Surviving the Guilt
Need encouragement to push through this divorce. I married him at 24, it has been 7 years. We have 2 young (under 6) kids together.
I know this is the right move for many reasons, including
-his refusal to get help for mental health problems (including bipolar disorder)
-his coldness to me at times, once insisted that he wouldn’t care if I died
-his aggressive sexual appetite during manic episodes. There were a couple instances of assault
-his inability to hold down a job or just be responsible at all including as a parent
-the substance abuse!! Alcoholism especially.
-his tendency to bring home tons of random animals without asking anyone. We’ve lost roommates over this. We currently have a scorpion
-his yelling and throwing things at me in front of the children
I know leaving is the right thing. We both have lawyers, we’re getting the divorce. I wouldn’t want to go back. But of course there were good times too, we went through so much together. And the kids love him so much. I can’t shake the immense feeling of guilt.
Can anyone relate? Any advice for moving forward?