u/Visual-Insurance8530

Hello, for some context, I'm 24 years old. I'm a transgender woman (still in the closet and untransitioned) and pansexual. I grew up in a very religious household and I've only recently come to terms with my gender and sexuality (maybe since I was 18?). I grew up very, very repressed and have OCD, meaning that actually being openly sexual or even being romantic is tough (I had to convince myself that I wouldn't go to hell for having queer attraction for a long time).

I've been in a long-distance relationship for the past two years with another trans woman and it's been really wonderful. She's taught me things about myself that I've never realized before. We've never "been intimate" but I feel very loved and can give love back, in a kind of relationship I've never been in before. But that's kind of what I want to open up about:

now I'm kind of a bigger person, my whole life I have been. I grew up very ashamed and angry over it. I discovered that I have a bit of a weight gain kink, not towards other fat people, but rather in a way of reclaiming it for myself and maybe even in a praise kink sort of way. I think a lot of this has to do with unmet needs. I want to find a way to embrace this instead of running away from it and feeling ashamed and dirty. My girlfriend is aware of it but I feel weird around her having told her. I don't know what to do.

Hello, for a little bit of context, I'm 24 years old. I graduated college back in December, around last September, I began to have some very severe OCD episodes about the past, dumb things I've said to people, making myself out to be the biggest monster that ever was. It was awful, I'd have panic attacks at work. Days before graduation, I'd have these huge suicidal episodes...awful. But I'm alive, many months later, due to the help of Zoloft and talk therapy. We've made a lot of progress this past year, but we've reached a standstill. A lot of my OCD revolves around my relationship with my sexuality and my bad experiences with it, I find it hard to talk about and very embarrassing. What's the best way of opening up to a therapist about these kinds of things?

I've become really fascinated with the sound design of old video games, especially really from the 70s - '93 or so. Trying to find some music akin to those kinds of sounds, ideally from the time. Already familiar with Kraftwerk, Boards of Canada, Daft Punk, Aphex Twin (but willing to dive deeper) and YMO (willing to dive deeper). Ideally stuff made with analog equipment, but doesn't have to be. Thanks!

Hello, have been on Zoloft for about 7 months, long history of OCD and major depressive disorder. Went from 50mg to 100mg around April or so. At first, the drug worked great, I felt much less upset and sad about things and felt like I had some motivation...but at some point, it started to feel a bit detrimental. I feel incredibly detached, lazy, all I want to do is laze around and sleep. My OCD has not really improved. Nothing really excites me anymore, to be honest, it's kind of worse than the depression - I miss the highs.

Hello. It’s been about two years since my friend committed suicide. They actually passed in June, but I didn’t know until September. We were online friends. We were very close and he was incredibly sweet, they inspired me personally and creatively. I miss him everyday. When he died, I felt a part of me died, truly. And it’s never coming back, that creative, loving, caring part. I never found an obituary, his family never found closure, I’ve talked to his friends but I feel like I never knew him. I just don’t know what to do. I want some closure. I want to old me I knew back. I want to reassurance that everything is going to be okay again. It’s been two years but it still fucking hurts. I feel adrift from the world.

Hello, I'm a 23 (going on 24) year old college graduate, and the last few years have been pretty tough for me. I managed to survive a four year film program (barely), despite a close friend of mine passing away in my third year. I was unable to finish my thesis film, had to shift degrees, and had a huge mental break that led to me getting diagnosed with OCD. While I did manage to graduate, I was left feeling very depressed and busted after that...I've spent seven months in convalescence at home and while I'm doing much better and on Zoloft. I feel like my life's in disarray, I have no job, money is drying up and I have no path ahead. I'm thinking about going to school to teach. It feels like there's no hope. Not sure what to do.

Hello, I'm a 23 (going on 24) year old college graduate who has been having a bit of hard time finding out where I should go after college. I have an applied media degree with some film expertise, but have been struggling to find a job, ANY kind of job. I've been living at home since December and I've had one or two photography gigs but that's about it. I'm thinking about going back to teach, but I'm really not sure where to go, and I'm too embarrassed to ask...

Been in an online relationship for the past two years. I'm 23F and she's 25F, for her, this is her first "serious" (as serious as we are, I suppose) and for me this is my first relationship at ALL (I'm a bi trans woman in the rural midwest).

I love her very much, but lately I can't help but notice these problems and I'm not sure if they are me problems or signs something's wrong in the relationship...I've been messaging seldom in the day, had kind of a bad friend experience recently that's made me a little avoidant. we've been in a rut, it's been kind of boring. I only feel like I message her to vent or say goodbye. it feels like the excitement's gone. we talk about meeting up someday and I think that would help, but I just don't know. she says she wants me to be myself, but it feels like I should be putting in extra-extra effort to make this thing work and I'm not sure it is. IDK.

two major ones (imo) - The Beach Boys Love You and McCartney II (and Ram)

I was scanning through what comes out next year and BOTH Apatow and Columbus have films coming out next year...what else seems likely? Jared Hess? Gerwig? also he's def maybe too evil to talk about but, Mel?

Hello, I've posted here before. I'm a 23 year old trans woman. I spent a lot of time online and only really started socializing after I turned 18. I use Twitter pretty often and the older stuff, like before I turned 21, I get very embarrassed by, flirting with people (over 18 and consensually, of course) and asking for constant validation due to body image issues. The older I get though, the more I notice how different the age gaps in people I was talking to were, like teenagers! and while I said nothing I'd consider inappropriate and was careful, I look at some of those body image conversations and think "jesus I'd never have been this personal if I knew this person was like 14 at this time???"

so I've apologized to every single person I've known over and over (this was a few months ago) yet I still have to resist the urge to scrub through my DMs and see if if I've ever dnoe anything wrong. Does anyone else have this problem?

Obviously, I'm gonna listen to the album, the question is this: most of my day is gonna be spent working. Should I listen to it in the morning or night? On vinyl or CD? With people or alone? What are your guys's Pet Sounds rituals? What's the way the album is supposed to be listened to?

context: I'm a 23 year old trans woman. not out irl. struggling from recovering from a major OCD episode and having a tough time job searching after graduating college. I also lost a friend to suicide two years ago that led to my mental health declining.

I've noticed that I often have dreams about being on buses...not sure why but it's something pops up a lot. I was on a bus headed to a prison, I was really upset because I was being ripped away from everything, I had none of my belongings, and I hadn't done anything wrong. It was grey and dismal, specifically I was upset about not having my phone. It was intense enough that I was trembling when I woke up. but what does it mean? am I trapping myself via isolation, living through regrets? Am I scared to get older and I'm clinging onto childhood? what am I trying to tell myself?

I really don't like the way Impossible Soul is chopped up and I kinda wonder if the digital-ness would sound better on CD