A lil wayne lyric i think about from time to time
“You can look into the future, it’s right behind your eyelids, but I don’t wanna know, ’cause shit, I like surprises.”
The older i get the more i realize this line literally means death.
Behind your eyelids is darkness. Sleep. The unknown. Eventually death. That’s the future for everybody whether you’re rich, broke, successful, lost, anxious or confident. Different lives, same ending.
And weirdly that thought clears brain fog for me sometimes.
Like why am i sitting here overthinking every possible future when the future itself is uncertainty? Why waste the present mentally living 10 years ahead?
At some point you realize nobody actually knows what’s coming. We’re all improvising until we die.
Not even in a depressing way either. It’s almost calming.
Makes me wanna do what i gotta do and stop obsessing over controlling everything.