I choose to accept my existential loneliness.
I've been begging for attention and validation for far too long from both random strangers on the internet and acquaintances IRL. It's a rocky road that constantly messes up with my nervous system because I'm tying my wellbeing to other people's reaction to my antics -- people who probably don't even care about me. I think it's high time to accept the reality that I am lonely, and that maybe it's OK. Maybe it's an opportunity for personal growth.