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this might sound like an exaggeration but this heat is 100% draining me out unless I'm in an ac room and I am not finding the energy to do anything absolutely anything other than having icy beverages or good food ..like I love performing and got a programme this saturday and I simply don't have it in me to practice or even workout and I can't go about my regular day routine anymore I've stopped leaving my house altogether especially in the day, even in the evening I went on a walk to run some errands and there was no breeze and i came home all exhausted again, like this is getting worse and worse Si

this might sound like an exaggeration but this heat is 100% draining me out unless I'm in an ac room and I am not finding the energy to do anything absolutely anything other than having icy beverages or good food ..like I love performing and got a programme this saturday and I simply don't have it in me to practice or even workout and I can't go about my regular day routine anymore I've stopped leaving my house altogether especially in the day, even in the evening I went on a walk to run some errands and there was no breeze and i came home all exhausted again, like this is getting worse and worse

I can't tell if this is a cry for help or another silly confession but I believe so many of us are doing it wrong, not objectively.

Ideally you can do whatever you WANT. But, do we always get to do what we actually WANT. Personally, ever since I was a kid I have been always told what to do and what not to, and two decades later i realised i no longer even know what i truly want, though I've been slowly figuring it out and I'm scared its unconventional.

Coming from a conventional household, I have grown up with several restrictions and i still do , and there are n number of things I'm simply not allowed to do. I'm not free.

But, is anyone truly free in this capitalist society?

Aren't we all slaves to this hustle culture setup where you have to assemble your achievements, strive to be at the peak and make as much money you can and be productive 24/7 because ofc your worth is latched to your productivity and if you aren't constantly performing to fit the societal standards you're inferior?

We all have been collectively brainwashed to surrender ourselves to this screwed society.

If you're someone reading this, distressed from performing and constantly apprehensive this is your sign to take a deep breath and do more of what makes you feel alive.

Let's not be Gregor Samsa. I probably sound very delusional making these confessions but idk, I don't want to keep living a life where I can't be truly free and do what I love and instead live in a society where my worth is emphasized more on my morals.

I can't tell if this is a cry for help or another silly confession but I believe so many of us are doing it wrong, not objectively.

Ideally you can do whatever you WANT. But, do we always get to do what we actually WANT. Personally, ever since I was a kid I have been always told what to do and what not to, and two decades later i realised i no longer even know what i truly want, though I've been slowly figuring it out and I'm scared its unconventional.

Coming from a conventional household, I have grown up with several restrictions and i still do , and there are n number of things I'm simply not allowed to do. I'm not free.

But, is anyone truly free in this capitalist society?

Aren't we all slaves to this hustle culture setup where you have to assemble your achievements, strive to be at the peak and make as much money you can and be productive 24/7 because ofc your worth is latched to your productivity and if you aren't constantly performing to fit the societal standards you're inferior?

We all have been collectively brainwashed to surrender ourselves to this screwed society.

If you're someone reading this, distressed from performing and constantly apprehensive this is your sign to take a deep breath and do more of what makes you feel alive.

Let's not be Gregor Samsa. I probably sound very delusional making these confessions but idk, I don't want to keep living a life where I can't be truly free and do what I love and instead live in a society where my worth is emphasized more on my morals.

I can't tell if this is a cry for help or another silly confession but I believe so many of us are doing it wrong, not objectively.

Ideally you can do whatever you WANT. But, do we always get to do what we actually WANT. Personally, ever since I was a kid I have been always told what to do and what not to, and two decades later i realised i no longer even know what i truly want, though I've been slowly figuring it out and I'm scared its unconventional.

Coming from a conventional household, I have grown up with several restrictions and i still do , and there are n number of things I'm simply not allowed to do. I'm not free.

But, is anyone truly free in this capitalist society?

Aren't we all slaves to this hustle culture setup where you have to assemble your achievements, strive to be at the peak and make as much money you can and be productive 24/7 because ofc your worth is latched to your productivity and if you aren't constantly performing to fit the societal standards you're inferior?

We all have been collectively brainwashed to surrender ourselves to this screwed society.

If you're someone reading this, distressed from performing and constantly apprehensive this is your sign to take a deep breath and do more of what makes you feel alive.

Let's not be Gregor Samsa. I probably sound very delusional making these confessions but idk, I don't want to keep living a life where I can't be truly free and do what I love and instead live in a society where my worth is emphasized more on my morals.

This morning I experienced something that genuinely spooked me out and I still can’t process it properly.

