u/tyrattu

Koristim Upwork ali imaju li neke naše lokalne? I šta je sa freelance.hr? Nikako da mi potvrde profil.

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Not really a genre. More specific than that. For example, Beautiful Mystery. It’s synthpop, and it gives me a 2012-2015 internet music feel. I don't know how to describe it. The way the melody goes and the insane amount of reverb make you feel like you're in a space where everything is moving somewhat fast but in a really beautiful way. It makes you feel like you’re traveling through the cosmos or watching a starry night.

fuck this world man. I fucking hate how backwards this world works sometimes. I did not deserve any of this and to feel so lonely in it. The problem is not that I'm too shy and sensitive. The problem is that I'm shy and sensitive BECAUSE I'm looking... ugly and weird. That's just the fucking truth nobody tells you, everyone just tells you to fight back.

I'm remembering high school. Everything was so confusing for me. Why do people talk to me like a child? (it's because I have a baby face). Why can't we just simply address bullying? (of course that has a reason too). High school was supposed to be the best years of my life, but it was not. Why? Because I had to completely change the appearance of my face because the bullies "should not be nicer because they will not fit in and they will be the ones that are bullied". Of course, everything bad that anyone has done to me has a reason and "could not be avoided otherwise". That makes me guilty... for not just simply figuring it out... are we for real? for bullies = "it's just who they are don't mind themmmm" for me = "she should be different, her quietness is bad, her look is bad, her sensitivity is bad, whatever she says is ridiculously funny and I have to bully her for that, the way she deals with bullying is funny, the way she doesn't just simply understand the hierarchy is bad. She's just so stupid and must change herself because I can not change the bullies."

I'm remembering high school. Everything was so confusing for me. Why do people talk to me like a child? (it's because I have a baby face). Why can't we just simply address bullying? (of course that has a reason too). High school was supposed to be the best years of my life, but it was not. Why? Because I had to completely change the appearance of my face because the bullies "should not be nicer because they will not fit in and they will be the ones that are bullied". Of course, everything bad that anyone has done to me has a reason and "could not be avoided otherwise". That makes me guilty... for not just simply figuring it out... are we for real? for bullies = "it's just who they are don't mind themmmm" for me = "she should be different, her quietness is bad, her look is bad, her sensitivity is bad, whatever she says is ridiculously funny and I have to bully her for that, the way she deals with bullying is funny, the way she doesn't just simply understand the hierarchy is bad. She's just so stupid and must change herself because I can not change the bullies."

I'm remembering high school. Everything was so confusing for me. Why do people talk to me like a child? (it's because I have a baby face). Why can't we just simply address bullying? (of course that has a reason too). High school was supposed to be the best years of my life, but it was not. Why? Because I had to completely change the appearance of my face because the bullies "should not be nicer because they will not fit in and they will be the ones that are bullied". Of course, everything bad that anyone has done to me has a reason and "could not be avoided otherwise". That makes me guilty... for not just simply figuring it out... are we for real? for bullies = "it's just who they are don't mind themmmm" for me = "she should be different, her quietness is bad, her look is bad, her sensitivity is bad, whatever she says is ridiculously funny and I have to bully her for that, the way she deals with bullying is funny, the way she doesn't just simply understand the hierarchy is bad. She's just so stupid and must change herself because I can not change the bullies."

I'm remembering high school. Everything was so confusing for me. Why do people talk to me like a child? (it's because I have a baby face). Why can't we just simply address bullying? (of course that has a reason too). High school was supposed to be the best years of my life, but it was not. Why? Because I had to completely change the appearance of my face because the bullies "should not be nicer because they will not fit in and they will be the ones that are bullied". Of course, everything bad that anyone has done to me has a reason and "could not be avoided otherwise". That makes me guilty... for not just simply figuring it out... are we for real? for bullies = "it's just who they are don't mind themmmm" for me = "she should be different, her quietness is bad, her look is bad, her sensitivity is bad, whatever she says is ridiculously funny and I have to bully her for that, the way she deals with bullying is funny, the way she doesn't just simply understand the hierarchy is bad. She's just so stupid and must change herself because I can not change the bullies."

I'm remembering high school. Everything was so confusing for me. Why do people talk to me like a child? (it's because I have a baby face). Why can't we just simply address bullying? (of course that has a reason too). High school was supposed to be the best years of my life, but it was not. Why? Because I had to completely change the appearance of my face because the bullies "should not be nicer because they will not fit in and they will be the ones that are bullied". Of course, everything bad that anyone has done to me has a reason and "could not be avoided otherwise". That makes me guilty... for not just simply figuring it out... are we for real? for bullies = "it's just who they are don't mind themmmm" for me = "she should be different, her quietness is bad, her look is bad, her sensitivity is bad, whatever she says is ridiculously funny and I have to bully her for that, the way she deals with bullying is funny, the way she doesn't just simply understand the hierarchy is bad. She's just so stupid and must change herself because I can not change the bullies."

