u/samithefish

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I have eyes. I can see. I'm not stupid. Im not a baby. I don't vent to people because I hate hearing that shit like what the fuck is the point. Why convince me that I'm not ugly.

"Ew I look ugly" 🔁 translating 🔁 I don't look like a 10 right now

"I'm so fat" 🔁 translating 🔁 I don't look like a size 0

I genuinely hate ts because you know damn well you're not ugly

Yeah. Felt really left out. Stopped posting my face after that bc wdym that im so ugly even pdfs dont want me omfg.

On another hand I am kind of greatful for that

This is my opinion and experience, so feel free to disagree!

If I break my leg do I have to keep walking on it before a cast can be put on? NO.

The more I talk about my trauma, the more I remember it, and that makes it worse. Example: this happened in therapy a few sessions ago. Therapist was pressing me to come up with more stuck points. I already told her idk like 2 times. The more she asked me the more memories it brought. Things I had forgotten about my trauma. Now I remember them. And I ruminate about them even more than I did. What was the point of that shit? I am not more healed.

Another example: I was always depressed but after acknowledging the years and years and YEARS of trauma and abuse I had, it made me 50 times worse. I know its messed up to say but... ignorance is bliss sometimes. If I can't do anything about it, why keep talking about it? Talking about my abuse won't change it.

Of course they didn't say it directly. But it's happened multiple times. I've told my friends that guys only objectify me, only text me about sex, and they try so so so hard to convince me that the guys actually love me and their way of loving is just different.

I genuinely do believe it's because i'm ugly.These girls never do that themselves. They will literally drop a guy for wanting to have sex, yet when I say the guy is constantly texting me about it, ignoring when I say it makes me uncomfortable, they try and tell me that my insecurities are what make me view it that way. I think they know damn well that's objectifying. But they know that I don't get any attention. I've never been asked out. I've never had a real relationship. So they tell me to take these things.

I know I can be dramatic, saying things like "ugly girls don't get love" but it's true. I did end up giving one guy a chance and he SA me. As I suspected. It's just crazy to me that other women encourage me to let a man objectify me because it's all I will get.

When Clear Sky's jerk self attacks Gray Wing, Thunder, and Tall Shadow, they get help and end up attacking them in defense. Yes, many cats died because it was either kill or be killed, but I don't like how Tall Shadow and Thunder were reprimanded, when none of this would have happened if it weren't for Clear Sky!!!!!

If I say I want to lose weight to fit better in society, they tell me that my body doesn't determine my worth. When that's a damn lie.

If I say people don't like me, they tell me that it's my depression amplifying things. I'm pretty sure I'm not imagining things.

The #1 moment I remember that made me realize this was when I was in the mental hospital and my closest friend at the time just ghosted me(knowing i tried to end it mind you), and my therapist there was telling me I was thinking of worse case scenarios because I didn't KNOW she was ghosting me, and maybe something else happened. She became friends with one of the people who bullied me, around the same time she ghosted me. It's not rocket science. I was right. It's now been two years since we spoke.

But if the therapist had acknowledged my only friend ghosted me, she'd be acknowledging that the reason I tried to end it was true: because no one likes me. So she lied. When it was obvious. She lied. And I don't like that. At all.

"I don't believe compliments when I get them" I have never received a compliment in my whole fucking life, unless I say that I'm ugly first.

"I post my face and don't get a lot of likes" I don't post my face because when I did I got harassed.

Like istfg people like this are why people don't believe that ugly people exist. Because most people irl and online say "omg im so uglyyyy" and its megan fox. "Omg im so uglyyyy" and then the post thrist traps all day. Shut the fuck up. You know you aren't.

And im not ok with it.

I was always an extrovert, before it got shut down due to bullying. Literally me putting myself out there to try and make friends CAUSED MY BULLYING.

The same thing in high school. Now in college, same thing. I put myself out there but people just use me as a placeholder until they find someone better, or just ignore me. I went to a club i had wanted to go to all year and got blatantly ignored. BLATANTLY IGNORED.

I think its meant to be at this point.

I've always known that I was ugly. Not really hard to figure out when you get harrased for no fucking reason since grade school.

Anyways. I always have people say im annoying, or weird, etc, but then as soon as someone else pretty and skinnier does it, people LOVE those things. People love to claim its not because of my looks and im imagining it but what the fuck is it then? Am I just an unlikable person? Thats even worse because then I can't get surgery or anything to fix it.

I live on campus in college and I see them every day. They're so cute. I love them so much. I want to hug them. They're so fucking cute. I can't. I literally keep sobbing about it. They're so cute. They're the most precious little things ever. I literally love them so much.

There's kind of a stereotype that when a girl is unnatractive or has masculine features, she's a lesbian. (Because no man would like that ugly woman of course!)

I prefer women like 100% but I feel ashamed because of this.

Not like it matters though because im ugly so a relationship cant happen lmao

Hello. I changed my last name in August, but because of things going on I didn't get a chance to get an updated social security card. Its been almost a year, so I'm wondering if i'm still able to get a new card, and if the court papers have an "expiration" date.

Thank you!