u/BitchImLilBaby

For how much of online discourse is dominated by very liberal women claiming to be against the patriarchy and looking to have better relationships than their parents did, there’s still a lot of patriarchal standards when it comes to what men they expect to court them and how they treat men that don’t fit that standard.

Women are able to have their own careers now, make up the majority of college educated people and graduate students, and yet it seems the #1 thing when it comes to what they look for in a man is his job status and money situation. There aren’t enough high paying corporate, law, engineering jobs to go around for all the men. So it’s statistically impossible for every woman to be with a man that makes more than them. I’m not saying a man that has no handle on his money should automatically be entitled to a relationship. But if he has a lower-paying job, as long as he’s being smart with money and showing drive to work towards a better future, that shouldn’t mean he’s worthless in the dating scene.

Because that same man, if he waits until he’s 30 and he’s better off financially until he dates because he has this “lower class men are worthless” propaganda engraved into him 24-7, I guarantee a lot of women that rejected him would flame him for not having much dating experience. I literally had my first breakup because my girlfriend said ”I don’t want to be someone’s first girlfriend at this stage in my life”. So I got rejected for not having relationship experience when you need to be with someone to gain said experience. It’s genuinely disheartening, and for all this talk about how men should try to be more in touch with their feelings, whenever they do express how they feel, a lot of times they get told to “man up” or to “stop being incels/red pill/black pill”.

And then these older women get mad that men their age don’t pick them and want to pursue someone younger. No shit, you rejected him for things that didn’t have to do with his character or who he actually is a a person. Now that’s he’s better off and you want to “settle down” and use him when you didn’t want to commit to him when he was younger, it’s not a good look. Men deserve to be love unconditionally in the same way that women, animals and children do.

"Just work hard and be a good person. You'll go far." That's what they said. Except it seems like it couldn't be further from the truth.

I'm 25. Don't have my drivers license, no 9-5, never had a long term relationship. I feel at the bottom of the barrel for society. Even though I got my degree and graduated with a 3.8 GPA, I just get auto rejected from every application. Meanwhile all my peers can get jobs. And I get ghosted whenever I reach out to network. I have to work three part time jobs just to pay my bills and I can't even move in with my parents because my dad is going through a divorce and my mom lives out in the middle of nowhere, a 30 minute drive from the nearest city.

Some days, I genuinely don't see the point in continuing grinding. What's the point in applying to thousands of jobs just to get maybe a dozen interviews and zero offers while all your peers get promoted, get married, move to NYC? I understand some people have to be "losers" in the game of life. But I didn't think it would be me. I'm not asking to make 100k right away. I want to work my way up the ladder, but I'm feeling robbed of that opportunity in such a hellscape of a society. I just want to not feel invisible to the world, like I actually have some sort of merit. I was told the American dream would allow those that worked hard to make a name of themselves. And I feel robbed and hurt and pessimistic. I don't want to be 30 and still working food service. I want a career and a purposeful life so bad.

I hope this doesn’t seem misogynistic, as I’m not trying to say that all women lack financial literacy. However, from my lived experience and what I’ve seen both online and IRL, it seems a lot of Gen Z or even younger millennial women treat all their extra income as just that - disposable and can/should be spent right away. They generally go out to restaurants more, go to concerts more, travel more, etc. Then they’ll say they live “paycheck to paycheck”. Meanwhile the men I know generally have to be a lot more careful with money - because there’s still the expectation they have to handle the vast majority of the budget. For reference, I’m 25M. I don’t have a corporate 9-to-5 yet; I make 50k a year max and am doing better financially than most of my “girl boss” female peers that make 70-80k.

