Trapped in a toxic home, isolated for 4 years, and failing a high-stakes exam. I feel completely hopeless

I’m reaching out here because I have no one in my real life to talk to and I desperately need perspective.
For context, I’m from India, where there’s an extreme amount of pressure placed on entering the medical field. For the past 4 years, I have been isolating myself to study for NEET—India’s single, hyper-competitive national medical entrance exam where millions of students compete for a tiny fraction of seats. Because I devoted everything to this, I haven't socialized, made friends, or lived a normal life since I was a teenager.
Now, it’s clear I won't get into a college. My family is heavily blaming me for failing, completely ignoring how brutal this exam is.
What makes it ten times worse is my home environment. My parents fight constantly, and it frequently turns physical, mostly caused by my dad. Living surrounded by severe domestic violence and chaos while trying to study for years has completely broken me mentally. On top of that, my family is struggling financially, so I don't even have the money to leave the house, buy a small comfort, or distract myself.
I feel completely "dead inside," trapped in a abusive house, financially dependent, and without any friends or future prospects. I genuinely struggle to see a purpose or a way forward right now.
Has anyone survived extreme isolation, a violent household, and major academic failure all at once? How do you rebuild your life from zero when you have no money and no support system? Any advice or kind words would mean a lot.

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u/Highligh1234 — 1 day ago

Anyone wanna learn or just want to have a dil in a swimming pool

Im bored and rotting at house
Plus garmi bhi bohot hai
So if u live near like vasant kunj ir u can come there we could like swim together and compete or i could teach you how to swim in like prices of pennies
Age 17-26

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u/Highligh1234 — 3 days ago

Anyone wanna learn or just wanna dip in pool

Im bored and rotting at house
Plus garmi bhi bohot hai
So if u live near like vasant kunj ir u can come there we could like swim together and compete or i could teach you how to swim in like prices of pennies
Age 17-26

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u/Highligh1234 — 3 days ago

Double standard in romance tropes: Why is a guy being unconditionally loyal called "pure romance," but a woman doing it called "bad writing"?

**I’ve noticed a major double standard in how audiences react to unconditional loyalty in romance movies and shows.**
**Think about movies like** ***Dilwale*** **(SRK being completely devoted to Kajol even after betrayal/misunderstandings) or shows like** ***When Life Gives You Tangerines*** **(where the male lead worships the ground the female lead walks on despite her being rough around the edges or pushing him away). Audiences** ***adore*** **these shows. The male lead is praised as the ultimate green flag, and the story is seen as peak romance.** 
**However, the moment you flip the script and have a female lead who is endlessly patient, forgiving, and devoted to a flawed or messy male lead, the reaction flips completely:**
**1. People instantly rate it badly, calling the writing "weak" or "outdated."**
**2. Critics argue that "no self-respecting woman in real life would act like this."**
**3. It gets accused of being "offensive to women" or promoting female oppression by making her the emotional caretaker.**
**Why is a man giving his absolute everything and forgiving a woman's flaws seen as the highest form of romantic writing, but a woman doing the exact same thing for a man viewed as toxic or bad representation?**
**If unconditional devotion is romantic for one gender, shouldn't it be viewed as romantic for both? Or have we just decided that "simping" is only acceptable when the guy does it?**

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u/Highligh1234 — 3 days ago

Double standard in romance tropes: Why is a guy being unconditionally loyal called "pure romance," but a woman doing it called "bad writing"?

I’ve noticed a major double standard in how audiences react to unconditional loyalty in romance movies and shows.
Think about movies like Dilwale (SRK being completely devoted to Kajol even after betrayal/misunderstandings) or shows like When Life Gives You Tangerines (where the male lead worships the ground the female lead walks on despite her being rough around the edges or pushing him away). Audiences adore these shows. The male lead is praised as the ultimate green flag, and the story is seen as peak romance. 
However, the moment you flip the script and have a female lead who is endlessly patient, forgiving, and devoted to a flawed or messy male lead, the reaction flips completely:
1. People instantly rate it badly, calling the writing "weak" or "outdated."
2. Critics argue that "no self-respecting woman in real life would act like this."
3. It gets accused of being "offensive to women" or promoting female oppression by making her the emotional caretaker.
Why is a man giving his absolute everything and forgiving a woman's flaws seen as the highest form of romantic writing, but a woman doing the exact same thing for a man viewed as toxic or bad representation?
If unconditional devotion is romantic for one gender, shouldn't it be viewed as romantic for both? Or have we just decided that "simping" is only acceptable when the guy does it?

