u/DazzlingCelery6853

As the title said, my husband, had a nightmare in wich we disagreed on a minor topic, and then we had a verbal fight. Now he is mad at me, giving me the silent treatment and he told me he wants to divorce because I disagreed with him in his dream. AIO? I think i may be the asshole in this case.

Many years ago i attempted suicide. What happened next was my mother making the whole thing about herself. At first "it wasn't my fault" actually it was, before attempting i have had a particularly bad verbal fight with her and that triggered the psichotic episode in wich i attempted. Then it was difficult for her because i was in a mental health facility and i must return home asap because she needed disclosure.

As i returned instead of understanding i was severly depressed and having an undiagnosed PD (SzPD) that sometimes made me have psychotic episodes, she pulled a whole shitty teatre with my N-dad and nibbling, basically asking "bUt WhY diD u DiD tHat to Us!?!?!? DiDnT U thOUgHt abOUt hOw iT WoULD haVe maDe US fEEl?!?!?!?11???1?1?11??1?!!!!".

And then she left me to rot in my bedroom for a fucking year, no medical help aside the private psychiatrist they had on their side and was making me become a human larvae with those medications. The only way i survived was because i left their house.

And now she has the gut to tell me she want to break the low contact/ no contact i'm enforcing on them because apparently she is getting therapy, basically paying a private one to let her tell her what she wants to hear, and because apaprently my dad forgave me.

I'm filled with vitriol today, i want to scream until my lungs explode.

The meme is a bit wonky.

Basically i went to my psychiatrist this week, and was anxious because i'm trying to go no contact with my parents, it's been months i'm loosing sleep over it. I'm sure but still scared things will escalate badly for me.

So basically my psychiatrist got me an appointment with the social worker of the mental health center. I was incredibly lucky and got the appointment the other day.

The social worker was incredibly nice to me and reassured me that as an adult i can do whatever I want and go no contact without fearing there will be legal actions involving my mental health from my parents because legally they can do nothing as i'm of sound mind and able of making decision despite my disability (a schizoid personality disorder) and having been forced into recovery twice in the past.

So we had some spare time and i told her what my father used to do to me as a teen, from the beating, to the sexual harrasment to the more explicit unappropriate sexual behaviours, the fact he was emotionally and verbally aggressive to the point of majing me question my sanity.

I was shocked as she told me that if i wanted i could talk to a lawyer from a domestic violence center, and probaly had all the ground to press charges. She actually contacted them for me. Now i'm waiting to get to talk to them, i won't press charges but i'll keep in mind what they tell to me, and eventually will let my father know i can press charges against him if he dares to break the no contact.

A salad with a single cucumber and a few olives.

So basically to kill a part of myself: kill my own ego, make peace with the past, accept everyone makes mistakes and accepting my birthing duo of origin back in my life with semi decent and polite relationships and efforts into taking in touch.

Not to betray myself: screw them i deserve better, I need to go NC to make this step and stay true to myself and the abised child i was.