Imagine walking into a room, looking into a mirror, and suddenly seeing yourself smiling in an extremely creepy way — something you would never normally do. The kind of smile that instantly makes you feel like something is deeply wrong with you. I remember feeling dizzy from the way I got scared because I looked into the mirror and knew the person that was staring back at me wasn't me.

Then I tried leaving the room and the next moment I partially opened my eyes and realized I was still lying in bed.

I tried getting up. I tried calling my parents for help because I could literally feel that something was wrong. But every single time, I’d “wake up,” try moving again, and then realize I was still in the exact same position on the bed.

This happened over and over again.

At one point, in what felt like another dream layer, there was some family gathering going on in the house. Everyone was busy and I was weirdly distant from everybody, behaving in ways I normally never would. I was trying to communicate that something was wrong with me, but nobody was noticing. Then again, I partially opened my eyes, tried getting up with full effort, and once more realized I hadn’t moved at all.

It felt like I was stuck in some endless loop where I kept thinking I had finally woken up, but I actually hadn’t. I kinda remember although not vividly that this one guy i had rivalry casted a spell on me and because of him i was suffering sm.

I tried speaking so that I can assemble people and talk about it since i could not move but couldn’t. Tried moving again but couldn’t. It genuinely felt like I was chained to the bed.

Being someone who has experienced sleep paralysis before, I know what it usually feels like. But this was different. I couldn’t even tell whether I was dreaming or actually awake. It felt less like sleep paralysis and more like I was trapped inside some bizarre curse or glitch in reality.

And the scariest part is that during moments like these, I genuinely feel like I’m not going to make it out.

Eventually I finally woke up properly, but I was exhausted afterward. My body hurt from lying in the same position for so long and from constantly trying to force myself awake.

I still can’t comprehend how the brain even comes up with scenarios like this.

I EVEN STOPPED WATCHING HORROR MOVIES TO AVOID GETTING THESE WEIRD EPISODES, I USED TO GET SOME EERIE DREAMS IN THE PAST BUT NOW IT SEEMS MY BRAIN IS A HUB OF HORROR ELEMENTS

This morning I experienced something that genuinely spooked me out and I still can’t process it properly.

Imagine walking into a room, looking into a mirror, and suddenly seeing yourself smiling in an extremely creepy way — something you would never normally do. The kind of smile that instantly makes you feel like something is deeply wrong with you. I remember feeling dizzy from the way I got scared because I looked into the mirror and knew the person that was staring back at me wasn't me.

Then I tried leaving the room and the next moment I partially opened my eyes and realized I was still lying in bed.

I tried getting up. I tried calling my parents for help because I could literally feel that something was wrong. But every single time, I’d “wake up,” try moving again, and then realize I was still in the exact same position on the bed.

This happened over and over again.

At one point, in what felt like another dream layer, there was some family gathering going on in the house. Everyone was busy and I was weirdly distant from everybody, behaving in ways I normally never would. I was trying to communicate that something was wrong with me, but nobody was noticing. Then again, I partially opened my eyes, tried getting up with full effort, and once more realized I hadn’t moved at all.

It felt like I was stuck in some endless loop where I kept thinking I had finally woken up, but I actually hadn’t. I kinda remember although not vividly that this one guy i had rivalry casted a spell on me and because of him i was suffering sm.

I tried speaking so that I can assemble people and talk about it since i could not move but couldn’t. Tried moving again but couldn’t. It genuinely felt like I was chained to the bed.

Being someone who has experienced sleep paralysis before, I know what it usually feels like. But this was different. I couldn’t even tell whether I was dreaming or actually awake. It felt less like sleep paralysis and more like I was trapped inside some bizarre curse or glitch in reality.

And the scariest part is that during moments like these, I genuinely feel like I’m not going to make it out.

Eventually I finally woke up properly, but I was exhausted afterward. My body hurt from lying in the same position for so long and from constantly trying to force myself awake.

I still can’t comprehend how the brain even comes up with scenarios like this.

I EVEN STOPPED WATCHING HORROR MOVIES TO AVOID GETTING THESE WEIRD EPISODES, I USED TO GET SOME EERIE DREAMS IN THE PAST BUT NOW IT SEEMS MY BRAIN IS A HUB OF HORROR ELEMENTS

This morning I experienced something that genuinely spooked me out and I still can’t process it properly.

Imagine walking into a room, looking into a mirror, and suddenly seeing yourself smiling in an extremely creepy way — something you would never normally do. The kind of smile that instantly makes you feel like something is deeply wrong with you. I remember feeling dizzy from the way I got scared because I looked into the mirror and knew the person that was staring back at me wasn't me.