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u/Highligh1234 — 3 days ago

does this mean i got a seat into college and need to physical report or am getting happy for no reason

please lemme k can i be happy or not

u/Highligh1234 — 21 days ago
▲ 7 r/tcltvs

My new tcl is screen bleeding t89c

Its a qled tv
Like should i be concerned or it is normal on tvs

u/Highligh1234 — 26 days ago

looking for 2bhk near vasant kunj ,vasant vihar ,malviye nagar all place connecting to metro near this

my whole family wants to shift
to any of these location so need a personal 2bhk
if under 20k great
or else we can discuss pricess on dm

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u/Highligh1234 — 29 days ago

Why dint I received any mail from niser😭😭😭😭

Same as title
I have the eoi ka pdf in which i did yes
Still no mail here people r getting mail for entrance?????

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u/Highligh1234 — 1 month ago

Suggestions for ssd

I want a ssd so i need suggestions which will give me most price to performance ratio
So suggest some in the comments please
Im thinking to buy it on emi
512gb ssd
Please suggeat some
Edit
Under 5k please

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u/Highligh1234 — 2 months ago

NEED 1BHK RENTAL NEAR ANDHERI EAST | FEMALE FRIENDLY

Hi, I am looking for a 1bhk rental in/around Andheri East in Bombay within a budget of 20-25K semi/fully furnished flat/apartment for shifting from this August. I am single female, from delhi, shall be shifting to bombay for my corporate job, please please let me know if there are any leads for the rental property, since I have less idea about bombay. I am also comfortable living with flatmates too.

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u/Highligh1234 — 2 months ago

Uploading documents

So when the window opened for doc upload
I logined and checked everything was already uploaded like marksheet everything
Was i supposed to upload smthg moreliie i uploaded those things when i was registering for iat

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u/Highligh1234 — 2 months ago

Looking for Nvme m.2 ssd 256 or 512

In delhi only f2f looking for

Drop down your prices
Im a student my ssd crashed due to too much indexing so no highballs please
PRICE: 1INR

u/Highligh1234 — 2 months ago

SciAstra model test paper

Why am I scoring more in SciAstra model test paper and low in pyqp
Like I scored 89 in model and 67in 2024pyp

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u/Highligh1234 — 3 months ago

IM SCARED AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

im sc category and scored 64 in 2025
and 84 in 2018
ans scoring 70-80 in mocks i just want a college
i dont have maths
so i attempt pcb section only

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u/Highligh1234 — 3 months ago
▲ 42 r/CATHELP+1 crossposts

Help he lost his nail 1-2days ago ,I ain’t rich to afford vet he is a stray ,so home remedies please

I don’t know what to do the other nail is also bleeding a lil
2-3year cat he is stray just comes home to eat but I can’t see him in pain any help
Country in India Delhi
I’m 20years of age a student ,I buy him food with the funds I get even the food is tough for me but I arrange any how

u/Highligh1234 — 3 months ago
▲ 2 r/Pets

Help needed

So I'm harsh a ,20years old a student ,and I have this stray cat which comes to my house and spend some time with me but is mostly out

.I buy him food from my expenses like dry grainzero and some chocosticks and biscuits

But I come from a very bad financial background, I try my best to provide him how much I can but 2-3days ago ,he came to me vocalizingg in pain and breathing like a dog

I used ai tools for help everyone one of em said to take him to a vet

We r very financial bad in condition. So I couldn't understand why was he vocalizing I thought it was due to heat of summers

I gave him water he ignored it

Now today I saw one of his nail was bent and damaged

,any kind of help would be helpful

Bcz I cannot see him directly die on my home

He still roams around for most of the time ,in hear and as he is a stray I don't stop him

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u/Highligh1234 — 3 months ago