u/pessimistic_damsel

Sorry if it sounds like venting, but this makes me uncomfortable.

If there's one thing I dislike as an introvert, it is when I can read the room and not being able to do anything about it. I know I can't control other people... but I don't know, I can really sense their negativity and it's making me uneasy.

In addition, my trauma makes me dislike this situation even more. I know what could possibly happen when a specific person is annoyed.

Who knows? I could even be the next target of their hostility.

Alright, I'm gonna try distracting myself by reading webtoons again. Hopefully this will be over soon.

Looking for a completed Joseon smut manhwa. I think it's a short, too, with less than 20 chapters.

The ML is a wealthy scholar preparing for the civil service exam, while the FL is a servant. If I remember correctly, the FL likes the ML a lot, but given their social differences, she keeps insisting he should marry someone of equal status. He misunderstands when she says she wishes for his happiness. Towards the ending, I think she runs away, falls into an icy lake, and he saves her.

Thanks in advance!

Hello!

I'm looking for a manga where the heroine is a plain girl with sort-of rectangular glasses and twin pigtails. The blond (or maybe light blond?) popular "prince" male lead is secretly rude and short-tempered.

Early on she overhears him in the infirmary (or maybe the hallway) while he's complaining about having to pretend to be nice. He realizes she heard him and comedically blackmails her into keeping his secret. There is a river fishing trip with friends, where (if I can recall) a girl who has a crush on the male lead, discovers him being rude and short-tempered.

The setting is in high school, but the art makes them look like middle schoolers.

Thanks in advance! Appreciate you all!

J,

Hindi ko alam bakit tuwing malapit ka nang mag-birthday e napapanaginipan kita. And almost always, something bad happens to you in my dream.

HIndi naman na ako galit sa 'yo. Matagal na rin nu'ng naka-move on ako sa 'yo, at masaya na tayo sa kanya-kanyang buhay.

Pero minsan, nakakabother. Siguro kasi morbid?

Though, I truly wish you are doing okay and none of those I saw in my dream are bound to happen.

Take care... I guess?

X

Wala akong maalala na pagkakataon na naging first choice ako. Sanay ako—for lack of better term—ma-"discriminate" sa bahay kasi mahina ako academically, kung ikukumpara sa ibang tao. Kumbaga, kung grades ko lang titingnan, maayos naman. Pero kapag itinabi na sa mga anak ng kaibigan ng mga magulang ko, nagmumukha akong engot.

Akala ko normal lang 'yun, pero una kong napagtanto na hindi ako nagiging first choice nu'ng JS Prom. Kahit recommended ako ng teachers dahil sa pwede akong mag-lead ng sayaw, walang may gustong makapareha ako. Hindi daw 'yun dahil sa ayaw nila sa akin, pero dahil lagi ng may higit sa akin—pwedeng crush nila, friend, BFF. Ending nu'n, na-i-pair ako sa absentee sa batch nila. Wala siya nu'ng opening kasi lasing na siya bago pa man mag-start 'yung event and we had to meet du'n na sa events place.

Tinandaan ko talaga 'yan, as in, sinabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi na ako aasa kasi ang tagal ko na palang taga-punan lang ng void, hindi ko lang alam.

Nu'ng nagtagal, mas naging evident na sa akin 'yun kasi iniimbitahan lang ako sa binyag kasi walang proxy. Invited ako sa birthday kasi isa ako sa mga unang bumabati at nakakaalala. Minsan pa sa work, sinasabihan ako ng supervisor ko na, "alam mo hindi naman talaga sana ikaw ang kukunin kaso hindi um-attend 'yung first choice."

Oh, okay po nalang. Kasi alam ko na hindi ako dapat umasa na best choice ako.

Fast forward, nasa long-term relationship ako ngayon. Akala ko eto na babago kasi tumagal na din kami. Sa totoo lang, mabait naman siya. Maasikaso, maalaga. Tapos wala akong naaalalang away namin na sinaktan niya ko nang pisikal o sinigawan. Kapag meron kaming away, hindi lang siya mamamansin nang ilang minuto, tapos mag-chat ulit o tatawag tapos magso-sorry kami sa isa't-isa.

Perfect na e. Ideal. Pero may dahilan bakit last option pa rin ako: pamilya niya.

Napapag-usapan namin future plans namin kasi plano na namin mag-settle down, pero makailang ulit nang napupurnada kasi inuuna niya kapatid niya. Kumpleto pa sila sa pamilya at hindi sila gipit, pero kapag humingi ng allowance kapatid niya, binabawasan niya budget namin (na may pambayad utang din).

Kinausap ko na siya na hindi naman 'yun papabayaan ng magulang nila. Pero 'yun lang, non-negotiable kapag pamilya niya usapan; pero sa akin, baka pwede pang mahilot at gawan ko paraan.

Minsan iniisip ko, baka ako 'yung selfish kasi hindi ko maintindihan ang pakiramdam ng may pinapaaral. Pero kasi savings na namin 'yun. Plano namin 'yung sa future, pero bakit parang kapag sa akin, may "baka sakali"?

Ayun, wala lang. Umay na ko maging last option, haha.