I know two millennial men in my life that got good paying jobs, got married, helped their wife pay off debt, and then they left a couple years later because of essentially being “bored” and not getting to do as many fun things as when they were single. Like yeah as an adult you gotta pay your bills, plan for the future, etc. I know a lot of people, probably moreso women, are nihilistic about the future. And like I get it, I’m working on not being so nihilistic myself, but I don’t see the world ending anytime soon. So I gotta prepare for the future. If I got one of the fake email jobs like “account manager” or “social media coordinator” and the salary that came with it, I’d no doubt be in a very good position financially. It’s just frustrating.

You see this story play out: a college grad is having trouble getting their first job, they’re looking for advice, and that one person always suggests “the trades”, as if becoming an electrician magically solves everything.

But you ask them if they’d want their kid or friend to become a blue collar worker — and then the tone switches.

“Oh no I meant for you, never for me”

I personally don’t look down on blue collar workers, because as a working class person I know you have to do what you have to to pay the bills; however, most people are not mature enough to think that way. Because if you tell a random person “go into blue collar work”, but you know that you wouldn’t suggest to your own child to do that, then you know that it’s not the golden ticket you paint it to be.

Like wow, people really think you’re “entitled” or “stupid” for not wanting to go into a career with no benefits or workers union that usually leaves your body in shambles by age 40? And plus, if everyone does go into the trades, then it becomes yet another oversaturated field and the cycle repeats itself. But I digress.

Every day, life seems to get worse.

I gave up on dating apps, went back to cold approaching, and met someone out in the wild who actually liked me for me. Things were going well and she even told me she was falling for me.

We start talking more about our lives. She’s older than me and more into her career so she doesn’t expect me to be a provider or anything. However, I still want to build a career - that’s why I went to college. I don’t want to work food service my whole life. I’ve been battling depression on and off really ever since graduating college as a result.

She said she wasn’t going to run away from me because of depression. But as time went on she said it was hard to be around me. She said she thought I was too negative, that I need to “accept where I am right now.” But it’s just so much easier said than done. Working fifty hours a week across three jobs just truing to build a future for myself and getting burnt out from the lack of sleep and constant interaction with entitled people while everyone I went to school with get cushy office jobs and get promotions and move out to New York and Chicago. How am I supposed to just accept that? It’s just something you can’t understand until you’re in that position.

So she said she doesn’t want me around anymore. Removed me off of all social media. And I know deep down that if I just had a “real job”, I wouldn’t be in this position. It’s just so devastating man. Like why are entry level roles so fucking competitive. And it all feels connected too. No job equals no confidence which equals no partner. And I’m qualified enough for these jobs, I know that. But nowadays you have to know someone and have three internships and do five interviews just to get a $20/hr 9-to-5. I just genuinely don’t know how much longer I can do this fucking shit.

I (25M) find the job and career search to consume me every single day. It’s affecting other aspects of my life and I just scared a dating prospect away because of the stress I put on myself for being underemployed as a bachelors degree holder. I’m trying to figure out how to pivot from a mostly food service background, but it’s really difficult.

I currently work at a coffee shop for my AM job, I’m a store supervisor and have been at the company for four years. I also serve in the PM a few nights a week for extra money. I graduated school two years ago in strategic communications and did a social media internship for a radio station that also had aspects of project management and marketing in there. I was a little bit of a divisive person; I feel like I always have been cause of autism. I’ve reached out to certain people from the station for the chance to have a business chat or talk about job openings. I either get ghosted or told there aren’t openings cause of the economy, which hurts.

People tell me my degree is useless, and I know it isn’t because I see people get degrees with what I went to school for. But that in a way amplifies my pain, because I see people I know I’m just as qualified than, if not more, get job offers just because they know someone that I don’t or are more conventionally attractive than me. I just feel stuck. Is my best bet to start as an admin/receptionist somewhere? Do I apply for the most entry level role at a big company and try to use my network? Do I just move to a tier 1 city and figure shit out? I just feel lost. As a man I feel so judged by my career and how far along I am in it and that no one cares about anything other than that. It just weighs a lot on me man.

When comparing men and women and their perceived gender roles in the modern day today, it seems women want to pick and choose what applies to them and wonder why people (mostly men) are frustrated.

