Tired of being selfish

So, I like playing video games. They're one of my biggest passions in life...but I wish I didn't. I'm currently painfully unemployed, yet video games are one of the most expensive hobbies I could have ever become addicted to, especially for someone who's as useless as I am. And the worst part is that we're currently in a really bad financial situation...and yet I still can't help but want to waste money on fucking video games. I'm tired of being so entirely and utterly worthless. I want to matter for once and stop being a parasite.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 3 days ago

Can't find a path

I've been trying to get to new squares, but every square I can fight that brings me somewhere new needs a fire rod, and I can't get any. Am I missing something?

u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 9 days ago

22 [T4F] Mid-East USA Single pringle looking for some companions

Hai! Name's Sora Senata! I'm an...admittedly pretty lonely gamer looking for some friends to chill with. Here's some basic information about me.

Interests: I love gaming, drawing, and anime. I may be missing several critical pieces of anime and gaming culture, I can and will rant for hours about what I do know.

Dating style: I'm admittedly not too much of a talker, but I am really good at listening and either giving advice or just being there. My love languages are compliments and ranting about stuff I enjoy. I hope to be the type of person you feel okay with doing the same with. I'm okay with more or less anything as long as everything is clear and okay with everyone. I want equal treatment, equal respect, equal loyalty, and equal kindness. As long as that is met and boundaries are respected, all is chill with me.

Also, in case it's important info, I am a trans woman who has yet to undergo hrt, and I don't want to date any amab people. I mean no offense to anyone who is amab, but my preference is just afab cis girls.

If you're interested, hit me up with your fave game, and your favorite joke/pun.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 12 days ago

Lost and confused

It's fucking pathetic.

I can't do anything, no matter how hard I try.

I cannot look at myself in mirrors or pictures without being sick.

I can't even go to sleep or wake up on time.

When I can begin something, I can't keep it up.

No one wants me.

No one cares about me.

My mere existance is too toxic for anyone to survive.

I'm not enough for anything I do.

I'm not strong.

I'm not smart.

I haven't succeeded in anything in years.

The only life goal I've achieved is graduating highschool, one of the most automatic participation trophies ever.

I'm not talented.

There's no point to my existance.

I was so toxic, even my birth mother didn't want me.

No matter how hard I try, the only sort of peace and healing I can manage is a week at most before I come crumbling back down.

I just wanna know what's wrong with me. Why am I like this. Why is nothing I do ever good enough. Why am I just a toxic parasite and nothing else. I would give everything for someone else to live my life for me.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 15 days ago

22 [T4F] Mid-East USA Single pringle looking for some companions

Hai! Name's Sora Senata! I'm an...admittedly pretty lonely gamer looking for some friends to chill with. Here's some basic information about me.

Interests: I love gaming, drawing, and anime. I may be missing several critical pieces of anime and gaming culture, I can and will rant for hours about what I do know.

Dating style: I'm admittedly not too much of a talker, but I am really good at listening and either giving advice or just being there. My love languages are compliments and ranting about stuff I enjoy. I hope to be the type of person you feel okay with doing the same with. I'm okay with more or less anything as long as everything is clear and okay with everyone. I want equal treatment, equal respect, equal loyalty, and equal kindness. As long as that is met and boundaries are respected, all is chill with me.

Also, in case it's important info, I am a trans woman who has yet to undergo hrt, and I don't want to date any amab people. I mean no offense to anyone who is amab, but my preference is just afab cis girls.

If you're interested, hit me up with your fave game, and your favorite joke/pun.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 18 days ago

Fixing a computer after a storm

So, a few days ago, we got hit by a pretty big, but quick storm. I thought we were fine, but the morning after, my desktop pc won't turn on. I haven't been able to quite able to figure out what happened, all I know is that when I press the power button, the little white light under the button turns on, but nothing else, and it turns off as soon as I let go of the button. I don't know if it's against the rules, but if anyone needs me to, I can post the screenshots of the amazon page where I ordered it, but here's the pc name from amazon.

