u/Away_Emergency_7832

It has been over 9 months since my wife died, and I lost my appetite.I'm completely Done with this I hate life.I hate it and miss my wife so bad.Why do I have to be here

I was sick for a few weeks back in April. May I kept telling the doctor I was in the hospital? I went to the ER I went to the hospital. The doctor a total of 7 different times because I kept not feeling well, I told them and they kept saying, oh, you're just grieving your wife, you're fine. Your potassium's a little low. But you're fine. So May 8th I had a heart attack and died for minutes. Because I have an infection. They said it was in my blood.Monday morning, they did a catheterization, heart and they said everything was good. They said we're Going to send you home because everything's fine.They put me on a beta-blocker, a blood pressure pill, and maybe a blood thinner.The day I got home from the hospital I've been feeling pretty good except for the last few weeks today. It's really bad. It feels like sandpaper in my arm and chest. I will not go back to the doctor because I'm tired of what they did kept playing around and kept playing around. I'm breathing, OK, but I'm coughing. I feel lightheaded a lot today. And it's just, I've been very fatigued the past few weeks, I just when I do stuff, it hurts more.is there something wrong with my heart?What's bad?I won't go to the doctor I can't.Is there anything that I can do

I was sick for a few weeks back in April. May I kept telling the doctor I was in the hospital? I went to the ER I went to the hospital. The doctor a total of 7 different times because I kept not feeling well, I told them and they kept saying, oh, you're just grieving your wife, you're fine. Your potassium's a little low. But you're fine. So May 8th I had a heart attack and died for minutes. Because I have an infection. They said it was in my blood.Monday morning, they did a catheterization, heart and they said everything was good. They said we're Going to send you home because everything's fine.They put me on a beta-blocker, a blood pressure pill, and maybe a blood thinner.The day I got home from the hospital I've been feeling pretty good except for the last few weeks today. It's really bad. It feels like sandpaper in my arm and chest. I will not go back to the doctor because I'm tired of what they did kept playing around and kept playing around. I'm breathing, OK, but I'm coughing. I feel lightheaded a lot today. And it's just, I've been very fatigued the past few weeks, I just when I do stuff, it hurts more.is there something wrong with my heart?What's bad?I won't go to the doctor I can't.Is there anything that I can do

Why are we on this Earth?Why was we created?Why explain it to me please?I been to church over and over again different churches.I'm 50 years old.Why do we put on this Earth? Send, when are spouses die We become devastated Some people chose to move on other people like me are devastated and don't wanna be here, why do they do this? Why does this universe take our beautiful wife from us and we have to sit here and be in misery without her why please answer that nobody knows they all think that the Bible's the way to go. Well, where the hell is he at?It's not real.I've been begging and praying for him this whole time.And I'm in constant living hell, because my wife isn't here. WHY . I missed my angel so bad.I love my wife and she had to die

My wife died a little over 9 months ago 44. Why does it feel like I'm being punished? I'm in misery living in hell every day since my wife died, and nothing's helping it all I do is cry. My wife's wife. And I have to stay in this stupid world without her, why?Why did my wife die

I had a heart attack that stopped my heart on May 8th I was intubated, my heart stopped 3 minutes. They said, I had an infection, I was released after a clean catheterization on May 11th, since then, I have not taken any heart medicine. They gave me blood pressure pills and beta-blockers.Since july third I have had lightheaded dizzy Fatigue, chest pains left arm pain, shocking pain. When I do stuff, it hurts sometimes in the morning. S and even in during the day when I'm working when I'm resting, my heart jumps from like a 100 down to 50 to back up. Then down, then back up-and-down in my heart app.The doctor told me to use says my HR v numbers are always messed up. My heart rates always different.Just sitting and resting and my rmssd 12. I don't know what the numbers mean.Or they concerning, I don't want no doctor again.I refuse to go.How long can I keep this up?Will it get better on its own?If I just ignore it

My heart stopped May 8th May 11th I stopped my medicine.\nIs this concerning?Will it make me have another heart attack again?The last thirty five days I have had lightheaded dizziness , wipily wobbly filling electric Shocks My chest left arm when I do activities. It's been hurting worse. The doctor told me to use this app to check my rhythm. It's been going really crazy. It doesn't sit still when I check it. It's bouncing up-and-down my R. MSSD numbers. Are really low in my HR VS really low.I don't want no doctor will my heart get better on its own.If I just rest or is it getting worse