Obviously everyone deserves to have a career, autonomy, etc, regardless of gender, but with more rights comes more responsibility. Why the hell do I see so many thinkpieces on social media that the man should still provide for two people like it’s 1960 and that the woman should be able to just save all her money for fun things or if the relationship doesn’t work out? It’s a dehumanization of men, time and time again that society only appreciates a man based on the merit of what he can provide; and it doesn’t allow us to move forward on society.

I agree there’s some lazy men that wanna use the “50-50” excuse as a way to split bills and still be not emotionally present at home and make the woman do all the housework. But in a modern society, men can do those things too. If you’re fighting for the right for your own career, and to be a “girl boss”, then taking on more responsibility is fair. Especially given it’s often easier for women to start careers nowadays when looking at college enrollment statistics, affirmative action favoring white women the most of any single demographic, etc.

Most of these women so caught up in their career don’t really have anything going for them besides that. Usually very few hobbies, superiority complex, etc. So when entering the dating scene, there’s a cognitive dissonance between why they think they’re desirable and what actually would make them so. Men don’t chase money the same way that women use career and status as their top factor when assessing men. Additionally, when your money is really the only thing you have going for you, and you still expect someone to find your lifestyle and completely ignore that one aspect, the man has no reason to choose you.

“But I make money!” Yes, but you won’t spend it. If you wanna challenge the societal norms in that way, you better also be prepared to challenge them in other ways. And as a man, I’m happy to do those things. I love cooking, I do laundry, I try to keep my space clean. But too many people would rather say “no one is good enough for me” rather than be honest with themselves about their unrealistically high expectations. Women should not be the only ones that get to take advantage of the challenging of gender roles.

i just don’t know how I’m supposed to deal with a society that keeps on changing what’s required for you to live a decent life and then act like you’re insane for questioning it.

How did it go from “get a bachelors degree and work hard in school, you’ll be fine, an internship can help but isn’t necessary” to “you need multiple internships in college” to “you need multiple internships AND a masters degree AND meet the diversity quota just to get a job that pays 50k” so quickly?

Same thing with dating. “Just do things you’ll like, you’ll meet someone” has turned to “You can’t approach people in the world, that’s taboo, you have to go to dopamine central on your smartphone” and now it’s “You have to spend all your free time into getting money and looking good just to have a chance at finding a partner.”

Don’t even get me started on housing and other costs. Apartments used to be the affordable option, now they’re ludicrously priced. Some people even suggest trying to share a 1 bedroom with a grown ass adult, college dorm style. It’s just insane.

Why can’t the burden be put on the CEOs, billionaires, and landlords to actually lower prices? Why can’t we encourage socialization like the old days? Why is the burden put on the common worker, trying to make them feel like it’s their fault society is the way it is and encouraging us as social creatures to just be contempt with a life of isolation? It’s just baffling and defeating.

I hate it. I hate everything it represents. I hate seeing people post success stories while I’m stuck in a continued cycle of failure and rejection. But some companies still will side eye you if you don’t have it. I honestly don’t care at this point. I’d rather hold out for a place that won’t care if I have some account or not.

Growing up I always wanted to live in Chicago or New York. And I still want to now. I just get overwhelmed thinking about it. I’m having so much trouble applying for jobs in my tier 3 city as it is - every place wants 5 years experience, there’s no willingness to train, salaries are awful and not keeping up with inflation. So even though there’s more jobs in the big city, I worry it’ll be even harder and more demoralizing. How can I move to a place with a higher COL if I don’t have a job offer lined up? It just seems so daunting, like I have to place a bet on myself, but idk if I have the confidence to do that right now after a lifetime of being doubted and rejected. I just want to get out of this place where I feel like I still constantly run into people from high school and college that have preconceived notions of me.

Rent prices are insane as we know. Some people just refuse to get it because they’re locked into a cheap ass mortgage for a 5 bedroom house they bought off of one high school salary, but that’s a story for another day.