HP Gaming PC Desktop Computer, Intel i5 up to 3.6GHz, GeForce GTX 1660 Super 6G, 16GB Memory, 512G SSD + 3TB, RGB Keyboard & Mouse, WiFi & Bluetooth 5.0, Win 11 Pro (Renewed)

If anyone can help, please and thank you.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 22 days ago

I'm starting to believe deletion is the best answer

I'm sick and tired of nothing going my way anymore. Nothing I do matters. Nothing I do makes anything better. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm really starting to believe suicide is the best answer. Cause there's no hope for me. I've already made too many mistakes to possibly recover from. I've ran out of second chances. But I can't. Suicide isn't an option cause I'm a fucking idiot and promised my friends I never would. So all I can do is wait for fate to finally kill me naturally, or fate to finally decide to let me fucking breathe and be worth something.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 1 month ago

Looking for interesting mods

My question is pretty simple. I'm looking for curse-forge mods that do things like:
New biomes
New creatures
New dimensions
New weapons
New combat tricks
Fancy animations
All that sort of thing. I just have two "limits".
I don't want overpowered stuff. I want things to be fair and realistically powered.
I want things to be compatible with Minecraft Comes Alive and the Integrated MC modpack.
Please and thank you.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 1 month ago
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Separate game audio from my voice

So I want to make clips from a video, but the game audio is so loud compared to my voice. Is it possible to separate the audio from the game and my voice, and lower the volume of the game?

I'm using version 7.3.0 on a windows pc.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 1 month ago

Separate game audio from my voice

So I want to make clips from a video, but the game audio is so loud compared to my voice. Is it possible to separate the audio from the game and my voice, and lower the volume of the game?

I'm using version 13.6.4 on a windows pc.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 1 month ago

22 [T4F] Mid-East USA Single pringle looking for some companions

Hai! Name's Sora Senata! I'm an...admittedly pretty lonely gamer looking for some friends to chill with. Here's some basic information about me.

Interests: I love gaming, drawing, and anime. I may be missing several critical pieces of anime and gaming culture, I can and will rant for hours about what I do know.

Dating style: I'm admittedly not too much of a talker, but I am really good at listening and either giving advice or just being there. My love languages are compliments and ranting about stuff I enjoy. I hope to be the type of person you feel okay with doing the same with. I'm okay with more or less anything as long as everything is clear and okay with everyone. I want equal treatment, equal respect, equal loyalty, and equal kindness. As long as that is met and boundaries are respected, all is chill with me.

Also, in case it's important info, I am a trans woman who has yet to undergo hrt, and I don't want to date any men. I'm sorry guys, your great, but I like girls and girls only.

If you're interested, hit me up with your fave game, and your favorite joke/pun.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 1 month ago

22 [TF] Looking for friendly peeps

Hai! Name's Sora Senata! I'm an...admittedly pretty lonely gamer looking for some friends to chill with. Here's some basic information about me.

Interests: I love gaming, drawing, and anime. I may be missing several critical pieces of anime and gaming culture, I can and will rant for hours about what I do know.

Fave games: My favorite game of all time is Persona 5 Royal, but when it comes to multiplayer games...admittedly I am a bit lacking in terms of those. I habe Overwatch, modded Dragon Ball Xenoverse 2, Terraria, and Minecraft. Other games that aren't mutiplayer that I still enjoy are both Sonic Adventure games, Cyberpunk 2077, Subnautica 1 and Below Zero (I don't have 2 yet and don't want to play it yet), Detroit Become Human, Hyrule Warriors, and some others.

I don't usually do voice chats, but I am down for them as long as you don't mind me getting pulled away from them to help my house.

If you're interested, hit me up with your fave game, and your favorite joke/pun.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 1 month ago

Lost and confused

I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I've done everything right. I've done everything I've been told to do. I've faced my fears despite being a coward. What do I do. It's hopeless. I can't keep doing this anymore. I'm sick of always losing. I just want to win for once. I just want to matter for once. I want my life to matter. I want to make a difference for once.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 2 months ago

I wanna hide a post from a specific user, but I don't want to block them, I just wanna hide one specific post. Is that possible or am I gonna have to hope they don't see it?

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 2 months ago

Why am I so worthless. I do everything I'm supposed to. I've done everything right. So why am I still worthless. Why am I just a parasite. Everyone else can do things without having their own brain and body revolt. I hate my mother so much for letting me be born. If she was smart enough to not have me, everyone would be so much better. But now I can't do anything cause my friends were burdened with the knowledge of my existance. And I was stupid enough to promise them I would live. Anyone else could live my life better than I can. And I hate complaining because I shouldn't be this worthless. I shouldn't be this broken. I have no excuse, no reason, nothing that could ever make my worthlessness okay.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 2 months ago

So, if an item says it's sometimes available in the shop, does that also mean it's available in loot boxes?

I ask specifically about Remattra's R-7K Preserver skin and Serve The Balance highlight intro.

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u/Leafy_Kozasshu — 2 months ago