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I have bought so many ink plums looking for my girl. I bought a box today because tomorrow is my birthday and I FINALLY GOT HER

TW: Body Issues

After having my daughter, my body changed significantly. She's about to be four and of course I have been healing and taking care of myself and my body, but some days are way harder than others. I'm in my luteal, and my husband was taking my daughter to the pool. We were all supposed to go together but I haven't left the house outside of work in days because I feel too giant and hideous to be seen in public. So I lied. I told him I wanted to clean and didn't feel.well but I.honestly didn't want to be seen out in a bathing suit. And this lie SUCKS because now I also have to clean.

Anyways, here's my sad girl linner while my daughter and husband are swimming and enjoying the sun

ETA: I know it's self-centered I know it's not the right thing to do. I have recovered from a lot of body issues that I've had for a long time. I grew up in a very diet culture heavy home, and I will not wrap my daughter into something like that. For those of you telling me to make changes if I'm unhappy, I am five pounds away from my pre baby weight, I workout consistently. But my body is just DIFFERENT. I can't just go and get surgery. I don't want this to be misconstrued as wanting to be coddled, but your whole entire everything changes after you have a baby, and I still think I'm 60 pounds heavier than I actually am. I can't unsee it. I'm in therapy, I'm medicated, I'm doing everything. I'm just having a day of weakness, and yes I shouldn't have lied, but I didn't want to have the conversation.

I still want this secret so bad but these are so cute and I love them

Retail brand:olive and June. These are WAY too curvy but they look so cute

Thank you!

TW: child abuse, death, mental health.

I had to add a beta blocker to my brain cocktail due to a terrible flair up I have had. In a neighboring area, a young girl had been reported missing by her mom, then it turned out she was actually dead for a month. Her parents used chemicals on her body and put her in a river. The baby was only four. She was beautiful, she was my daughter's age, and I can't stop thinking about her. My heart feels so sad but also I'm so scared because what If one day I'm capable of doing that to my child? I know it's silly to worry about, but I can't stop worrying about it. I wish there was more that could be done.

Last night, my daughter woke up freaking out because there was "smoke in her room". I couldn't see it so I turned the light on and she said she only sees it when it's dark so like I turned the light off and we realize it's the tulle from her bathing suit we put on her dresser for today reflecting on her nightlight. I held her and told her thank you for calling mommy when you were scared, even if you think something is silly you always just call your mommy. I left her room thinking that we are her safe space , that little girl looked at her parents as her safe space, and they weren't .

My heart is just breaking for this little girl I didn't know, and I can't stop following the case. I'm in therapy, I'm taking my meds, I just wish this world wasn't so ugly.

I worked in a military prison two duty stations ago and it was the only Cat 3 prison for females and it was also the sex offender prison for males. That place completely destroyed my faith in humanity but also ignored a fear because all of these people doing terrible things look like normal people. The mom who did this to her baby was 39 weeks pregnant, she looked normal, she was 23. What brings a person to do such a thing to a child? At her bond hearing her nails were done and they were gold and in my brain I just kept thinking about how you could just go get your nails done? Idk. I'm sorry I know this post doesn't make sense, this space feels safer than most because it's anonymous and I just need to pour this out. I'm talking to my husband and my support system and loving my baby bean extra hard.

I'm sorry again, I hope that people don't think I'm just a Debby downer since most of my posts are whiny, sometimes I just need to vent and get things out of my brain

Nails are so expensive and I'm so excited but this was definitely a process lol.

Retail brand: Una gela- milky jelly muse

I just finished this book and oh my God. I don't even know where to begin, this book was so captivating and had a terrible beautiful sadness through Margots narration. By the end of this book I was in tears, I couldn't put this book down. Please please read

My husband asked my daughter if he could put something on for me and him while she was coloring. She goes umm no probably not and he's like well that's not fair you're coloring and she goes ummmm well it's fair for me. I laughed so hard. It's so hard to correct shit like what because WHAT DO YOU MEAN. She's 3 and a Libra so pray for me

TW: SH/SA. I'm in the military, I have been for 11 years. Now in a leadership position and having younger women under me, they come to me often especially if they have some personal things going on. I have a girl RN who went through something very similar to what I went through about 2 years ago. Essentially I was sexually assaulted by a coworker, so I avoided him and then he brought me in a room with all of our peers (telling me it was a mandatory meeting) and made me say what my "problem" was with him. I crashed out, and said what happened. He then filed a sexual harassment case against me for lewd comments in the workplace. I was under investigation for 1 year (unsubstantiated) I now have to still see him everywhere, and was told I can't file a report against him since it would be seen as retaliation. I even wrote in my legal statement what happened but they wouldn't investigate it because "that wasn't what they were after". Before anyone asks, I'm still in because I want to stand up for women and be the leader I needed as a junior, and hopefully make it better l. I have a terrible reputation with most aggressive men I work near, so in my opinion I'm doing a good job. Idk I guess talking to the one girl about her stuff just brought up so many things and I'm thinking about how fucked it is to be a woman. Anyways koko ramen and my new fave ollipop while I watch bluey with my daughter and my husband

Y'all I bought these off olive young and my skin just looked amazing this morning!!!!! They felt so nice and refreshing and I really am like obsessed with them. Please buy them