Anytime Gen Z or millennials talk about how expensive life is, I hear older generations say “well just get a roommate or move somewhere cheaper.” And it pisses me off. It deflects from the problem and also just misses several key things.

First of all, yes, having a roommate makes things cheaper. But they shouldn’t be so fucking expensive in the first place. Even 2019, prices were wayyy more manageable than they are now. How have rent prices basically doubled while wages haven’t gone up by enough to compensate?

Also, in regards to a roommate - not everyone is blessed to have a lifelong best friend that lives in the same area as them, or a partner willing to commit at this point. Right now, I live with a roommate I met online on Facebook. It’s been fine. But it does feel a little awkward at times. Some people out there are sketch, man. If you move to a new area, your only option may be to live with someone you first meet online and that can be a big gamble. I’m neurodivergent. I want to get home and unwind, in my own space. I don’t want to worry about when the kitchen will be free, or when the bathroom will be free, or if my roommate will have someone over, etc.

And in regards to moving - You have to have enough money to move, you uproot your connections, and if you move to the middle of nowhere to save, there’s no jobs there. You have to have a remote job - and we know those aren’t being given out at this point. The money you can save on rent you most often end up losing in terms of salary, lifestyle, and basically everything else.

I just also hate the single tax that the overlords are trying to impose onto us. 1 bedroom apartment prices shouldn’t be based off of 2 salaries, they should be based off of 1. Because it’s normally ONE person per room. It’s not rocket science. Your own space over your head is a basic human right. People could work retail or food service just ten years ago and afford their own space that was all theirs to come home to. I know studios exist, but personally, I don’t want to sleep in my kitchen. I need a little separation.

I’m not asking for a luxury penthouse at dirt cheap rates. Just a quaint little place, and my own space with a separate bedroom, that doesn’t cost 50% or more of my paycheck. (Also there’s no more cheap apartments being built and the focus is on “luxury” everything, but that’s a topic for another day.) It’s just infuriating to me. I know that rent prices ARE wild. But alas, they SHOULDN’T - it’s frustrating when I try to critique the world and imagine a better one, and get told “That’s life, life isn’t easy.” Like it very well could be if the capitalist pigs weren’t solely driven by money. Anyways that’s my rant.

I (25M) have a college degree. I don't really job search as much as I "should". Part of it is I work a lot right now to try and make something of myself, and need to preserve bandwidth somewhere. But also, I just don't WANT to engage in the ritual of corporate life. It just drains my soul, going on LinkedIn or overhearing people that I wait tables for, acting like their email jobs are somehow "fulfilling" and raving about their "successful team operations". It's all a charade act. It's stupid. I have actual goals, aspirations, things I care about, and don't want to spend my life giving a watered-down version of myself just for a check. I'm also neurodivergent so there's a lot of masking and I'm sure the first instance they get that I'm not "normal" there's reason they'd look to fire me.

So mentally, not something I want to be part of. It also doesn't help that you have to apply to 300 roles just to get 1 interview. But I want the benefits. I'm trying to become stable enough so that I can actually have a relationship, start a family, etc. I don't want to be poor my whole life. But I just find myself stuck for what field to look into. I went to school for more of a marketing/advertising focus, but that field is so oversaturated and low-paying right now. I want to pivot to accounting for stability and something less extroverted, but that would require more school, if I could even get into a good grad program. I just feel stuck.

When I was 15, I thought I’d be dead by 25. I’m 25 now so I’m obviously not… but part of me wishes I was.

I don’t have anything related to my field despite getting a college degree two years ago and applying to thousands of jobs across all sorts of fields. Feels like you have to have five years of experience and know someone on the team just to get an interview. And when society judges you as a man solely by how much money you can make and what you can provide for other people, it genuinely makes me feel like a worthless human being.

