u/Azerbinhoneymood

Throwing away this thought here. As long as I've been getting myself accustomed with yet another fact about life, it is that life is uncertain and I can see that through my past of things that got me somewhere I've never expected and those that got me nowhere.

And now I see it everywhere else. People hate uncertainty, and that's why they micromanage or at least it drives them to, and they just put and add rules over every aspect in life, I can see it in religion, politics, work, and even in families. So many religious rules are BS, some dynamics in families are due to the grandparents and parents trying uselessly to put some certainty into their lives by being overly controlling or confused as heck themselves, this happens even with friends.

But that's not all, it even happens to us. Heck, I used to have a rule where I refused to set my alarms at or near half an hour, I used to do so as it gave me some peace to explain with if the day went bad then somehow it's because of that. It was stupid as I think of it, but this and other rituals did gave me some peace of mind and control over my life and over life in general.

Just deal with it, I tell myself. Live with uncertainty.

Bear with me, this is not an undermining against people suffering from social anxiety. I had it too and still have a long way to go.

But part of my journey was actually getting taught that wtf everyone has it, whether a lot or a little. Or let's just call it people are self-conscious.

So, if I am self-conscious, and everyone else is even if it doesn't like it, why wouldn't this actually reduce my social anxiety? It seems the answer is a yes.

Anyhow. It seems many don't suffer from this, but also, still, those who don't are actually just people who got used to their environment and yet would feel so if they're at a different one albeit they are really good at adapting fast. Anyways, it seems I've started rambling, I hope my point has come across.

Even to me this sounds kinda cringy or like taken out of control from one of those BS motivational speeches. But seriously, look at life, look at time how it keeps moving and the clock keeps ticking in carelessness about you.

And now look at your face and how time ages you while your brain is looking back.

And here is where this analogy can start to make some sense. A shark needs to keep swimming in order to breathe because he is incapable of sucking in water and taking oxygen for it. If a shark stops swimming in then it is only a matter of time before his end.

We are not that far different, but for us, thankfully we do not have to worry about breathing. But we have to worry about our time, and about the things we don't get to do.

If this doesn't resonate with you, then at least know that everything fades away, and if it's the case then why not fade away with an effort and a life and self you want and desire, or at least working towards it instead of being stuck on certain moments in the past or in recent present rather than seek to accumulate more good ones over the bad ones you dislike.

I've been subject to this before and I'm aware of many people who go crazy, in denial or even through their whole existence into the zero just because they got laid off from a job they identified with, or lost their family and their role as a parent, or whatever other kind of cases where someone's role, contribution and usefulness turns into the real measure of their worth as a person even when it is not.

Also, do mind adding more info in regards to this worth and value question.

Experiencing a solar eclipse is nice, but to the people who intentionally or unintentionally looked directly at it, how are you feeling now? Any pain? Nothing at all?

No, this is not about dating. This is about time aging people faster than their brains can keep up. I know it is hard to read people, but damn is it good to keep some level of awareness about people who might look a certain age, especially adults, but their behaviors and brains are still stuck back in their childhoods or teenage/early adult years. It seems like, me included, that the brain development doesn't keep up with our looks.

Be it knowledge, hobbies, news, whatever. A place where people come, share, exchange and leave discussions having value whatsoever it is added to their brains.

Seriously, knowing that deep within and acting on it, knowing if you get treated bad or came at then it's normal and okay to defend yourself even if at least you make it harder for the other person. As well as being a confrontational person helps.

Yes, there is a limit to everything I have mentioned, heck even the ability to swallow your pride and move on in some inconvenient situations does help too.

But the point is, I find me in awe of myself how much and how far I started to dare things and people nowadays.