Ughhh if I start venting about it, it will take so much typing. But I'll just be short. I'm remembering high school. Everything was so confusing for me. Why do people talk to me like a child? (it's because I have a baby face). Why can't we just simply address bullying? (of course that has a reason too). High school was supposed to be the best years of my life, but it was not. Why - because i had to completetly contour my face because the bullies "should not be nicer because they will not fit in and they will be the ones that are bullied". Of course, everything bad that anyone has done to me has a reason and "could not be avoided otherwise". That makes me guilty... for not just simply figuring it out... are we for real? for bullies = "it's just who they are don't mind themmmm" for me = "she should be different, her quietness is bad, her look is bad, her sensitivity is bad, whatever she says is ridiculously funny and I have to bully her for that, the way she deals with bullying is funny, the way she doesn't just simply understand the hierarchy is bad. She's just so stupid and must change herself because I can not change the bullies."

So I'm choosing a different degree. I label myself as a "creative person rather than logical" 🤔 and plan to study Financial + Marketing Management in Economics. It's still 70% math, 30% creativity. Creativity doesn't pay the bills in my poor country. Mixing logic+creativity seems like a good balance (but exhausting?). There are two voices in me: 1. You'll prove you can do it, and you can be a logical person when needed; 2. You will burn out, it'll consume your energy, you'll struggle a lot with math. I know MBTI psychology theory so deeply, and I know our way of thinking changes with the course of life, so even though I'm INFP, I can become a more balanced person, creative+logical... I still fear burnout and wrong choice.

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So I'm choosing a different degree. I label myself as a "creative person rather than logical" (y'know, INFP). I plan to study Financial + Marketing Management at Economics. It's still 70% math 30% creativity. Creativity doesn't pay the bills in my poor country. Mixing logic+creativity seems like a good balance (but exhausting?). There are two voices in me: 1. You'll prove you can do it, and you can be a logical person when needed; 2. You will burn out, it'll consume your energy, you'll struggle a lot at math. I know MBTI psychology theory so deeply and I know our way of thinking changes with the course of life, so even though I'm INFP I can even become a more balanced person, creative+logical... I still fear burnout and wrong choice.

Sorry if this seems off topic fot this subreddit but I want your point of view on this.

So I'm choosing a different degree. I label myself as a "creative person rather than logical" 🤔 and plan to study Financial + Marketing Management at Economics. It's still 70% math 30% creativity. Creativity doesn't pay the bills in my poor country. Mixing logic+creativity seems like a good balance (but exhausting?). There are two voices in me: 1. You'll prove you can do it, and you can be a logical person when needed; 2. You will burn out, it'll consume your energy, you'll struggle a lot at math. I know MBTI psychology theory so deeply and I know our way of thinking changes with the course of life, so even though I'm INFP I can even become a more balanced person, creative+logical... I still fear burnout and wrong choice.

So I'm choosing a different study. I label myself as a "creative person rather than logical" 🤔 and plan to study Financial + Marketing Management at Economics. It's still 70% math 30% creativity. Creativity doesn't pay the bills in my poor country. Mixing logic+creativity seems like a good balance (but exhausting?). There are two voices in me: 1. You can do it, u can be a logical person when needed; 2. You will burn out, it'll consume your energy, you'll struggle a lot at math. I know MBTI so deeply and I know our way of thinking changes with the course of life, so even though I'm INFP I can even become a more balanced person, creative+logical... I still fear burnout and wrong choice.

So there's a lot to go into, but this will sum it up: INFPs strengths don't pay, they're not executive, in stable and continuous demand... inferior Te doesn't pay the bills. However, real growth, happiness and satisfaction (inside + outside) happens when we balance logic and emotion. The best businesses understand feeling and logic both. I'm planning to study "Financial + Marketing Management" at Economics. Even if it'll be 80% logic (I can't lose my INFP 🤷🏻‍♀️ ) I'd choose that over what's comfortable = doesn't teach me anything NEW. Logic also manages studying + time better. Hence, it's a skill itself. You study math for much shorter when you're focused.

Do you agree? What do u study? Also there's not much choice for infp degrees (and jobs!) in my country (they're either overly expensive or hard to get in).

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Posebno razmišljam kako ću matematički dio izgurati. Nisam imala matematiku u srednjoj. Nisam neki "logički" tip, više kreativni, ali ovo mi se čini kao najbolji studij za ono što ja želim a koji će mi dati sigurnost u pronalasku posla. Bavim se dizajnom ali u ovo vrijeme moja budućnost je nesigurna, zato hoću da mogu izabrati razne poslove. Znam da će mi "logičko" razmišljanje i matematika uvijek biti veliki plus, ali može li se izgurati na efsa? Kako se vi snalazite?