I don’t have anything invested into a Roth IRA or 401k - not because I don’t want to, but because everything is so expensive. My dad bought a house as a bartender. I work three jobs and still need a roommate. I can’t even buy a car rn. There’s no cheap options anymore for anything. Every apartment is at least $1200, every used car is $10k, every takeout meal is $20. I and most of Gen Z are getting priced out of society.

Trump is destroying our country and we’re also unable to do anything. I just feel fucking powerless. I drink or smoke weed almost every day just to escape the nightmares of the world and to turn my brain off. We’re so alone as a society because of the way capitalism has gotten worse, and the worst part is it’s so difficult to even FIND someone because of the awful nature of dating apps, people not having time for hobbies, etc.

I just hate the way older generations want to critique me and other people for being “so miserable” and “not wanting to work”. It’s hard to not be miserable when we had a great society and baby boomers had to ruin it with corporate greed. And call me crazy for wanting a job that doesn’t require me to work 60 hours a week and allows me to make enough money to live a life that allows me to do more than the bare minimum.

I just want to know when things will get better. Because when life wants you to hit these milestones - a partner, a car, a career, a house - but is pulling away every possible way to earn these things, it almost makes you feel sub human. Like no one will ever take you seriously as a man until you get these things.

I feel so fucking bleak about the state of the future not just for me, but for America.

Between the standards for entry level work being raised to an ungodly amount, outsourcing of jobs, boomers refusing to retire, AI, the cost of everything rising… I genuinely don’t know why it’s worth to keep on going on.

“Get a degree, work hard in school, gain experience”. I did all those things, and it’s still not enough to gain a job in anything more lucrative than the service industry? It already hurts enough that I’m trying to navigate this world as an autistic man. People see me and see me as this “manchild” that’s afraid of growing up. No, I’m trying to, but I can’t get anyone to let me get my fucking life started. I get ghosted when I reach out to try to network. I get turned down in interviews because I don’t act normal enough. I can’t even get into grad school to try and pivot fields.

I just wake up every day with this aching pain in my chest, a deep desire to have it all end. I wouldn’t call myself actively suicidal or anything, but I lore so find myself in a state of indifference, wondering why should I even continue trying, if society continually punishes those who actually do try.

How do I overcome my lack of bedroom experience?

So I haven’t dated that much. Part of it is being autistic and worrying that I’m not good enough for women, part of it is also that I was so focused on getting good grades and experience in college. I started dabbling in dating last year and had okay results. I came away with one short term relationship, which is better than nothing. But I feel like it could’ve been more if I wasn’t such an inexperienced noob.

So the first time I met my ex, I invited her back to my place because I just felt a really good vibe. She took me up on it. Some clothes came off and she said she hadn’t shaved yet, so I took it as a sign that we could just keep it at kissing and cuddling. The second date, more clothes came off and we were dry humping and I basically froze and panicked. I told her I was a virgin and had performance anxiety and I just felt like such a feminine insecure man. Part of it was I didn’t want to lose my virginity to someone random - I wanted it to be with someone I wouldn’t regret. She said it wasn’t a big deal, and that we could take it slow, and we ended up having sex about a week and a half later once I felt more confident.

We had sex several more times after that. It was good, and I got the feeling she thought the same way. I tried to just get to know her and where she liked to be touched. I always took my time with foreplay, made her feel like she was appreciated, etc. But I think it was a little too vanilla for her. She told me that she was relatively experienced and that sex is important to her in a relationship. And whenever she’d want to do doggy, I froze. I didn’t know where to put it in. And I remember the lack of confidence made me lose my erection. And I felt like a lesser man because of it.

She ended up breaking up with me about two months after we started seeing each other. She told me “I’m not ready for a relationship”. I wanted to take it at face value and believe her, but when I got back on the dating apps, I saw her. And it really hurt. Like we all have to start somewhere. It’s just like the job market. You need experience to get a job, but a job is needed to get experience. And it just hurts that it feels like everyone expects me to have everything fully figured out just because I am a man.

