البنت طبعا اجنبيه و مدري كانو يعرفون بعض زمان بس ما يهمني ، عذره انه رجال و انه كبير !؟؟
والله الواحد معد يدري وش يقول نسأل الله السلامه يوم شفت اللايك على صورة البنت كنت مصدومه بس زاد عندي ال idgaf
لاني اهتم براي الناس كثير نوعا ما و استحي دايما و اتفشل بس دام اني مارح اسوي شي غلط او حرام خلاص معد يهمني
وبس والله شكرا حبيت افضفض
ايش اسوي بالبيت !؟ خصوصا مقدر اطلع ولا اتعرف ولا شي وطول وقتي بالبيت عمدي صديقه وحده عايشه بنفس المدينه الباقيات برا يدرسون وماعندي حياه ولا شي ايش اسوي طفشت تخرجت قبل ثلاث سنوات والحين احاول اذاكر عشان اقدم بس خايفه من الاختبار وما احس اني مذاكره زين بليز هلب وش اسوي !؟ يعني مابي تابعي مسلسل ولا فلم لاني اهوجس طول الوقت ادعو لي ربي يفرجها علي وعلى الجميع يارب
افكر ابدا محتوى رسم في اليوتيوب بدون لحد يدري لانهم بيشغلون اهلي لو درو(اهلي) ويعني خلاص بالطقاق اذا كل شي ممنوع والله شسوي لكم
اليوم صار موقف حزني مو لي ولا علي لكن موقف محزن يوم شفته اتاثرت و بطني وجعني شويه بعدين جا في بالي "I have something to cry about later”
هل قد صار معكم كذا ؟
Since I graduated high school nothing seems to work good for me everything I do get cancelled on me not by my choice or something happens most of my friends are working or in college even my family members but I’m not allowed to because I’m a woman and I live in a very strict household My life is like it had stopped since I graduated high school it’s been three years since I graduated high school but I got in late so this year I’m turning 23 I feel useless I feel stupid I feel like my mother not gonna work at all in the future and I’m gonna be stuck in a place I don’t want to be in and I’m gonna be someone I never wanted to be what am I supposed to do? I feel helpless And I can’t joking with you and start living by my own , and as I mentioned I’m not I’m not to work the only word that I am I love to do the work that my parents are not gonna find out about so basically behind their back i’m sad and bored every day, and I cry myself to sleep I’m not suicidal but I wish I could die
بدون
I’m not going to show you how my drawing look like so u have high hopes and get shocked by reality
I know how to hold the hook and I’m kinda begging but i can’t crochet more idk how to explain it but more freely!? I can only follow a tut step by step i cant just read the process and do it and its so hard … how did u get better at it ?
When i was in second grade i had all As in every subject Except English i got B
It wasn’t bad but u wanted all As
So I started crying in front of everyone and he got mad and started yelling and shutting me
Im now 23
And i have a sister in high school
When shy cry about something he start talking about how we should treat her right and respect her emotions
I wasn’t raised like this at all so showing emotions is not something i can do or comfortable doing
And all of sudden like this ??
I actually hate hoe he treats us differently
And i had already talked to him about it but he keeps saying that he love us just the same ….
I kinda started to think that maybe he doesn’t like me and thats okay
Since i was a kid i was forced to finish my plate I also had a weak immune system so i was going to the hospital every other month
My father forced me to eat a lot cuz i was weak and du to his younger brother having a very bad fever that lead to him being a disabled
So I guess he was just scared that anything bad would happen
But i used ti eat a lot to the point I’ll throw up
Im older now but from time to time i still over eat to that point
How did u overcome such a thing if u had ?
You could say we just don’t get a long
Everyone i had a crush on was an entp
I’m just gonna leave that here
I genuinely fine with the im old and Virgin and I don’t see as an insult or a complaint the thing that bothers me is how disgusting it is to me to have sex ….
I like men and i get horny and all the shit but when I think about the whole sex thing it doesn’t sound comfortable or appealing
Cuz i hate how I smell when im sweaty and i really dont think so I would be happy smelling someone else
Is this normal due to being virgin or am i asexual or wtf?
اختباري قرب وانا مو مذاكره زين اذاكر اذاكر ويصيبني احباط و اوقف معد اقدر اسوي شي انا خايفه افشل في الاختبار و ما انقبل في الجامعه
بليز احتاج اي شي اي كلام اي خرابيط
بطني تعبت من كثر التوتر و التفكير و جسمي تقريبا كله شوي يوجعني فيه حاجه
كل الي حولي يقولون لي من التوتر
I actually need some help
I don’t know how to say it or stop it
I be sitting with family/friends/or even online
Talking with them having fun laughing like there is no tomorrow and all the fun shit
And i say something stupid or weird and the other person would look at me and say
W.. what !? What do u mean
Then i over explain everything
It turns awkward
Even if i didn’t i sometimes end up being called weird in the conversation
Thats that but the other thing is
I regret everything i said and i wish that i didn’t even talk to anyone all the time when im done having fun with anyone
It started to make me want to stop socializing with others
I want a way to stop this and i actually need help
Idk if this important or not but i am very shy/awkward person so that also may be a reason
Ii help around the house a lot (not forced) my mom is kinda old so i like to help her and shit Im tho not the best person at everything so i tend to ask her a Lot to get the job done (not in everything I swear 😭)
Today i was cutting some salad and she told me to be carful with a legume cuz the leaves are a bit tingly
I was carful and everything but i wanted to make sure cuz im not going to eat it she will so I asked her can u come and make sure it’s eatable?
And then she hit me with the “ how are u going to live like that!? What if u got married!? What is he going to say!?”
Idk mom maybe idc!? Maybe it’s not a bog deal !?
They most the time treat me like a future project for my husband
Can i live !?
Its not that deep but why would my future husband make a big deal out if it !? And why should i care !?
But it doesn’t matter cuz she said that this is live and men are like this
Just dude what ….!!