u/Visible-Bridge3388

For me, it has to be ENTPs. Many of those I have met were toxic and self-absorbed, and have more of a god-complex than people say INTJs do. Many were annoying, but I've also met a couple of ENTP who proved to be an exception, including my online friend and my irl best friend, making me kind of hate some ENTPs and love some others. Just love or hate. No in between.

Was contemplating my existence yesterday at 2 am and I realized that I am actually an ENTP magnet, both attracting and getting attracted to - from relatives to online AND irl friends and romantic partners (especially the fictional ones) - yall are everywhere in my life... So now I am wondering why, like is it something in INFPs that feels like a puzzle or a trait u enjoy? I wanna know, even if it can vary from one type of INFP to another

I will make this quick: As an INFP myself, I am very happy to have joined this sub. I'm pretty active in many other subs, but to be honest, this sub feels like the safest space ever. I don't feel afraid to share my opinions, to post, to comment or interact here in general because I feel like all of you are trust worthy enough, that none of you would judge out loud or make any unwanted criticism, especially unpleasantly (for my age and enneagram) or being rude. I've been to many other MBTI subs like the ENTP, and oh boy I am so glad I'm not one of them. In here, we all foster respect to each other and we are all caring and understanding, even on controversial notes. So thank each and everyone of you, your existence really matters and while we don't know each other at all, sharing a similar type with all of you is something I take pride in 💖💖💖 (marked as discussion because I have no idea what else to mark it as 😭)

I'm an INFP 2w3, but sometimes I wish I was INxJ 4w3.

I wish I was more capable of my Te, more strategic, analytical, and structured, and I wish I could be more introspective, more symbolic and abstract - fascinated by complexity and intensity.

More aware of those around me, not so I could comfort them, but so I can understand how they work and think, just so I could get what I want, so I could achieve my goals more easily.

The 4w3 would probably come from my wish of while being able to understand human nature more thoroughly, I wish I didn't have to think about what others want, like people-pleasing, and care more about what I want, what feels most authentic to me and truer to my personality and identity.

It can range from stereotypes to how you perceive certain types.

My biggest issue is whenever I tell someone that I'm and INFP 2w3, they start claiming that I'm a mistyped 4. Like I am sorry, But I did not spend the last 76 hours of my week trying to discover more about my personality to see if I align only for you to tell me that I'm a mistyped 4, and even when I try to present my argument, some still will not agree 😭 I've seen this happen with others too, not from an enegrame perspective but in how a certain way they might perceive a type - and suddenly they are a mistyped sensor 😭

Also, why do sensors get so much hate?

I am serious. I know this can sound absurd for some, but allow me to explain. About a year or two ago I had a school project dedicated to the system I am studying with, called the personal project. I decided to create something like an OC portfolio, where I do my favorite thing in the world, or so I thought it was, drawing, while I also exercise my creativity and create background stories for each, including a sample chapter or something like a narrative from a focal point in each bundle of characters' universes. I ended up enjoying the world building and writing parts MUCH more than the drawing.

This was my first step to my self discovery were I started to want to learn more about myself and my capabilities with words. At that time, I was also just finding out that I REALLY love reading, so it felt like a win win when I read, expanded, and implemented.

However, around November last year I started experimenting with poetry, especially because my depression was hitting a wall I constantly felt worthless and unlovable, so I wrote a prose poem about wanting and building a family, but everything ending up to be a dream. It took me 15 minutes to finish the poem, and I felt like I didn't even want to finish the piece. I stopped and read it. The level of pride I felt after uncovering my skill for writing and tackling themes and having something like my own literary voice made me almost obsessed with my work and oversharing it with everyone, I ended up writing two more poems within the next day. And the more I wrote, the more I just let my thoughts flow from my mind to my hand and to the keyboard, the more I allowed my subconsciousness to take control. But that also came with a consequence: I was uncovering things I pent up in my mind unconsciously and have dwelled over without noticing. Dark, messed up, very therapy-needing things.

I was learning things about myself I am sometimes too afraid to address. And what always really struck me was the recurring themes of my poems that I somehow always had something to say about, that I always wanted to write about and channel even when some of my poems became repetitive: Self-eraser and destruction in the name of love and being loved, being unworthy of even tragic love, and sometimes even loss of anatomy and voice in the way of possession and objectifying self, sometime portrayed in subtle or underlying ways, usually in metaphors, and other times appears when I am writing about comparing myself to sweets, to food, to sugar that is both good on the tongue but too artificial and bad - basically asking for consumption from my SO.

Mind you, I am only 16 and never held a guys hand 😭

I am not sure that it really matters, but isn't my mind supposed to be in its innocence and prime or whatever? Where am I coining up this vivid imagination from? Why do I even worry about such things at such a young age? I have so many questions and at some points I just stop to look at my poems and wonder if I have some sort of masochistic tendencies of that I might have endured and died in a very unpleasant way in my past life if that exists 😭😭

But to be fair, besides being uncomfortably self-aware in a weird way were I end up addressing that I am only a poet WITHIN the poem, I think my poems are very gothic literature coded and publishing-worthy... 👁👄👁👍

For context, I'm an INFP, but I always felt like I had developed Ne, and at some point even wondered if I was an ENFP due to my social nature.

Point is, I can't seem to focus on something without losing track of it or daydreaming, like exactly now when I was studying but it randomly seemed to me and I started debating myself if it was just my Ne acting up or if I seriously needed to do I test. I also tend to jump a lot between topics, like I would be explaining something that happened to a friend and then I say something that reminds me of another thing, so I start overexplaining the thing just so I could relate it to what it reminds me of, and at the end I forget what I was talking about entirely 😭 This also happens when I want to post something or ask a question, and I see an intriguing thing and end up doing what I originally wanted to do DAYS later.

More so, I also can't seem to stay put on something for too long. I just HAVE to start thinking of other things, no matter how hard I lock in, and in the end I just give up because my thoughts start to hyper-fixate on a certain thing and looping over and over going back to it and I just start doom scrolling or asking reddit random things, and sometimes I wonder if I just am obsessed with my current hyper-fixation (which can last from days to weeks, sometimes months, rarely years [only once])

For context, I'm an INFP, but I always felt like I had developed Ne, and at some point even wondered if I was an ENFP due to my social nature.

Point is, I can't seem to focus on something without losing track of it or daydreaming, like exactly now when I was studying but it randomly seemed to me and I started debating myself if it was just my Ne acting up or if I seriously needed to do I test. I also tend to jump a lot between topics, like I would be explaining something that happened to a friend and then I say something that reminds me of another thing, so I start overexplaining the thing just so I could relate it to what it reminds me of, and at the end I forget what I was talking about entirely 😭 This also happens when I want to post something or ask a question, and I see an intriguing thing and end up doing what I originally wanted to do DAYS later.

More so, I also can't seem to stay put on something for too long. I just HAVE to start thinking of other things, no matter how hard I lock in, and in the end I just give up because my thoughts start to hyper-fixate on a certain thing and looping over and over going back to it and I just start doom scrolling or asking reddit random things, and sometimes I wonder if I just am obsessed with my current hyper-fixation (which can last from days to weeks, sometimes months, rarely years [only once])