She still messages me, but hints that we’re just friends. So I knew I did good enough to make her trust me, but it feels like I wasn’t good enough at sex to make her want me romantically. It just hurts man. I had a hook up after her and she wanted to do doggy and the same shit happened. I want to ask for guidance but worry that doing so will turn a woman off.

I just don’t get it. I went to a well-known school. Communications degree with a minor in sociology. Distinction graduate. Had an internship. Have a portfolio. Yet every application for marketing, sales, coordinator, project manager, account manager - nothing. Absolutely nothing. Yet somehow most of the people I went to school with, seem to have jobs. It’s just so devastating. I have nowhere to go to express my outlet of frustration and shame without people thinking less of me. I just want to get my life started. It’s why I went to a good school. I just want a career so that I have a purpose in life besides making coffee for people. So that women think I’m a suitable prospect to actually date and form a relationship with, instead of seeing me as just a kid. So that my family can actually be proud of me. I just don’t get why the universe has to choose to punish me over and over and over. It’s already hard enough for me as an autistic man, like fuck dude.

“Go to school, work hard and get a degree, then you’ll get a 9-5, make money, find a wife, get a house, and be happy.”

I did what they told me to do. Yet I have a lot of doubt if I’ll do anything besides earning a degree. I’m 25 and feel like I’m still stuck at 18.

Everyone says this job market is terrible, but somehow everyone else I went to school with has a job in their field except for me. I hate when people say “No one wants to work”, because that isn’t true at all for most people I know. I want to work, I want to feel useful to society - I just don’t want to get paid only $20/hr for a job that requires a college degree and not feel like applying to something is essentially throwing my information into a black hole.

I have lots of friends wondering how I’ve stayed single my entire life. They constantly praise my intelligence, humor, passion, and self awareness. Things that people say they supposedly care about. But when I try to date, it’s a different story. Constant examples of ghosting, “I don’t feel a spark”, “I’m not ready for a serious relationship”. I’ve done the work on myself.

The only real explanation I can think of is that I just don’t have enough money or aren’t conventionally charming or attractive enough. Like people are more focused on how their partner looks to the world rather than how they make them feel. And having autism doesn’t help me when it comes to dating. I’ve found myself consuming red pill content sometimes, not out of malice or hatred towards women, but because it’s the only way I feel seen in a society that seemingly shamed any man that isn’t part of the top 10% that has their life fully figured out. I try to shut it out, and I don’t agree with the rhetoric, but I find there being certain points made from time to time that I can’t say are entirely wrong.

Maybe it’s my fault that I’m trying to go into a career that’s primarily female dominated and there’s concern if I can actually do the job or why I’m not in finance or STEM or something. I’m trying to pivot, I’m trying to go to grad school for accounting. But that would take two years. I know getting started at 27 is better than never, but I worry I’m going to “age out” of life. By the time I finally get on my feet, I worry that it’ll be too late. That people will see this guy and wonder why he didn’t figure it out earlier.

I don’t have the best relationship with my parents. I’m living on my own because I’m legit happier than I would be with them, not facing constant pressure of “Why don’t you have a real job/a partner?” I just want to know that it will all be okay. My mom’s brother is 50 and never married or had kids. I don’t want to end up like him. I’m trying to do everything I can to avoid that fate, and it still feels like it hasn’t worked. I’m just wondering what’s the point to everything…

I (25M) got a liberal arts degree two years ago, the job field isn’t good, and I realize I need to switch to something more stable. My younger brother makes serious bank at his accounting internship and I don’t really care too much what I do as long as I can pay my bills. I’m really good at numbers and paying attention to detail so I’ve considered accounting.

I’m debating going back to school - my alma mater actually recommends the masters program since it takes less time than another bachelors. I luckily didn’t take out that much in undergrad student loans so debt isn’t really on my mind right now.

