u/Glum-Appointment-816

Hiiii so I absolutely love my black paper sketchbook from Sakura, especially how smooth the paper texture is. It makes applying acrylic markers as smooth as butter, and unlike moleskine rougher paper it does not get destroyed with markers. So I was curious, is white paper sketchbooks from Sakura are the same texture-wise and paper weight wise?

So one thing I worked with myself on is if I notice I don’t like a new person, I leave. Even if they seem nice, sometimes I later realized a) they assumed a position of a ”wise mentor” when we are the same age and of similar opinion, yet they felt superior and not as interested in my experience b) person ends up using me for just listening, they have endless things to say or ponder, sometimes they don’t even make eye contact as if I’m not there c) person has a desire to one up you, purposefully asks questions in a way to brag about themselves, etc etc. These situations are my first time meeting them and any time I become conscious of this happening I find a way to leave. For example, left an activity early yesterday because of it. Didn’t feel like I would miss much at that point. Yet the Entertainer/Life of the Party/idk part in me kind of feels bad, not for me lacking something but its like I felt responsible. Yet another people pleasing part I found that needs to be worked on. So yesterday was reminding myself how it’s not my responsibility for everyone to have a good time, even if they like me. I’m glad that I can make right actions now, but I hope one day ill stop feeling deeply any time there is rejection(and somehow me doing the rejecting feels just as bad)

Something I discovered recently, using White Flower and rubbing it on my nose bridge. The smell is strong but pleasant, my mind immediately focuses on it which improves anxious shallow breaths. Then there is the burning sensation which further provides a distraction but from other bodily sensations such as twisted stomach. Anyone found similar tips that work for them?