Then I tried leaving the room and the next moment I partially opened my eyes and realized I was still lying in bed.

I tried getting up. I tried calling my parents for help because I could literally feel that something was wrong. But every single time, I’d “wake up,” try moving again, and then realize I was still in the exact same position on the bed.

This happened over and over again.

At one point, in what felt like another dream layer, there was some family gathering going on in the house. Everyone was busy and I was weirdly distant from everybody, behaving in ways I normally never would. I was trying to communicate that something was wrong with me, but nobody was noticing. Then again, I partially opened my eyes, tried getting up with full effort, and once more realized I hadn’t moved at all.

It felt like I was stuck in some endless loop where I kept thinking I had finally woken up, but I actually hadn’t. I kinda remember although not vividly that this one guy i had rivalry casted a spell on me and because of him i was suffering sm.

I tried speaking so that I can assemble people and talk about it since i could not move but couldn’t. Tried moving again but couldn’t. It genuinely felt like I was chained to the bed.

Being someone who has experienced sleep paralysis before, I know what it usually feels like. But this was different. I couldn’t even tell whether I was dreaming or actually awake. It felt less like sleep paralysis and more like I was trapped inside some bizarre curse or glitch in reality.

And the scariest part is that during moments like these, I genuinely feel like I’m not going to make it out.

Eventually I finally woke up properly, but I was exhausted afterward. My body hurt from lying in the same position for so long and from constantly trying to force myself awake.

I still can’t comprehend how the brain even comes up with scenarios like this.

I EVEN STOPPED WATCHING HORROR MOVIES TO AVOID GETTING THESE WEIRD EPISODES, I USED TO GET SOME EERIE DREAMS IN THE PAST BUT NOW IT SEEMS MY BRAIN IS A HUB OF HORROR ELEMENTS

idk WHY tf do parents of toddlers feel so freaking entitled in public places and transport, like YOUR kid is your liability and if they are messing around with others??it's YOUR responsibility to take care of it, like none of us are going to sit here and bear with that and ofc I'm not going to step up and scold your kid, and you sit there thinking you own the place or something,ts is so annoying and then we don't allow pets in certain transport although fur babies barely creating a ruckus

When the devil couldn't reach me, so he made sure I felt out of place and misunderstood in every room i walked into....

I always kinda feel misjudged and hated by people and idk what have I done wrong to deserve this

I got to perform in a programme two weeks from now, and I want to drape this saree i bought recently, I have only performed in bharatnatyam costumes and lehengas/ghagras before and some people are actively discouraging me stating I won't be able to conduct the dance performance properly in the saree, when I'm kinda skeptical myself..is it that difficult to perform in it?😭

i might end up getting bashed by redditors because everyone here seems hyper realistic lmao but idc, have been pondering over this question lately that if you post yourself, and your close friends ignore that and not ignore with your posts does it seem to tell you something is off like they don't care or something, if they just scroll through whatever you post and not engage with anything, they don't even hit a like, isn't that a dead giveaway that they aren't invested in your? I get it that people are caught up in their own lives blah blah, but if they are mostly out there, seeing stuff and can't even afford a second in 24 h doesn't it mean something?

Probably i contemplate of it this way, because I make it a point to engage with their posts and hype them, and for me it's something important.

So around 3-4 months ago, i began my fitness journey with a pair of 20 kg dumbbells and touch wood, it's going well so far..due to some personal reasons, I can't join gym yet, but my growing concern atm is I'm soon about to hit the limit with my dumbbells and initially i bought it thinking it's a good beginner weight but tbh I want to attain progressive overload and ensure my strength increases but that's not possible if I remain stuck with this.

Could someone kindly offer potential solutions on how to cope with this and keep strength training without having to purchase heavier dumbbells because that may not be the long term solution and also space issue, is there something i can do to pursue my strength training, honestly all sorts of advices are welcome ..and for some context,in case this piece of info matters im 21

a bitter realisation that I had of late was how everything around is so deeply rooted in patriarchy and most things we see around are also owned and operated by men so obviously, it's easier for men to connect and network with other men, which i can't do as easily as a woman I believe, because a lot of men assume you're hitting on them if you behave nicely and try to initiate conversationa so I mostly stay non verbal around them which also results in me being more disconnected from things in the real world, i probably sound crazy and stupid saying this but idk if I could convey my point