u/Consistent-Snow-7421

When I was little it was so obvious that something was wrong with because I couldn't interact with other kids, couldn't socialize, couldn't play games, couldn't do sports,had issues with motor skills,it was hard for me to study i had extreme fatigue ever since I was born.But my parents thought I was just a little different or quiet.

Even before the puberty age my life was very different than an average kid.Like I would watch TV all day and would sit at school all the time to a point my nickname was wallflower.

I got diagnosed at 14 due to no puberty. And although things make more sense and I got to understand myself more nothing changed for me still no friends no energy whatsoever.

Now im recovering from shame of being so different and I actually have goals,desires things I want to do but now im 23 and I don't know if the things I want would be achievable with this illness.

Because although modern medicine is very developed this illness still remains understudied.Like your hormones can't function like a healthy person's with the today's medication. And hormones affect everything like psychology,cognitive function, motivation

Not every socially inept,awkward or ditty person is autistic.

Im a very socially awkward and anxious person and let me tell you how many times people asked me if I'm autistic or made fun of me by calling me autistic.

If i were to get an evaluation id probably meet the diagnosis criteria because there's no difference between me and level 1 autistic person. But I don't feel any disability im just awkward and that's about it.

This can come off as offensive but level1 autism shouldn't be a thing

Like at least give me something right?I have no social life and have no passion,have no capability.I have to try so hard for everything.im just so dumb and it's not self depreciation it's the truth. I have special interests here and there but they are also dumb af and have no use

Im not saying at certain times of your life like you never had any friends.

I didn't have friends in my childhood I mean I couldn't cause I lacked social skills and I didn't try to make then on because I was always excluded so I didn't even try

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So I'm 23 with zero I mean ZERO life experience.I was the quiet kid all through school so I didn't gain anything from there.After graduating high school I realized how much of socially anxious I am and I couldn't leave the house for MONTHS.

I also had extreme fatigue i didn't want to do anything in life i just doom scrolled or played games to pass the time.Now I'm slowly healing from social anxiety and want to live life but I'm genuinely doomed.I have nowhere to start a 10 year old probably has more life experience than me.

Im thinking of taking university entrance exam i know it will be hard at my big age but it's my only way to get away from this small town.For social anxiety i still do mask a lot and I probably still can't make friends but at least it won't be a factor that keeps me away from living.Like I still care a lot about what people think of me.

When compared to other people my age i feel so depressed. I know there's coming back from this but my flaws make me think I don't deserve to have a place in society. Im genuinely so dumb and awkward. I dont have the energy to turn my life around I get burned out the 2nd day.

This was my vent but I really want and appreciate advices

I also love the instruments and background music but I want to hear the vocals more heavily

Temelim 0 a yakın.Ve bölümüm eşit ağırlık

I've never listened to hip hop before

CHEESEBALL I MEANT CHEESEBALL

Matter of fact i don't even know who Dasha and Anna are.1.5-2 years ago I saw a post on rs_x sub and it kept appearing on my fyp then I joined the community.Not long after that I got banned from there.Then i discovered this sub.At the time Bollywoodsexsymbol was trending. It seemed like she was going through a lot and I got interested in her life(I hope she's in a so much better place now).And then i never left since then.

Umudum düşük ama yinede sormak istedim

AFAIK there's 3 options;with hormones, with skin layers got from thigh etc,and the one is made from plastic(?)

Like how do they pee or

I'm the most unusual person I know and it hurts so much

I was born and I already felt so different. Couldn't make any friends as a kid.I had 0 friends my whole childhood-teenage years.

I got diagnosed with hypopituitarism at 14

I have no experience in life it's the same as a 10 year old.

Im dumb as fuck I genuinely believe I have low iq.

I got diagnosed with social anxiety and depression.

I learned how to tie my shoes at 23 years old.

I never had a boyfriend.

I have literally no interest in anything.

I graduated from high-school at 19 years old.

My adult height is 4'10.

I didn't play games as a child especially the ones that needs motor skills.

I never played basketball volleyball or football.

I dont work or go to school

At one time I didn't step a foot outside in 6 months.

People would laugh at everything I did which I never understood why

I didn't speak to anyone in 4 years of high-school except teachers.

I dont watch movies or read books.

I never learned how to ride a bicycle.

I've never worn a crop top, tank top or skirt.

I can't relate anyone else in this world fully

I'm the most unusual person I know and it hurts so much

I was born and I already felt so different. Couldn't make any friends as a kid.I had 0 friends my whole childhood-teenage years.

I got diagnosed with hypopituitarism at 14

I have no experience in life it's the same as a 10 year old.

Im dumb as fuck I genuinely believe I have low iq.

I got diagnosed with social anxiety and depression.

I learned how to tie my shoes at 23 years old.

I never had a boyfriend.

I have literally no interest in anything.

I graduated from high-school at 19 years old.

My adult height is 4'10.

I didn't play games as a child especially the ones that needs motor skills.

I never played basketball volleyball or football.

I dont work or go to school

At one time I didn't step a foot outside in 6 months.

People would laugh at everything I did which I never understood why

I didn't speak to anyone in 4 years of high-school except teachers.

I dont watch movies or read books.

I never learned how to ride a bicycle.

I've never worn a crop top, tank top or skirt.

I can't relate anyone else in this world fully

I was born and I already felt so different. Couldn't make any friends as a kid.I had 0 friends my whole childhood-teenage years.

I got diagnosed with hypopituitarism at 14

I have no experience in life it's the same as a 10 year old.

Im dumb as fuck I genuinely believe I have low iq.

I got diagnosed with social anxiety and depression.

I learned how to tie my shoes at 23 years old.

I never had a boyfriend.

I have literally no interest in anything.

I graduated from high-school at 19 years old.

My adult height is 4'10.

I didn't play games as a child especially the ones that needs motor skills.

I never played basketball volleyball or football.

I dont work or go to school

At one time I didn't step a foot outside in 6 months.

People would laugh at everything I did which I never understood why

I didn't speak to anyone in 4 years of high-school except teachers.

I dont watch movies or read books.

I never learned how to ride a bicycle.

I've never worn a crop top, tank top or skirt.

I can't relate anyone else in this world fully

I'm not talking about people who enjoy the genre im talking about people who actively engage with kpop content.

As for me the most I've been into kpop was when I had no friends at school. They create a sense of belonging, community ,you feel like you personally know them at some point.

Would kpop be this popular If it had no aspect of parasocialism? or why would an functioning adult with active social life d be into kpop?

Şimdi ben 2022 yılında Liseden mezun oldum ve sanırım 600k falan yapmıştım.Bu 4 yıl içinde hiç çalışmadım ama üniversiteye gitmeyi çok istiyorum.Eşit ağırlıktan hazırlanmayı pilanlıyorum ne yapmalıyım imdat

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23F I graduated high school 4 years ago and I decided to take a gap year but I couldn't get back on track.Ive suffered and still do from extreme social anxiety and depression.In those 4 years I didn't do anything but doomscroll or played dumb games.Didnt watch a single movie or single chapter.

I know I've never been smart but I know I've been better than this.What should I do?should I quit internet cold turkey? What can help with my processing speed I'm genuinely so slow?