but the truth is I was the one who told him to block me because he kept ignoring my messages. I thought it would help me move on, but it hasn't.

I think about him all the time. My mind keeps craving him, and I miss the days we spent talking. I've tried everything I can think of to heal and move on, but nothing seems to work. It's exhausting because I know I need to let go, but I just can't.

Has anyone else gone through something like this? How did you finally stop thinking about someone and move on?

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 19 days ago

24 F looking for genuine friends to talk &game with

Hey everyone :)

I'm 24F and I'm looking for some genuine, loyal friends — both girls and guys.

In real life I don't have many good-hearted people around me right now. I just want friends I can actually talk to about my worries, sad days, and happy moments too. No judgment, just real conversations.

Also would love friends to play games with! Ludo, Among Us, mobile games, whatever. Just something chill and fun.

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 19 days ago

Any au pairs?

I want to know more about aupair in Germany, can someone please say. I know the details but I need to hear the experience of aupairs currently in Germany. After aupair what will you do? Like ausbildung? Fsj? I'm so confused. And how can I pass my b2 there?

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 2 months ago

Concern

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I'm planning to become an au pair in Germany. I'm a 24-year-old female, and my goal is to do an Ausbildung. I studied up to B2 but didn't pass the exam. So I took the A1 exam and passed, and with that I'm going for the au pair program. My concern is: after my 1-year au pair stay, I need to pass B2. Is that possible? Will the B2 exam in Germany be very expensive and hard to pass? I'm worried about that, or should I switch to FSJ and then do Ausbildung?

I also have a concern: Will I get rejected? I studied Bachelor of Commerce for 3 years, but I didn’t pass because I failed one subject. I still need to write that exam, but on my CV I put BCom and in brackets I wrote "course completed". I put BCom because I wanted to fill that gap. I only failed one subject, and I will write the exam and pass. So I have some concerns about my CV too. I’m 24 years old — do they accept girls my age? Or will my degree be a problem? I didn’t pass, and I wrote "course completed". I didn’t lie; I only said "course completed" on my CV.

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 2 months ago

I don't know it's a bruise

I see some small black mark like bruise in small inu hand I'm taking acitrom I want to show pic but here can't upload othwise I will upload

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 2 months ago

I'm just so confused… a couple if months ago he blocked me on our main source of communication, and he recently unblocked me. it takes some kind of effort to unblock someone, but i just don’t understand why he’d just unblock me and not say anything to me at all… i know i shouldn’t be the one to reach out to him (cause i’ve tried) and he’s the one who broke up with me… but still, i’m just so confused and it’s setting my healing back a bit. i don’t have the heart to block him or anything cause i still love and care for him. He never loves me I only followed and chase him. Nd he said he never loves me and see me not as a lover. And after lot of bodyshame he blocked me. Nd now when I checked his profile I can see his profile pic.. But he never messaged me what does it mean...

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u/Unfair-River-9660 — 4 months ago