u/Imaginary_Choice2492

i was suicidal for years now, in and out (mostly in obviously) and nothing seems to hold me in this life from committing aside from fear of pain and surviving

i’ve been visiting a therapist in a community hospital, the first therapist who is easy for me to get along with and share my feelings, yet he can’t really help me since i’m like, way too deep in my urge to die?😭 i feel ashamed and responsible for relying on this person and not being able to get better with or without his help