But some people say I don’t need to go back to school. The only problem is I don’t know how to take my mostly writing experience and turn it into an accounting background, and I know I need school be eligible to take the test to become a CPA. What would be your best for someone looking to pivot at a younger age?

I’m 25. I graduated college two years ago. I have a lot of existential dread and some days I hate myself for not being as far as other men my age.

I stayed where I went to school - it’s a major city, so I thought it made sense to stay here to build connections and since moving back home to a small town would suck. I continued working my part time college job and picked up another one on the side while I searched for a full time role.

I’ve ramped up the job search, but in doing so have realized something: I was happier just focusing on working and being fully present within my jobs, rather than trying to pivot out of them. I make enough to get by. I have some credit card debt, but I’m slowly paying it down. I live a frugal life (rent a 2 bed with a roommate, no car, don’t buy many material goods), but still find ways to have fun.

I don’t want work to become my whole identity. I’ve seen some people my age already start to make work their entire identity and act like corporate politics is so fulfilling to them. Maybe it’s the autism in me but I refuse to let that be me. Seems like such a shallow life.

At the same time, I realize it would be nice to have money. I come from lower middle class and am working very hard to try and improve my class. I average about 50 hours of work a week right now. And unfortunately, corporate is one of the only ways to make REAL money. But I’ve been rejected for over a hundred roles already. It’s really discouraging. And I can’t help like my lack of status has hurt me in the dating world as well.

I know a lot of woman (not all, but I think more than would willingly admit it) still want a man to be the financial provider, or at least to have a really stable career. So I feel stuck. And the lack of direction has really hurt my confidence and made me feel like I’m not worthy enough to date, and I want to actually be an “adult” and be in a serious relationship and taken seriously, and work towards retirement and having a child and owning a home or at least a condo, but feel like people have already perceived notions about me being autistic so I’m not gonna be given that opportunity, and I feel a lot of things really heavily right now and it’s just something that I feel like I can’t open up about in public.

I have a lot of service experience so I might just try to work up to being a fine dining server. AI can’t replace that. Although with Trump ruining the economy, there might not be going out money. I just wish I wasn’t such a dumbass and gotten a communications degree. Hence why I’m thinking of doing grad school for accounting because that’s going to always be a career in demand and relatively AI proof as well. But that would take two years, and I probably wouldn’t get my career started until 28 as a result. I just feel stuck and like I have to figure out my life NOW before I become a failure. I just want my family to be proud of me one day and to be able to start my own one day as well.

Life genuinely feels like if you weren't born to a wealthy family, there's no way to break into the professional workforce.

I'm applying for internships - since that's what people say you need before you can get a "real" job. Even applying for these is nothing but constant rejection. Why was I told to get a degree, to try hard in school, to work part time jobs throughout school, if employers still are going to judge me because I come from a working class background?

I always send a follow up email after an interview, and even if my application is rejected, I reach out to employers and send a professional email asking what more I could have done to secure an interview or been offered the position. Absolute shocker, most of them don't reply back. It's so fucked up that hiring managers and HR teams expect way more professionalism out of their applicants than they do of themselves, but that's a story for another day...

I applied for an event planning internship because I have interest in working with my local city's government due to my love for both politics and the community. They said "We went with someone with more relevant direct event planning experience." Like... what the fuck!? Isn't that the whole point of an internship? To GAIN EXPERIENCE?

I had to work throughout college and went to an average public high school. I couldn't do things like "advertising club president (unpaid)" in college or "National Honors Society president" in high school to bolster my resume because I didn't grow up with money falling down from the trees. This whole fucking process is making me want to burn everything and revolt against the system. The meritocracy that was sold to me and my peers is a bunch of BULLSHIT, and only people that grew up rich are being given the chance to start their lives. Now I'll likely never have a "real" job, will stay single and never have a child my entire life because women desire the financial status of a man above all else (don't even say this isn't true because you know it is), and I genuinely feel like my life is already over. Fuck all this fucking bullshit, man.