u/rotten_eji

I'm 20yo, just graduated technical school on tourism organisation, I don't have any interests hobbies or ambitions but I do want to do something so my life won't be miserable. All my friends are going to university but I don't have anything that I'd like to study (at least I didn't find anything), also I don't have any financial support so I would have to probably work full time to provide for myself, I worked a lot of jobs from the age of 15 so that's not a problem but I don't think I'd be able to study and work full time effectively. I'm not the worst student, I can learn quite well if I actually care enough, but I wouldn't want to study something that I don't find interesting or helpful, cause it would be hard for me to find the motivation. I need to move out of my family house because it's mentally draining to live there, but I don't know where to go, I'm from Poland but I could move pretty much anywhere, I just need to figure out what to do. Currently I'm working a summer job, trying to save money for whatever I'll do next. I watched videos on YouTube and Tiktok and read reddit posts but I still have no idea what to do, at this point I'd like for someone to just choose a life path for me, it's tiring being constantly unsure of the future. Any advice is welcome, I need help

need something to cry to

She thinks it may be causing my "manic episodes" (she doesn't think I'm bipolar, just that I have some similar behaviours) so she prescribed me a lower dosage and now I'm dosing it lower and lower every week. Problem is, idk if it's really happening or if I'm making it up, since I'm aware that I'm taking a lower dosage now, but I feel more tired and just overall worse, like I'm becoming more and more how I was before I started to take them, and I don't want that, I don't want to spend all my time watching anime on my room with occasional breaks for staring at the ceiling, I don't want to miss out on everything and don't talk to my friends, I don't want to be so exhausted that even just existing is tiring. I wish I never mentioned anything about bipolar, I hate when I see everything as bad

thanks for reading my rant, wishing yall a not so sweaty summer

I'm about to get diagnosed and prescribed medications in a few days and I just wanted to know how do they work, what changed for you once you started them?

no specific style or anything I just crave to create something!!!

After being with men for years, discovering I'm a lesbian, finding out sex can actually feel really fucking good and going through a breakup, all I want is a girl to do things to me. Honestly, I'm sad lonely and whatnot but I'm also just so damn horny, I just want something lesbian to happen to me and it's so frustrating!!!! Damn this small fuckass city, all I got are masc lesbians tiktok thirst traps and my imagination

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thanks for reading my rant, going crazy over here

I started venlafaxin half a year ago and it's been so good so far, but after today I think I may have to change meds or change jobs, I barely made it trough the day because of how hot I was, thought I wad going to die wearing my work shirt, HOW ARE YOU LIVING LIKE THIS?? Also, on the topic of sweating, can I do anything about the night sweats? My last ex gen thought I pissed myself bc of how wet it was and now I'm scared to share a bed with anyone God help me

Life lately has been unbearable, it's literally painful to live, whatever I'm doing I'm so tired, irritated and just sad, I just don't want to be, so so much. Nothing is making me feel better, meds keep me somehow stable but I still just can't take it. I hate my life, I hate all of it, I can't enjoy the sun the food the friends I have, nothing, I can note in my head that something was nice or enjoyable but I can't feel it, none of the things I liked bring me real joy anymore, they're just things. I'm going to be transparent with you, I don't want to continue, I like my bosses at work and I don't want to leave them without a worker for the summer, but if nothing changes in 3 months, then I am going to go to a psychiatric hospital, and if that won't work as well, then ig that's the end. It's not that I don't want to live, I do, but every part of life brings me only pain, and why continue something painful with no reward. Anywho, stay safe guys and don't live too fast, enjoy the little things along the way if you can