u/canned-phoenix-ashes

I teach computer art, intro to art, and photography, so there aren't a lot of supplies being used! I have very small classes, so I'm in a rather lucky position!

I have cameras and lighting equipment and drawing tablets and all of the essential art supplies.

All of the basics are covered in excess, and I have an extra $500 to spend. (I'm very lucky, I know!) What should I spend it on? Keep in mind, I'm in a computer lab!

Hi,

Respectfully I would like to eat pussy before I die and I lack the skills to pay the bills.

What app should I be going on or what would be the strategy in order to have a casual hookup with women?

I've done tinder with limited success and I've also been to dyke night my local gay bar.i was the singular Dyke it was only gay men :(

After literally vomiting from pain I finally found a treatment that might be working - knock on wood

GuyS I got to masturbate with only a little pain today but like a fun amount of pain a little pain- bdsm amount of pain!! My entire vuvla was fucked not just the best of wheel or just the inside of the vagina the entire thing hurt so the whole redefining sex thing wasn't going to work for me but OMG I GOT TO DO HORNY SHIT!!!

Came twice then sobbed! A win a win boissssss

It's been 11 months

Tested positive for yeast infection and BV for a 3 month after that I've tested negative for every STD ureplasma mycoplasma BV yeast and my vaginas microbiome is fine.

Every test has come back normal

I'm currently on clobsetal and amitriptyline - i can't take lidocaine it burns significantly and feels like someone put toothpaste on my vagina.

I haven't even been given a diagnosis yet but I'm not sure I can do this anymore.

I tried the elliptical for 30 minutes and was in so much pain that I was vomiting. I thought it was just a one-time thing. So tried it again NOPE!

Weight lifting and yoga and swimming have produced similar results.

What are y'all doing?

Guy the hrbt killing me :(

At this point I've had multiple treatments for urea plasma yeast Bv - yeast all sti's ureaplasma my microbiome have all come back negative, there are no dermatological issues.

I had a really long and hard to get rid of yeast infection that took like 3-6 months it was hard to tell my gynecologist thought I still had one even though I tested negative.

I'm currently on clobsetal because my gynecologist thinks I have chronic inflammation which is doing nothing and amitriptyline hydroxyzine which also doesn't seem to be working.

I've gone to four other gynecologist and they've all turned me away.

Is this going to be forever?

Am I never going to be able to have sex again? I don't know how to live my life anymore that was like my favorite thing to do and now it's gone. I'm 25 and I don't think I'm ever going to be able to be normal again I'm already disabled from neurological issues and now I'm just feeling like I lost all of my worth.

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I pulled:

Five of Cups

Ace of Swords

Three of Swords

My first thought was...god damn it

The Five of Cups feels like it's saying, "Yeah, this sucks, but don't forget about what you do still have." Which makes sense, but it's also kind of a hard message to hear when I'm already grieving how much my health has changed.

The Ace of Swords makes me think maybe I'll get some kind of clarity or a new perspective. Maybe a diagnosis, maybe just a different way of looking at everything.

The Three of Swords is what's freaking me out. My brain immediately went to, "So... this is just my life now?" Like the pain and heartbreak don't really end.

I know it's probably not a good idea to take tarot super literally, especially with health questions, but this spread has been stuck in my head. Am I reading too negatively? I'd love to hear how other people would interpret these cards, especially since I asked when this would end.

Long story short, I have what may be permanent nerve damage in my genitals. Not only does sex hurt, but sitting down hurts too. Any amount of pressure on any part of my genitals fucking hurts.

I think having a partner, wanting to have sex with them, and being completely unable to sounds like absolute torture. I also don't want to be a single mom, so I feel like having a partner and children is out of the question, and I'm going to have to go through life alone.

These were always really big goals for me. I very much wanted a partner and children and to do the whole white-picket-fence thing. Letting those dreams go is incredibly painful, and I'm having a hard time imagining what my future will look like now.

What does your guys' future look like? How do you find purpose and meaning outside of these goals? What do I have to look forward to if not kids?

I believe the fucking bottle like an idiot. Relief is a lie. Lidocaine is a fucking lie. I’m crying in the bathroom right now.

God I had hope

I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s been 10 months, and it’s ruining my life.

I tested negative for lichen sclerosus and any kind of dermatological issues. The tissue looks healthy, everything looks fine, but I still have chronic itching and burning.

I had chronic yeast infections and BV for months at a time, and when we finally got rid of them, I thought everything would heal and go back to normal. But the itching and burning are still there, and they’re not getting better.

I’ve tested negative for ureaplasma, BV, yeast, and STDs. I’ve done every single test they can throw at me, and nothing explains this.

We finally got rid of the infections, but it feels like everything is destroyed. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to have the relationship or the life I wanted.

Nobody fucking cares. Everyone acts like it’s “TMI,” but this is ruining my life. I’m going to every urogynecologist within a 100-mile area, and nobody knows what the fuck is going on. One literally pulled up a WebMD article while I was fucking there.

There are no vulvar pain specialists near me. I’ve spent over $2,000 on this, and it hasn’t helped. I don’t know what else to do.

I’m on fucking clobetasol right now, and it isn’t even working. It’s been three weeks, and nothing has changed.

I’m 25, and I feel like my life is ruined. I never even got the chance to live the life I wanted. I wanted a fucking family and husband and shit- I can't even jerk off or sit down. I wasted all of my good year not even fucking , I should have been more of a slut.

I’m scared this will continue forever, and I don’t know what to do.

I've been having issues with my urogynecologist insisting it's a yeast infection for the past 9 months, but I've tested negative for every STI, yeast infection, and BV for the last 6 months. I was testing positive for yeast ureaplasma and bv during the first 3 months, though.

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I've had chronic itching and burning that, at best, goes away for maybe 4 days before coming right back. It doesn't seem to respond to any treatment. I've done multiple rounds of miconazole, fluconazole, clotrimazole, antibiotics, and boric acid.

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I'm noticing pale white patches on my vulva and think it might be some sort of skin issue. Especially because the itching and burning went away when I was on yeast infection medication and then came back well I was still on the course of yeast infection medication.

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I'm just fucking over it. If this really is a yeast infection that's lasted 9 months, I should be giving birth to a six-pack of beer by now.

The only one I know of is 37th and Zen and my ex goes there frequently so it's off the table.....

I've tried a few and most of them just seem to be people hanging out with their friends and not wanting conversations which for me is the entire point of going to bars.

I'm on the peninsula so would prefer not to cross the bridge but I would willing to do so :)

Hey are there any meetup groups or clubs or places to meet people on the peninsula? For my mental health I refuse to cross the HRBT! Thanks!