I just turned 50 this march I lost my spouse. We were together 13 years. She was 44 years old, had a heart attack and died in our bedroom. At 2 o'clock in the morning at 1:30 in the morning, she talked to me. She said, please don't go to work if you go to work. You're not going to come home, you can't let go of me please don't let go of me. I love you if you go. I'll miss you. You can't go. Then , twenty minutes later , she was in cardiac arrest. We were together 13 years, she Drove concrete mixer with me in 2013.We work together the moment I saw her.I was married to my ex.She was married to her Very abusive ex-husband in 2013I found her again and I drove all the way down to Kentucky, 650 miles. And we stayed together ever since we got married 10 years, which was April 16th 2023, when was our 10 years anniversary the first time I called her, I know she's my soul mate, because I really liked her when we were Coworkers that we didn't mess around because we Was\n Faithful to our exes, even though she was abused really bad by Him. When my wife died, I lost 60 pound plus I had 2 heart attacks, one fatal that stopped my heart in May. Did anybody ever lose a spouse? How did you cope I'm having a heck of it time.I miss my angels so bad and I just i'm lonely and I can't cheat on my wife I love My wife so much

I have been struggling the last 9 months, therapy and grief counseling. None of that's helping my day too. Day, things are going okay like going to work. But I'm crying more and more at work. I'm getting more angry like I said nothing's working. Nothing's helping. I don't want to be here. I don't know what else to do. My body's just failing me, I'm getting sicker and sicker in my heart, because my wife died. She's by everything. She's 44 years old, and it literally killed me, I had 2 heart attacks. One of them killed me ma literally dead 3 minutes in May and I gave up my medicine. The last 20 days or so, it's been really bad and I Quit going to the doctor I'm 50 years old and I'm i'm done and I'm tired. I miss my angel has anybody ever felt like this? What did you do If it helped any I just want to be left alone

This life sucks now my wife died I will not live anymore this Earth and everything in it can go to hell

I think my time's really up. I'm feeling really bad. I don't want to go to the doctor it's been 20 days of constant pain. I refuse to take my medicine after May 11th. I had a heart attack on my eighth I miss my angel so bad I just can't do it. I feel in my heart I don't deserve nothing either she suffered for a while without her medicine for her heart. She was doing so good the last couple months, too. And then she died, I can't bear this pain anymore, and it's guilt that she's Not here. It's just not fair. I don't know why we have to suffer like this I love my angel so much.I will find her that's a promise I can't do this no more.I won't

When my wife died i did to i hate this fucking earth now i cant wait to die soon

I'm sorry, we're all Here I have been struggling the last 8 months, and I know we're just gonna get worse.It's not Getting any easier Each day my wife isn't here. Because she had to die. That's the only thing I can say. I don't know why she had to die, but she did and it's not fair.\n The day to day I'm still going, but my body My heart is not, it's getting worse.Each day the last 9 days.It has been really bad with chest pain and stuff , and I won't go to the doctor I don't want to listen to people because i'm tired of Of them telling me Keep going You have to go, I'm 50 years old. People I do not have to go. You have no right to control me and tell me what my feelings are.My mind is made up. I'm sorry, that's how it is. My heart's broke and it's not getting fixed. It's worse each day that my beautiful angel isn't here and I will find my angel and that's a promise I love my wife and I'll go to the moon to this universe all over the place to find her and I want to see someone try to stop me.You could believe in the Lord or whoever you want to, but If the Lord is real, he made the biggest mistake of him putting me with my wife and then taking her from me if it's real. If you all think that life will be easier without your spouse, it's not the pain may subside. For some, but each day, my wife isn't here. It's worse in my head. My social worker came a few weeks to check on us after I had a heart attack and he said, I'm doing okay. The day today, things with my mind in my heart is shot. Because my wife isn't here. I'm trying not to be hateful, but I have to do what Right in my heart I will Find you my beautiful angel, if that's a promise, I love you so much, You're my beautiful ladybug forever.I am your honeybee forever

A little over eight months since my wife died My heart is getting weaker Each day I gave everything up.I'm not eating a lot.I haven't drank water for at least since my wife died.And eight months else to do , i'm trying to go. Nothings helping that's why i stopped medicine it wasn't making it better The last 7 days it's been hurting so bad.I'm tired of going to the doctor and getting put in the hospital and then they say you'll get better and it's not. I need my Angel that's the only way I will ever get better And you all say you need to stick around We all need you to stick around you. All say, may I ask something? What have you done for me? Nothing did you feed me, did you help me when I was broke? Did you help me when I'm hurting this bad? Did any of you actually get off your butt give me a hand and help me, that's what I'm saying. If not, then why should you care you didn't help me get through any of this. You just tell me stuff. And you said you need me to be here, but what physically and emotionally stuff have you done?Maybe some emotional stuff, but that not gonna do anything nothing's helping Until you actually physically helping me like I have a gofundme account , set up a couple people donated to it , but I see people on here all The time donating on the gofundme. I don't ask for nothing. But I need help People don't understand what my wife and I had for each Other, that's why each day is getting worse.That my beautiful angel is not here

It's been 8 months since my beautiful angel died.And I'm devastated.I don't wanna be here.I'm going to join her.That's a promise this week.It's been too long without her and nobody's gonna stop me.I love you my angel I love you