I love kids, but I’ve decided the journey isn’t for me.
Wanted to share my decision, as a (former but I’d love to return one day) early childhood educator (aka, infants through prek) in her 30s who has decided to not have children of my own.
My decision comes down to I would be a great mom but not a happy one, for so many reasons. I have so many things I want to pursue in life, none of which involve children. I also personally believe the way the planet is going, I don’t want to live with the anxiety of what world my children and grandchildren could inherit. I want to spend my time here inspiring others, helping people connect and learn from each other, and helping better the world.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s a weird thing to grow up all my life imaging myself with children, saving childhood toys for them, thinking what type of schooling they’d have… but I never found joy in these thoughts, not the way i do when I think of my aspirations and dreams.
I am so happy to be an auntie to those in my family, and I can’t wait to spoil them. But I feel peace knowing my decision is made, and luckily my partner and the woman who raised me both not only respect my decision but celebrate it.
Wishing the best to any other fence sitters, no matter what you choose. 💕🫶