u/Curtailss

Like did you ever actually feel relaxed and happy during your addiction? It’s so weird because yesterday I had the chance to continue my addiction (relapsed many times because I don’t think I took it seriously enough)

And I had the chance to continue but a family member was pissed at me for continuing and I told them that I don’t think someone could make me quit, I have to do it myself and I was gonna continue but it made me think and for hours I was just thinking off and on if I should stop right now while it’s right infront of me and suddenly after a few hours my mind became clear and calm, relaxed and happy and I knew that the vape definitely is ruining my life so I stopped atleast for now. How many of you feel you got your happiness or life back after quitting? Obviously I mean after the withdrawal time as that shouldn’t be counted for how you’ll feel without the vape

First of all I know bad idea but I didn’t realize yet that after taking dmt a few times the shroom experience was now trailing me back into that place depending on the dosage amount.

I took like 0.6 grams of PE shrooms and went to the theatre to watch the horror movie obsession which was really good but man so many of the scenes reminded me of non duality, the way the girl walked backwards and forwards and the way her sentence wouldn’t have a grammatical end which is exactly what I’ve experienced being on dmt, it’s like the concept of start and finish, beginning and end breaks down and so because the girl was horror it started kinda of scaring me but I still enjoyed it a lot.

Now I couldn’t sleep for like 2 weeks after that but eventually I felt better. Since then whenever I wanted to take shrooms I’d remember how scared I felt with dmt aspect leaking in.

1month later it’s someone’s birthday and I decide to eat 0.6 grams of PE. Everything was going well at first but then concepts were breaking down a tad bit while I was chatting and I was oh shit it’s okay I’m okay. Well 30 mins later I go out to get some soda and when I’m coming back I look at my hands in the elevator bringing me to my apartment, and Lo and behold my hands look significantly different, longer, clayish, slightly reptilian fingers and nails and they were very pale. Exactly the way my hands look on dmt but like 3/10 strength.

I got excited like woahh how the fuckk but also scared. I kept my cool but eventually when the shrooms we’re peaking I was feeling an overwhelming sense of other beings hiding in plain sight or as if they are the walls and the ceilings and waiting for me to get high enough or something to see them, like it like if I meditated I’d go into that space and I wasn’t feeling friendly vibes. Eventually someone said that I should maybe go lay in bed and rest but I kept feeling and seeing things in my mind like they are waiting for me and if I go to the room and turn the lights of my ego or something will completely break and what I think my limbs are will turn out to have been entities and beings this whole time that will space out from my body.

Like imagine what you think is your blanket that you used for a long time just opens its eyes and slides away from you and stands but your limbs in a dark room with vivid neon colours for tracers and eyes in the dark room, it was just a crazy weird visualization I couldn’t stop seeing in my mind. It was much more weird than just scary, like almost like I’d be attending a really weird sacred ritual and giving my body up.

Anyways it was hard to sleep after that for like 3 weeks. It’s been 2 months now and I haven’t done shrooms since and just focused on my health so I feel a lot better but sometimes I still remember that while sleeping.

Anyways thanks for reading, and sorry for the shit grammar

Someone in this sub told me they lick the floor when the become lucid to make the dream more awake and real so I did that last night and shit felt real but then I woke up 30 seconds later lol

I get sinus issues, head and body feeling heavier and drowsy, energy issues and becoming sluggish and low mood?

I don’t know if these are because of the vape for sure but it seems like it from my testing it on myself and seeing what happens. I left the vape for a couple days and my mood and energy lifted like I haven’t felt in a long time, my sinuses cleared and I became more spontaneous and lighter feeling.

How common have you quitters noticed these things like significantly?

I did dmt for the first time a couple months ago and did it a couple more times after that over the last 3 months.

It’s been 2 weeks since the last time I did dmt (sub break through) great experience, but I’ve noticed my dreams have gotten more potent almost like blending in with how I feel here ya know. I woke up 2 days ago feeling different and the first 10-15 seconds of me waking up I saw my curtains and they had that claymation feel and colour and sharpness to them like you see on dmt but less intense, my hands looked clayish and high definition too and just basically how they look on dmt but just less intense. Faded away real quick

Don’t worry I’m not stressing, it might be a heavy afterglow but I’m curious how many people have experienced this?

Many people who have done nn dmt in this sub have said the absolute soul shattering lonely feeling of being god. My friend also did a sub breakthrough dose and he felt very alone.

Now everytime I’ve done dmt it was sub breakthrough and everytime I hit the point of enough mental walls breaking down that it convinced me in a embodying way that everything is me and I am everything, to the point that there was no "other" to be lonely for. It was the most freeing and happy and thrilling feeling I could never have imagined.

If god is everything then there is ultimately no "other" to care for, be lonely for, be sad or happy for.. you ARE the "other" you’re feeling lonely for, and have not seen or realized it. The experience very much seems to transcend the lonely god feeling and it goes from something unknown or sort of closed in to when realizing that you are the other, expand Infinitely with nothing closing us in and it’s just all good, all positive.

Of course I’m not saying this is the ultimate truth but in a non dual way this is it and I hope it can help you guys who are suffering through the lonely god experience. <3

Ya know how something crazy or awesome or horrible happens in your life and you can’t believe it’s happening infront of your eyes and later when it’s a memory it still kind of feels unreal? Well you’d expect after doing dmt to say holly shit I really can’t believe it but as I was saying that because of how crazy it was I realized.. my god this is the most believable thing. It’s like all my life I’ve been battling the inauthenticity of this dimension/realm/world. Things don’t look as real as you’d expect, things don’t feel as real as you’d expect (most of the time) in my opinion. I had nothing I was comparing from, I hadn’t had any profound experience or tried any drugs or psychedelics until just about 1.5 years ago

When I did dmt it’s like the thing I’d been thinking about, the realness of existence, I came home, I was like, my god this is what I’d expect existence to feel like!!

How many of you have had similar thoughts or is this a bit rare of a things? I’d love to know

Everytime I do an almost waiting room dose of dmt I go in keeping my eyes closed but I forget and open them most times. Hard to remeber to keep them closed

Now I heard someone say the shit is completely different with your eyes closed so can anyone explain?

Also should I wear a blindfold?

I’m curious if your able to move yourself around at will like as your body or being once you’ve broken through and I’m also curious if you guys breakthrough while keeping your eyes open or closed?

I tried breaking through again but my motor functions became very manual feeling and I was becoming my hands or the pen to the point I couldn’t take more hits. Should I just put a blindfold on next time?

In general if you were to lean to what you think is happening, would you say it feels like you and everyone are god/one?

If so, do you think everyone is you but no one else but you actually are thinking. Like you are the only thinker in the universe, everything else and your assumptions of others thinking for themselves is just a story?

Or do you think that all of us are separate thinkers even if we are one?

Also even if the story you have is that other people think, does it make any difference whether they do or don’t? I mean I guess it does because that’d mean there’s no inside thinker for their personality but just me rendering the interactions I see and hear.. which feels lonely.

For some reason it feels much better to believe that there’s a thinker inside doing all sorts of things in their "mind" that comes up with the final results which are the interactions I see. plus if someone is actually looking through their eyes it feels better than the only eye that exists is their when I look at them.

These are unpolished thoughts and I just wanna see what you deep thinkers think about these theoretical world views or if you have any other you wanna share I’d love to read up on them!!

In general if you were to lean to what you think is happening, would you say it feels like you and everyone are god/one?

If so, do you think everyone is you but no one else but you actually are thinking. Like you are the only thinker in the universe, everything else and your assumptions of others thinking for themselves is just a story?

Or do you think that all of us are separate thinkers even if we are one?

Also even if the story you have is that other people think, does it make any difference whether they do or don’t? I mean I guess it does because that’d mean there’s no inside thinker for their personality but just me rendering the interactions I see and hear.. which feels lonely.

For some reason it feels much better to believe that there’s a thinker inside doing all sorts of things in their "mind" that comes up with the final results which are the interactions I see. plus if someone is actually looking through their eyes it feels better than the only eye that exists is their when I look at them.

These are unpolished thoughts and I just wanna see what you deep thinkers think about these theoretical world views!!

Okay so on DMT I experienced a strong sense of non duality on a sub breakthrough, but I could still only sense through my own sense organs in some way, like I was still aware that the people in the home still had their own thoughts but for some reason I can’t perceive them but some how I’m still them, that part was confusing. I couldn’t see or hear from anyone else’s perspective even though my family was in the house with me.

So when people take more DMT, is that when they enter full non duality, like can you explain further from my sub breakthrough explanation? I’m talking about the experience, I’m not debating whether it’s real or not, couldn’t care less lol

I love impressing people, like impressing in a way that brings overwhelming shock and joy and fun. like I like to be the entertainer with shocking intelligence/intuition in the moment that would motivate someone but also entertain them. People use to say that’s not necessarily healthy for me and that I should be doing it for me but doing it for people feels like doing it for me. I stopped trying to impress people and just learn to let go of my ego and really find what’s good for me and I think it’s in my blood ya know what I mean. I wanna make things that impress people and that are useful and that are fun.. that includes anything like tech and scientific research to advance it, music, fashion, calisthenics to go with other sports, even dancing if I can get the balls to learn with people because I’m nervous about it lol

What do you think, is there anything wrong with this?

Almost every time I’ve done shrooms, a big fucking spider or some other not common in my home bug appears very close to me. Now these things happen to me maybe twice a year without tripping but I’ve tripped like 5 times this year so far and I think every time this has happened. So strange, could be a coincidence but still lol

I took mushrooms today, around like 0.7 grams and I 100% felt the affect of dmt and entities like fuckin calling me or something and like I was a bit scared of everyone. Last time I tried to breakthrough on dmt these entities were asking me to do more to brake through but my lungs felt a bit abused so I didn’t and said next time to them and said goodbye to them

Ever since then when I do shrooms the onset feels like shrooms but then it turns into a light dmt trip and it feels like if I just meditate I can get enter the dmt "realm"

How many of you guys had this experience and is it bad that I feel scared and feel a bit of a negative vibe from em? I’m open to them just trying to show me my demons you know what I mean but I just wanna know if I’m not alone in this experience, thanks because I’m freaking out lol (btw it’s less now, the shrooms are on the come down)

So I seem to hit hypnagogia pretty easily when anchoring my attention a bit towards some noise in my room or a song. I feel my body noise goes very quiet (could still hear my surroundings) and it feels like a sank in my bed a bit and imagery gets stronger so everytime I think okay i might be dreaming so I get up from bed and seem to wake up in real life everytime (honestly don’t know if I’ve mistaked some times and just layed back down in the dream)

Should I not be getting up when this happens? I heard that when those feelings emerge you should just imagine your room and you getting up and sitting in bed or waking and you’ll eventually actually be there.

I have some type of baseline anxiety I feel, like a low noise of different variants in my head, my chest kind of my whole body and I’d like to know if "normal" people feel these when chilling at home alone with nothing to do?

When I’m home alone it doesn’t go away, because I got this reference point of an empty peace from just 1 small hit of dmt from a low voltage vape, I can now see how much I’m suffering. It’s been happening for as long as I can remember (I’m 21)